casualdruguser
Greenlighter
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- May 7, 2015
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I have been injecting morphine on a daily basis for about 3 to 4 months now. I inject twice daily, 30mg each time so im on 60mg daily of IV morphine (i never turn it into heroin). I do not chase the dragon and i accept that i do not get as high as i used to. The reason for this is because i have enough sense not to go overboard and end up on a 200+mg a day habit. So i just enjoy the light buzz and enhanced mood without the need to get really high.
I am a normal healthy 30 year old guy from a good home with a good upbringing and good friends, i do not suffer from depression nor do i have any physical health problems. I'm not on any medication nor do i have a history of addiction or drug abuse but I smoke weed and get drunk once per weekend and have done for a long time now (a weekend warrior - i work all week and enjoy drugs and alcohol on the weekends, with the exception of weed which is a daily thing). This is how my morphine addiction started - as a weekend only thing, but given the fact that it doesn't cause me any issues at work (if anything i get more done after a shot) its slowly progressed into daily use but i have been on 60mg for a while now and i do not see that changing. I partake in drugs and alcohol not to escape from any problems but mainly because im bored. I have read testimonials from addicts who say things like 'when im high everything is perfect and all my problems disappear' - i do not relate to that because i dont have any problems (except of the first world variety). I do however have undiagnosed social anxiety and so i tend not to leave the house all that often. Despite this i am happy enough with life.
Anyway, my friends/family don't know about my habit but I have become a bit anxious about what's going to happen to me when i stop. I have read horror stories and frankly it scares me. I have a good job and i really can't afford to be out of commission for weeks while i undergo withdrawal. I understand that withdrawal symptoms are highly individual specific, but i would appreciate any feedback as what i should expect in terms of withdrawal symptom severity and length based on the experience of you guys and the description of my situation.
I am a normal healthy 30 year old guy from a good home with a good upbringing and good friends, i do not suffer from depression nor do i have any physical health problems. I'm not on any medication nor do i have a history of addiction or drug abuse but I smoke weed and get drunk once per weekend and have done for a long time now (a weekend warrior - i work all week and enjoy drugs and alcohol on the weekends, with the exception of weed which is a daily thing). This is how my morphine addiction started - as a weekend only thing, but given the fact that it doesn't cause me any issues at work (if anything i get more done after a shot) its slowly progressed into daily use but i have been on 60mg for a while now and i do not see that changing. I partake in drugs and alcohol not to escape from any problems but mainly because im bored. I have read testimonials from addicts who say things like 'when im high everything is perfect and all my problems disappear' - i do not relate to that because i dont have any problems (except of the first world variety). I do however have undiagnosed social anxiety and so i tend not to leave the house all that often. Despite this i am happy enough with life.
Anyway, my friends/family don't know about my habit but I have become a bit anxious about what's going to happen to me when i stop. I have read horror stories and frankly it scares me. I have a good job and i really can't afford to be out of commission for weeks while i undergo withdrawal. I understand that withdrawal symptoms are highly individual specific, but i would appreciate any feedback as what i should expect in terms of withdrawal symptom severity and length based on the experience of you guys and the description of my situation.
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