Perhaps I'll post some pics later. Took some good pictures recently, a couple photos of some brown bears that frequent this area and some others.
I've been pretty miserable lately, though. I'm tired of seeing the same 3 faces since mid-May, need a change...my work ends around mid-September, which isn't that far away, but I still count the days. My anxiety came back unexpectedly with a vengeance in the past couple weeks...I've resorted to taking 5 mgs diazepam/night (via an Rx I have) which helps somewhat...have to take them at night, though, as I dislike the sedation that comes from diazepam & it works somewhat well as a sleeping pill. Somehow it feels like I'm cheating on my sobriety even though it's an entirely legal prescription for (what I believe) is a legitimate "mood disorder"...never had any particular inclination to abuse benzodiazepines anyway.
It feels like one massive, sustained panic attack. The fear is based upon something which I consider to be rational (the state of my physical health, which is compromised) so I find it especially difficult to beat.
With all that being said, I've been completely sober from opiates for about 3 months now. (except for a bit of kratom back in July, if you care to count that...)
Kudos on your three months! Regarding taking benzos, if you have a legitimate medical need for a medication and are not abusing it, it's not cheating, don't feel that way, it's not productive. You're taking care of your health, which is productive, and you should be proud of all the progress you have made! I've found, particularly with health issues, to focus as much as I can on the positive, especially if not everything is in your control. Just wanted to share - keep up the great work!!!