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How many of you have quit drugs since joining BL?

Went from looking for harm reduction for pretty much every category of drugs over a 3+ year period. Started digging myself a hole, and had to quit mainly due to health problems. If it wasn't for the health problems I wouldn't have curbed my use.

Now I mostly post in sober living, helps to keep my head straight... hoping I can keep it that way. There are some great threads / posters there.
 
I quit drinking 24/7 since joining. Now I drink VERY very occasionally. Like not even once a month. I was a very terrible alcoholic just a few years ago. However I have been struggling with other polydrug abuse (heroin, crack/coke, whatever--IV) on and off since joining. I am currently on suboxone and in IOP.... for the millionth time.

I stay on the site because not all of the forums are about using or abusing drugs. There is much offered here in terms of support/recovery as well as topics unrelated to drug use.
 
Sprout said:
I gain and drop dependencies like a butter-fingered child in a firework factory.
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Same, I can give up anything as long as I have something to replace it with... its a false sense of control. Leads to lots of rationalization ime. Eventually I'll try giving up everything, maybe succeed, and then use that as further rationalization ammo.
 
^ I'm experiencing "total sobriety" currently (not even smoking cannabis) and it sucks. (Well, I'm still drinking coffee, so I guess caffeine counts...?) My quality of life is much better overall when there's a psychoactive substance in my life (namely cannabis). The thing is, I don't consider sobriety in-and-of-itself to be any kind of virtue...for some people it's necessary, because their life goes completely down the drain if they consume anything psychoactive. Certain people have told me that they have 0 self-control and I have no reason to believe that they're lying.

But is a person who leads a fulfilling life which includes some regular but moderated substance use any worse off than a miserable teetotaler? I don't think so.
 
Agreed. My life isn't objectively better when I am off weed, or off booze, or off coffee, etc. I stopped tripping because I got the message and hung up the phone. Other drugs to me are purely recreational and thankfully have remained so.

You make a good point that being drug free for the sake of being drug free is a poor reason.
 
SirTophamHat said:
Same, I can give up anything as long as I have something to replace it with... its a false sense of control.
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As long as it's at least as enjoyable (or close) as the previous substance, it works for me too.

I agree with the point Burnt Offerings makes, and it's something I've been telling myself and others for a while. Just being substance-free doesn't automatically make one's life good, and neither does the reverse make one's life miserable automatically.
 
Well, when I first joined I was on an oxy/fentanyl dependency. I had recently relapsed after about 9 years clean, I had previous IV heroin and cocaine addictions dating back to the early 1990s.

Right after I joined sandoz discontinued their fentanyl matrix patches (the only ones that you could pop a piece in your mouth and within 15 min it was completely dissolved. Probably why they stopped distributing them. All other brands don't work that well), an anyway that use skyrocketed my tolerance so I found myself on an equivalent bundle + per day habit.

I lurked for a bit before joining, was looking for info about fentanyl and subs I think, but just found a lot of the site interesting

I've now been back in a methadone clinic since 2014, slowly coming down (at 40 mg down from 95). I had a few months of clean time before picking up again, then getting arrested on a bullsh*t possession charge that was dropped but that was what propelled me into the clinic again.

Anyway I have been on here while in full fledged shoot up heroin and cocaine times (as well as during wd for something to occupy my mind), through clean time through clean/methadone time. I haven't used other than methadone in 2 years. This site doesn't trigger me to use. Actually, quite honestly, reading some of the threads in OD motivate me never to pick up again! Just kind of a reminder of where I was at one point---and how much happier I am now

But I stay because it not only motivates me with "what not to do", I also feel my experiences/ knowledge can be of help to someone. I have been through the whole 9 yards from using recreationally to having my dad find me OD and blue at age 21, to prison time to clean time to relapse and homelessness to clean time again. With a bunch of stops in between. And I gained knowledge along the way--and I cringe at times reading some posts and i have to reach out to help the person learn.

I guess i am probably the odd one but reading posts about people in the throes of withdrawal or in a stimulant induced paranoia just reminds me what I don't want to experience again. It doesn't make me say "oh yeah let me go pick up some dope". So as far as triggering--nope, not at all. But the fact that I have 2 years completely clean and another year mostly clean except for a several week relapse due to dosing times (long story) may affect how I think. I know my thinking changes after a year or so clean.

So I come -to be helpful/useful
- to remember where I came from
- entertainment (some forums)
- some members feel like old friends


I can definitely understand why someone newly clean might be triggered by the thought of dope ....
 
I actually had my longest period of sobriety (62 days) as a member of bluelight. I almost never posted during this time, but now I love this site. There's no doubt that I love reading about drugs, experiences with them, and how people live while doing them.
 
PerfectDisguise said:
There's no doubt that I love reading about drugs, experiences with them, and how people live while doing them.
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Yeah definitely. The interest for me goes beyond simply drugs that I like and/or have done...I've read pages of threads on this site about drugs I've never done and have no interest in doing, like methadone, or some really weird esoteric research chemical...or any member of the dissociative family of drugs.

I just like reading about drugs. I imagine that won't change even if I were to quit all drugs permanently.
 
i quit doin meth/amphetamines, and heroin. i stopped smoking dmt for a few years but i think i might do it soon.

quit benzos but just cause i dont rlly like them, they bore me. i pretty much can be good with just weed and booze, but i gotta mix it up once a week with something stronger.
 
There is no such thing as quit dmt, just time between blast offs :D

I haven't smoked mah lucky strikes since December but I haven't told anyone I quit cigs cause I know it's just time passing til I find mah lucky strikes again.


I'll pretty much give any shit drug a second or third chance with the right circumstance.


really did not care for meth bomb "E" pills I'll say that
 
I've quit a few habits since joining BL.
I havent "quit (all) drugs" - but im better than i used to be.
 
I've been around longer than I've been a member with on and off clean time before and after joining. My longest stretch was eight months before joining. My longest stretch since joining was two weeks but I'm midweek through more clean time, well in body anyway. My mind goes back and forth between wanting to pick up again which would be so easy with the script I just got and not wanting to touch anything again and tear the damn thing up. So yeah my brain and body are rebelling and these next two weeks will sort out things.
 
ovo1024 said:
If anything my drug use has increased since joining almost 4 years ago.
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Same. It has very much increased. And I also switched from mostly weed/DXM/alcohol/synth cannabinoids and sometimes some weird shit like benzydamine (yeah..) to mostly heroin/methadone/buprenorphine, benzos (for stims comedowns and to potentiate opiates, never take them by themselves as I don't find them recreational in the least) and sometimes ketamine/speed paste or RC stims.
 
I quit shooting up morphine and heroin at the end of 2014, right after I joined. I stay because it's a fun way to pass time when I am doing my daily relaxing moments :)
 
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