Hello, I heard a lot of good things about this forum and decided to try this out and plan on posting here regulary. Here's my addiction story:
In 2011, my first addiction started which was alcohol (vodka.) I started this at the end of my sophomore year in high school. During my junior year, I would pour 7-8 shots of 100 proof vodka in my water bottle. Buy some cold Pepsi at the store by the school and mix the 2 together and I could literally chug all the shots in 1 big gulp sometimes 2. (I almost gag thinking about doing that now.) One day I realized I would be super moody and short tempered if I didn't have alcohol to drink that day before school. Drinking was what I looked forward to in the morning to get my day going. I never got caught being drunk by teachers. I guess my tolerance was high. Luckily, during my senior year, i have cannibus a try and realized this was a much safer route. Only drank recreationally then.
Now my opioid addiction and current main problem that I'm getting help for in 2 days at a suboxone doctor (ik trading one addiction for another but I need this for me to get my life back on track): I have a herniated disc, the l5-s1 to be exact that's pinching my nerve. During times my senior year of high school, I literally couldn't walk somedays and would have to leave school. I even had to go to er for it and was introduced to Vicodin. At first, it was ok and 2 pills of 5mg a morning would get rid of 70-80% of pain. Until a few friends said, "dude, gives us some, you get high from that and need to take more at once to feel it right." So one morning before walking into school I thought, why not? What could it hurt? I took 5 and experienced the full body warmth and no pain at all. I became very social and participated more in class. Well that's where it started then onto hydrocodones 10mg then Roxie's then h whenever the main roxy dealer got busted and snitched everyone out.
So, for the past 4 years I've been going on and off of opiates. Once in a while replacing with weed but I don't like that thc stays in your system too long for jobs that drug test that I apply for. Plus, it doesn't help chronic pain too well for me. I know there's quick fix to use and other methods, but it's too paranoing. I've been in and out of college several times. I start off the semesters really well, but get extremely unmotivated when I don't have extra money to use anything before my classes. One day I was skipping class because I told my friend I felt a little sick and too tired and stayed in my car in the parking lot. He asked when the last time I did heroin was, I said only 2 bags yesterday, not enough to have wd. He said I bet it's wd. I was like I doubt it (me tricking myself into thinking I'd never fall in that opiate trap and was too good for that.) Well, he broke me off a little piece of subutex (I never tried tex before but tried the strip version a few years prior.) I snorted the small line and what do you know; 45 minutes later I felt alive and motivated and was extremely mad at myself for skipping class.
This is where I started using subutex instead of opiates (about 5.5 months now.) It really helps with my nerve pain and gets me motivated without feeling the addictive warmth over your body that you chase. However around Christmas break we couldn't get tex and my friend claimed to have really good heroin he gets from Baltimore. It comes in capsule and I get like 5-6 doses out of one. I snort and don't shoot it so my wd isn't as bad as most I'm sure. However, I liked it more than tex until I couldn't get it and realized I fell back into the trap. This leading me the other day to call a few clinics for help.
In conclusion, in 2 days i have my first visit with a sub doctor. I also have to do drug counseling to remain in this program. What I dislike, is the receptionist said they only prescribe sub in strip form and not in pill form. If a doctor can prescribe suboxone, wouldn't you think he could also prescribe subutex? I could see if I was shooting stuff, but I don't. What's your guys opinion on this? I swear subutex helps me feel way better than those nasty tasting strips. I make tex last longer too. And another question, I can now get thc wax from a close friend. However, the sub program drug test me so I can't risk dabbing, but I believe in the long run the wax would be a much healthier option than suboxone. However, thc is illegal in my area even medically so I don't like this option, plus if the main source gets caught up then there goes the wax. Also, what I like with sub is knowing there's no point in wasting money on opiates knowing I won't feel them anyways and this will all be legal for me.
So what do you guys think? Risk the wax option and avoid jobs that drug test? Go through with the sub program? I figure within a year or 2 thc should at least be medically available in my area and using sub temporary until then. And the last concern is what happens if my herniated disc inflames pain enough to where I can't walk again? Go back to my home doctor when I can't walk and he gives me hydro but i tell him I'm on sub so can't take them. Then him being like why the hell are you on that? Should I order u47700 for certain pain occasions? Sub doesn't block u4700 does it? And kratom isn't an option. I've tried over 20 brands and it doesn't give enough pain relief and I puke easy from it. Thanks guys, and sorry for the long write up. First time I ever got these things off my chest.
In 2011, my first addiction started which was alcohol (vodka.) I started this at the end of my sophomore year in high school. During my junior year, I would pour 7-8 shots of 100 proof vodka in my water bottle. Buy some cold Pepsi at the store by the school and mix the 2 together and I could literally chug all the shots in 1 big gulp sometimes 2. (I almost gag thinking about doing that now.) One day I realized I would be super moody and short tempered if I didn't have alcohol to drink that day before school. Drinking was what I looked forward to in the morning to get my day going. I never got caught being drunk by teachers. I guess my tolerance was high. Luckily, during my senior year, i have cannibus a try and realized this was a much safer route. Only drank recreationally then.
Now my opioid addiction and current main problem that I'm getting help for in 2 days at a suboxone doctor (ik trading one addiction for another but I need this for me to get my life back on track): I have a herniated disc, the l5-s1 to be exact that's pinching my nerve. During times my senior year of high school, I literally couldn't walk somedays and would have to leave school. I even had to go to er for it and was introduced to Vicodin. At first, it was ok and 2 pills of 5mg a morning would get rid of 70-80% of pain. Until a few friends said, "dude, gives us some, you get high from that and need to take more at once to feel it right." So one morning before walking into school I thought, why not? What could it hurt? I took 5 and experienced the full body warmth and no pain at all. I became very social and participated more in class. Well that's where it started then onto hydrocodones 10mg then Roxie's then h whenever the main roxy dealer got busted and snitched everyone out.
So, for the past 4 years I've been going on and off of opiates. Once in a while replacing with weed but I don't like that thc stays in your system too long for jobs that drug test that I apply for. Plus, it doesn't help chronic pain too well for me. I know there's quick fix to use and other methods, but it's too paranoing. I've been in and out of college several times. I start off the semesters really well, but get extremely unmotivated when I don't have extra money to use anything before my classes. One day I was skipping class because I told my friend I felt a little sick and too tired and stayed in my car in the parking lot. He asked when the last time I did heroin was, I said only 2 bags yesterday, not enough to have wd. He said I bet it's wd. I was like I doubt it (me tricking myself into thinking I'd never fall in that opiate trap and was too good for that.) Well, he broke me off a little piece of subutex (I never tried tex before but tried the strip version a few years prior.) I snorted the small line and what do you know; 45 minutes later I felt alive and motivated and was extremely mad at myself for skipping class.
This is where I started using subutex instead of opiates (about 5.5 months now.) It really helps with my nerve pain and gets me motivated without feeling the addictive warmth over your body that you chase. However around Christmas break we couldn't get tex and my friend claimed to have really good heroin he gets from Baltimore. It comes in capsule and I get like 5-6 doses out of one. I snort and don't shoot it so my wd isn't as bad as most I'm sure. However, I liked it more than tex until I couldn't get it and realized I fell back into the trap. This leading me the other day to call a few clinics for help.
In conclusion, in 2 days i have my first visit with a sub doctor. I also have to do drug counseling to remain in this program. What I dislike, is the receptionist said they only prescribe sub in strip form and not in pill form. If a doctor can prescribe suboxone, wouldn't you think he could also prescribe subutex? I could see if I was shooting stuff, but I don't. What's your guys opinion on this? I swear subutex helps me feel way better than those nasty tasting strips. I make tex last longer too. And another question, I can now get thc wax from a close friend. However, the sub program drug test me so I can't risk dabbing, but I believe in the long run the wax would be a much healthier option than suboxone. However, thc is illegal in my area even medically so I don't like this option, plus if the main source gets caught up then there goes the wax. Also, what I like with sub is knowing there's no point in wasting money on opiates knowing I won't feel them anyways and this will all be legal for me.
So what do you guys think? Risk the wax option and avoid jobs that drug test? Go through with the sub program? I figure within a year or 2 thc should at least be medically available in my area and using sub temporary until then. And the last concern is what happens if my herniated disc inflames pain enough to where I can't walk again? Go back to my home doctor when I can't walk and he gives me hydro but i tell him I'm on sub so can't take them. Then him being like why the hell are you on that? Should I order u47700 for certain pain occasions? Sub doesn't block u4700 does it? And kratom isn't an option. I've tried over 20 brands and it doesn't give enough pain relief and I puke easy from it. Thanks guys, and sorry for the long write up. First time I ever got these things off my chest.
