I know they do n I appreciate it. I've beem weighing my doses out n noy taking as many.
Ihowevet I dont appreciate people singling me out like I'm tge only drug user or only user with a child I'd NEVER nuglect mt child. Ive a huge support network here. When I ddn't sleep for three days shw was with her cousjns
twice Sadie phonrd me n I wasn't able to talk because I waa looking after my child - first time making tea, secomd tome makinh hot chocolate n reading tomher.
Consumet Raasy n I are complicated. He's been my closesr friend omline for two years now n has been veru supportive n I won't habd a bad word said against him (a lot of online people think I'm strange for that) but sincr I've started taking 3-FPM he has turned on me, has wrote to BL admin m site owners to get them to ban ne, accusses me of abusing the site. I keep tellimg him that he's being mean n hurtful but he keeps on doing it. I asked him to please not brong this on BL now everyomes gns think "Evey ain't changed she's still causing drams" n eceryone discussing us.
I'm worried that if he forces mr off 3F I'm going to resent him n feel controlled.
I've wrote him an E-mail tgat took me four hours to think out n type n he havent even read it.
I'm 36 n people are still comtrolling me I'm never fna be allowed to make my own choice.
Thr way ive been with 3g is me "acting out" my rebelliouys. I just want people comtrolling me now morr
Will stop the 3fpm because I havr no choice.
I'm taking anothet break from here because I feel claustrophoc n box in.
Sorru for whinge. i'm so stressed n anxious with it.
Never going to be free of people comtrolliing me n making my choices for me. I feel like a child inside because of this
Evey