I have been reading here for years and posted a few anon questions but I can't respond to them when moved so decided to make an account because I need some help/curious, whatever and holy shit could this be any harder to register???
6 questions later and I'm about to toss my puter across the room.
Principles of opiates- morphine? I don't fkn know- WRONG answer.
Middle name of some guy who invented TV? Google just gave me the letter T. WRONG ANSWER.
I'm note xactly in my best mental shape here and this shits like..wtf. How about what comes after the letter A?
Atleast I got the KNEE question, correct. :D
Seriously, I'm usually really chill but I just got released from trying to kill myself so my head is not on right and these questions are super hard for someone who's head is screwed up, I can't even imagine being wonked out on drugs trying to finagle that.
Long time Depression, etc etc, blah blah.
I haven't been depressed lately because I have a great psychologist and I'm on medication to control stuff.
Actually, half my life is better than ever in the sense of being active and starting to meet people, etc.
No drug abuse, no alcohol abuse been going on. I have prescriptions for klonopin and xanax- klonopin off and on (mostly on) for 16 years and never abused them because I don't get any high or anything from them and they actually are a good med for me.
But. I got fed up.
Some really messed up kick in the soul thing happened one night and then the next morning all hell broke loose at work and I just...decided to have a couple glasses of wine and some cigs. (I quit smoking 2 years ago.) I had wine, a few cigs, sat outside and decided I was sick of shit.
Came in the house, laid down with the wine and a bottle of klonopin and decided to take a long freaking nap. (Being sarcastic there.)
Someone off the internet I had been chatting with (not a crisis worker or anything) managed to locate me and called the police.
I don't know how and haven't asked but can track anyone anywhere nowadays I guess.
Ok, so....Questions...
I'm female and a bmi of 18.
I had a box of wine and a bottle of Klonopin plus my regular dose of antidepressants, etc.
It did nothing. I mean frickin nothing.
While at the hospital, my blood work showed nothing.
This is not the first time this has happened.
Years ago I was even DRUNK AS SHIT- Black out drunk and got blood tested and it showed zero alcohol level.
What the hell is going on here? I never show anything in my blood stream- how is this possible?
My dad was a major heroin addict with a tolerance to kill an elephant but could that have affected me somehow genetically?
There has to be a logical reason here and hospital foul ups spread out over the years and different hospitals doesn't seem likely.
Am I metabolizing drugs and alcohol like the wind in a hurricane?
Also...while hospitalized this doctor came to talk to me "off the record" and I swear, I'm not making this up....told me that doctors are talking heavily off the record, along with some social workers but not to say anything to the one that was there at the time because he didn't know where she was at in this....about microdosing patients with LSD and experimenting with...um...what you call it? Phonetically- Filosibin. I think those are mushrooms.
He told me to go to alternet.com (?) and read up.
He asked me if I smoke weed and I said no. Which is true- I don't do drugs. He suggested I may even want to find a doctor in Colorado.
I know this must sound like I was hallucinating or something but I wasn't.
What the frick is going on here?
I live in a very rural place, this isn't like Los Angeles or some place that I would even imagine for a second that illegal drugs are what's being recommended to patients. I'm totally shocked here. (I'm not saying shit to anyone of course because if there's something to this, I'm in.)
Thing is too....my regular MD in a whole nother town asked me about marijuana just a couple months ago and I got the weirdest feeling he was alluding to something but didn't come out and say it.
This Dr at Er told me antidepressants in general have about the same effect as placebo and can be harmful more than good and that the hope is in the future of these other psychosomething substances. He said to go along with whatever the state hospital for sui people suggest, play their game and then get out and research. He said he isn't telling me to do anything other than keep an open mind and research. Off the record. Has he lost his mind or is this legit? There's an underground of dr's seriously getting into this?
If so- where are we at with this?!? He said I may even be able to find a trial study but I don't know anything about any of this.
With that said. My spouse is 15 years older than me (he's 51) and while totally straight business guy now and no one would ever have any clue- back in his "days" he used to be a chemist and make lsd and such.
I've asked him in the past about LSD but he said he'd be scared I would flip the F out. With the doctor suggesting this and I told hubs he had said .5 but hubs said 500 something is probably what he meant? I dunno, like I said- this not my field of knowledge, hubs was thinking pretty hard on this.
He said he doesn't even now where to get cultures and stuff right off hand and I seriously doubt this will go anywhere but who else to kick this off of other than you awesome folks?
Thoughts?
6 questions later and I'm about to toss my puter across the room.
Principles of opiates- morphine? I don't fkn know- WRONG answer.
Middle name of some guy who invented TV? Google just gave me the letter T. WRONG ANSWER.
I'm note xactly in my best mental shape here and this shits like..wtf. How about what comes after the letter A?
Atleast I got the KNEE question, correct. :D
Seriously, I'm usually really chill but I just got released from trying to kill myself so my head is not on right and these questions are super hard for someone who's head is screwed up, I can't even imagine being wonked out on drugs trying to finagle that.
Long time Depression, etc etc, blah blah.
I haven't been depressed lately because I have a great psychologist and I'm on medication to control stuff.
Actually, half my life is better than ever in the sense of being active and starting to meet people, etc.
No drug abuse, no alcohol abuse been going on. I have prescriptions for klonopin and xanax- klonopin off and on (mostly on) for 16 years and never abused them because I don't get any high or anything from them and they actually are a good med for me.
But. I got fed up.
Some really messed up kick in the soul thing happened one night and then the next morning all hell broke loose at work and I just...decided to have a couple glasses of wine and some cigs. (I quit smoking 2 years ago.) I had wine, a few cigs, sat outside and decided I was sick of shit.
Came in the house, laid down with the wine and a bottle of klonopin and decided to take a long freaking nap. (Being sarcastic there.)
Someone off the internet I had been chatting with (not a crisis worker or anything) managed to locate me and called the police.
I don't know how and haven't asked but can track anyone anywhere nowadays I guess.
Ok, so....Questions...
I'm female and a bmi of 18.
I had a box of wine and a bottle of Klonopin plus my regular dose of antidepressants, etc.
It did nothing. I mean frickin nothing.
While at the hospital, my blood work showed nothing.
This is not the first time this has happened.
Years ago I was even DRUNK AS SHIT- Black out drunk and got blood tested and it showed zero alcohol level.
What the hell is going on here? I never show anything in my blood stream- how is this possible?
My dad was a major heroin addict with a tolerance to kill an elephant but could that have affected me somehow genetically?
There has to be a logical reason here and hospital foul ups spread out over the years and different hospitals doesn't seem likely.
Am I metabolizing drugs and alcohol like the wind in a hurricane?
Also...while hospitalized this doctor came to talk to me "off the record" and I swear, I'm not making this up....told me that doctors are talking heavily off the record, along with some social workers but not to say anything to the one that was there at the time because he didn't know where she was at in this....about microdosing patients with LSD and experimenting with...um...what you call it? Phonetically- Filosibin. I think those are mushrooms.
He told me to go to alternet.com (?) and read up.
He asked me if I smoke weed and I said no. Which is true- I don't do drugs. He suggested I may even want to find a doctor in Colorado.
I know this must sound like I was hallucinating or something but I wasn't.
What the frick is going on here?
I live in a very rural place, this isn't like Los Angeles or some place that I would even imagine for a second that illegal drugs are what's being recommended to patients. I'm totally shocked here. (I'm not saying shit to anyone of course because if there's something to this, I'm in.)
Thing is too....my regular MD in a whole nother town asked me about marijuana just a couple months ago and I got the weirdest feeling he was alluding to something but didn't come out and say it.
This Dr at Er told me antidepressants in general have about the same effect as placebo and can be harmful more than good and that the hope is in the future of these other psychosomething substances. He said to go along with whatever the state hospital for sui people suggest, play their game and then get out and research. He said he isn't telling me to do anything other than keep an open mind and research. Off the record. Has he lost his mind or is this legit? There's an underground of dr's seriously getting into this?
If so- where are we at with this?!? He said I may even be able to find a trial study but I don't know anything about any of this.
With that said. My spouse is 15 years older than me (he's 51) and while totally straight business guy now and no one would ever have any clue- back in his "days" he used to be a chemist and make lsd and such.
I've asked him in the past about LSD but he said he'd be scared I would flip the F out. With the doctor suggesting this and I told hubs he had said .5 but hubs said 500 something is probably what he meant? I dunno, like I said- this not my field of knowledge, hubs was thinking pretty hard on this.
He said he doesn't even now where to get cultures and stuff right off hand and I seriously doubt this will go anywhere but who else to kick this off of other than you awesome folks?
Thoughts?
