The first time I took a pill, I was the opposite of how someone should be on ecstasy. It was at a party, and I bumped into my ex who I was still very much in love with at the time. I was so incredibly nasty to him, screaming at him and letting out all of my built up emotions but by personally, verbally attacking him. I then passed out on the sofa feeling no remorse and really quite happy with myself. I still, to this day feel guilt and cannot believe those words came out of my mouth.
Now, I tend to stay away from pills as I dislike the person they make me become.
I've had some terrifying, vivid hallucinations on high doses of MDMA, including people with no eyes and their eyelids pinned back, peoples eyes growing from their skulls, I've mistaken random people for people I am close to and suddenly been convinced that those people are extremely upset and need caring for, almost every time I do MDMA everything i look at glitches as if the world is pixelated. Also, when I'm coming down, I almost always see flies buzzing around the room, and can sometimes hear them too. The feeling of having hairs in my mouth is also very common, and when I try and remove them, they seem to reproduce in my mouth. These things however dont result in a 'bad time' for me, though, as I am still able to understand that it is happening because of the drug. Unlike ketamine, for example, where you can think that the trip is reality. Instead, I enjoy them and am fascinated by the images my brain is able to produce.