^ Thirded. Maybe someday I'll have a cool job. Then I can say TGIM instead of TGIF.
With regard to scales, I can highly recommend
this bad boy. I confirmed its excellent accuracy by measuring a number of test weights.
And here I thought I would somehow love the heck out of it. That's why I avoided it for so long. Now I know there was no point in the first place.
I had the same reaction to amphetamines. IME, if you have zero tolerance, the first few hours of an amphetamine high can be somewhat euphoric. That's where the positives come to a dead halt, though. After the drug wears off, I just feel stressed, depressed, and angry. Everyone warned me about trying meth, because I'd like it too much. Well, considering the amphetamine package in its entirety, I actually find it to be really unappealing.
As I grow older, I learn to have a great deal of respect for my innate sense of right and wrong. If something feels good, I'm game. If it feels bad, fuck it. I used to think that addictive drugs must be an exception to this rule; they feel great, even though they're poisonous. Now I'm starting to wonder if this is true. Maybe bad drugs only feel good to people who, for some reason or other, aren't properly in tune with their bodies and minds.
Also, I believe that euphoria is, in itself, totally pointless. Chasing euphoria is like chasing your shadow. What goes up, must come down; to whatever extent you get high, you crash. I find it much more rewarding to focus on more concrete things, like developing skills, learning subjects, or making artwork. Unlike the pipe dream of living happily ever after in a pain free world of smiles and sunshine, those things are quite attainable, if you put in the effort.
Here's where I took a step back and said "I don't want to feel this way" and changed the music. The really cool epiphany I had is that ever since then, even without making a conscious effort to change my behavior, I've really chilled out since then. I'm sure there are a lot of other factors that influenced this personality shift but I'm pretty sure I can trace it back to this moment.
I can totally relate to that. Psychedelics allow you to consciously transform the way you think.