Even though thanksgiving is an extremely emotionally painful day for me I made it through. I can say that coming to the sober living forum was very helpful. Some of you know my situation with my ex...thanksgiving was the day she poisoned me with adderal which made my panic disorder go nuts...which led me to want to go to hospital.....ehh if you want the synopsis just PM me.
I cooked an amazing meal for those I love and support me and they kept me from dwelling on the fact I lost my son and almost ended up in jail five years ago because my ex is a liar. The most important thing is I didn't use!
CH:Things getting any better? U never text me and I love talking to you.
Msox: One of the best things and worst things about recovery-"you feel everything, but you also feel everything" for the first time in a long time. Be grateful you have a good man/woman by your side to help keep it in perspective. I was a near suicidal wreck when I was going through early PAWS. Thank the lord I was in rehab and always had someone to talk to.
When I read this thread I have a sense of pride welling up inside of me. I have watched from the october thread through today and I see very real progress in everyone and it makes me want to work that much harder to stay sober. So I tip my hat to you all my fellow bluelighters!
here are some pictures of me getting dressed up a little for company and the company that came over to keep me sane8) (of course everything from scratch, and some food and fresh herbs out of my garden, along with some of my roses I grew for my centerpieces)
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I also wanted to extend a special thank you to stargazer for helping me put things in perspective and help me not to use though I really had it on my mind. You are truly one of god's gifts, and I hope you know how much it meant to me to get that emotional garbage out that was littering my side of the street.