notselinakyle
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 19, 2016
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So this is really sad, and well mostly, annoying. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced/is going through the same thing?
So I've abused ecstacy pills, mdma, and mephedrone really badly in the past two years. To the point where for a while now, I literally dont feel the highs anymore. I tried taking a break (no longer than 2 months on my record) however without any luck. I mean, if i'm lucky the highs will last 3-4 hours tops then I will experience a number of a few things, mental and physical:
-Chest pain
-Neck pain (almost always)
-Spinal shivers
-Tiredness and general fatigue
-Grumpyness/moodyness generally being negative
-Paranoia (mild, mostly auditory, for example I dislike being around loud things after a while need peace and quiet)
I hate this. I genuinley just hate this. I just want to have a good time with my pals, I'm only 19 and I know people have been doing drugs way longer than me and they seem at a better off place. I just dont seem to feel the positive effects of stimulants/amphetamines anymore? I mean I feel fucked, but in a strange way. I reckon it might be because my dosage was very high in my early days, it started high and just kept going higher.
What is there to be done?
So I've abused ecstacy pills, mdma, and mephedrone really badly in the past two years. To the point where for a while now, I literally dont feel the highs anymore. I tried taking a break (no longer than 2 months on my record) however without any luck. I mean, if i'm lucky the highs will last 3-4 hours tops then I will experience a number of a few things, mental and physical:
-Chest pain
-Neck pain (almost always)
-Spinal shivers
-Tiredness and general fatigue
-Grumpyness/moodyness generally being negative
-Paranoia (mild, mostly auditory, for example I dislike being around loud things after a while need peace and quiet)
I hate this. I genuinley just hate this. I just want to have a good time with my pals, I'm only 19 and I know people have been doing drugs way longer than me and they seem at a better off place. I just dont seem to feel the positive effects of stimulants/amphetamines anymore? I mean I feel fucked, but in a strange way. I reckon it might be because my dosage was very high in my early days, it started high and just kept going higher.
What is there to be done?

Your brain gets used to a lot of things.. It sucks.