Severe Flatness for Weeks After

[ionblue]

I've taken Ecstasy pills and 'caps' (supposedly more pure MDMA) around 10-15 times in 2 years, when i roll i never re-dose and only take one normal sized dose.

The last (and final) time i rolled, i took a cap off this guy who my college friends said sold 'really good stuff.'
It did feel really good but i'm almost sure (especially after doing research) that it was cut with meth or some kind of stimulant, i'm pretty sure of this because i couldn't sleep all night.

Here's where things go south, the next few days i felt very flat which is common when i have taken stuff in the past but it has been a couple of weeks now and this feeling is still there. I have no energy, no motivation, feel tired all the time and i feel like all my happy chemicals are just gone, a long with severe brain fog and decreased mental function. I assumed that perhaps i just need an extended break to get back to normal but i've been doing more research and i'm actually quite concerned now.

What i came across that has changed my view on taking pills:

1) BZP is commonly cut in pills or used as an Ecstasy replacement, which can causes serious kidney/liver damage.
2) MDMA is commonly cut with Meth which causes permanent brain damage and ruins your dopamine levels.

Now i've been worrying myself sick about the fact that while i thought i was taking mostly MDMA, what i could really have been taking is a whole bunch of meth.

Will I recover? I plan on never taking drugs again after this realisation regarding meth laced Ecstacy and these symptoms i am experiencing.
If what i was taking was MDMA, i wouldn't be as concerned due to the research showing that Serotonin can mostly recover after abstinence.
Could I have caused damage to the dopamine producing areas in my brain from meth cut in the pills i've taken over the years?

 

[Jabberwocky]

It did feel really good but i'm almost sure (especially after doing research) that it was cut with meth or some kind of stimulant, i'm pretty sure of this because i couldn't sleep all night.


1) BZP is commonly cut in pills or used as an Ecstasy replacement, which can causes serious kidney/liver damage.
2) MDMA is commonly cut with Meth which causes permanent brain damage and ruins your dopamine levels.

1. Higher doses of MDMA will feel speedy at the end of the roll, as will MDA (which has been going around) -- higher doses convert to more HMA MDA and HMMA by your liver -- all active methamphetamines

2. I haven't seen BZP as an adulterant recently, but if it felt really good, it probably wasn't BZP -- cause that shit usually makes you sick and sweaty in any amount that is dangerous.

3. If you did a couple hundred milligrams of meth you would most likely have been up for a long time -- long. -- But even if you did, it didn't cause any damage -- and for the meth to not fuck up the roll there was likely not much at all

4. SO -- your mood is most likely because you are worrying yourself shitless.

5. You are almost certainly not suffering from any brain damage, but just the after effects of a larger than normal dose of MDXX.

 

[ionblue]

1. Higher doses of MDMA will feel speedy at the end of the roll, as will MDA (which has been going around) -- higher doses convert to more HMA MDA and HMMA by your liver -- all active methamphetamines

2. I haven't seen BZP as an adulterant recently, but if it felt really good, it probably wasn't BZP -- cause that shit usually makes you sick and sweaty in any amount that is dangerous.

3. If you did a couple hundred milligrams of meth you would most likely have been up for a long time -- long. -- But even if you did, it didn't cause any damage -- and for the meth to not fuck up the roll there was likely not much at all

4. SO -- your mood is most likely because you are worrying yourself shitless.

5. You are almost certainly not suffering from any brain damage, but just the after effects of a larger than normal dose of MDXX.

Look thanks mate, I appreciate that. Little bit of peace of mind never hurt, although I will be staying away from all drugs from now on.