Followup: 30m after the sublingual 2mg Ativan (atop the 2.5 I'd plugged earlier with some vodka) and it's a nice floating feeling. Nothing extreme, and nothing visual. I feel as though I could safely drive a car.
In an attempt to feel as though I could NOT safely drive a car, I've made a nice mixed drink with whiskey and assorted liquors, and am sipping that slowly. I've read that slow 'n' steady is the key here. Too much and you black out.
Of course, I've also got a bad cold and I'm on OTC meds for that, with a bit of dizziness to start with. So who the hell knows what's going on at this point. I'm just taking it a step at a time and trying to have an enjoyable evening at home. So rarely happens that the place is quiet.
Maybe if this doesn't all end in ruin I'll close out with some porn and perhaps more light butt-chugging, and do some freaky shit i wouldn't normally do.
Well, I can tell one aspect of the stuff i'm on right now: more free with my words. Still no trouble spelling or putting them together in the right order. and of course some of my grammar and punctuation choices are affectation and not unintentional mistakes.
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OK, Sipped a strong whiskey (about 1/2 of a whiskey glass) over the course of 15 delightful minutes. It's now been 20+ since I took the third dose of 2mg Ativan/Lorazepam. So far feeling delightful, but no hallucinations, blackouts or heavy effects. I'm quite sure I could fake my way through a phone call, though I'm 'floaty' enough that I wouldn't drive.
SUMMARY: butt-chugging / plugging seemed like a waste of the Ativan/Lorazepam, no matter how I did it. [Plugging 1-2 ounces of vodka with 1-2 ounces of hot water is a nice way to start the afternoon though]
Ativan under the tongue in whatever dose (let's call it 3mg) is nice. Based on that, I'd say I could have had double that dose for a stronger effect (though I'm sensitive about using up the pills, so I'm not likely to do that anytime soon).
And adding a moderate amount of sipped whiskey (stronger than a beer) over the course of a few minutes hasn't hurt a bit. I'm nowhere near f'd up.
So that's the only drawback I can see.
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UPDATE: It's been about 2 hours since my adventure began, and about 45 mins since the whiskey and ativan. Feeling very floaty in a nice, sleepy way. I could probably take a nap now, which would be quite welcome. Eyes are focusing okay with effort--basically the same effect as when I drink 2+ strong cocktails.
Sleepiness is similar too, so I honestly think that whiskey or vodka would get me to this same point (though those will certainly not let me get a good night's sleep.
So let's add a new experiment: Found some old Klonopin. I'll take that conventionally and sublingual it with a small amount of whiskey (because that'll make it absorb faster). We'll see what that does.
Hmm, the 50mg Klonopin, washed when with some whiskey, didn't knock my socks off. Though I'm seeing some affect on my typing skills now. I waited 30 mins and took a second 50mg Klonopin. Now I think I'll go butt-chug some more vodka and water and call it a night. If I can stay out of the coma, should be interesting. If not, so be it. Had a great week.
--update: no ill effects, but i slipped off to sleep without realizing it, and slept 6 hours. Then woke up, got ready for bed, and slept another 10 hours. 16 hours of sleep!!! It was amazing, and my cold is much better for it. I think I'll do the same again this afternoon. It's worth it if I can sleep away the illness, though some of these drugs give increased chance of pneumonia (which is not a fun disease).
LESSONS LEARNED (so far):
a) have food in your stomach at all times. Some nuts do nicely.
b) 'normal' or even double normal doses aren't enough to really f' you up, even when you mix these meds and add some alcohol. SO far it's quite pleasant, though the costs/risks are higher than simply drinking a few whiskeys.
c) butt chugging / plugging is cool (especially if you're into enemas and anal plug play) but doesn't seem to enhance the actual drug experience vs just taking them orally, so far as I can tell.
d) butt chugging alcohol is a different experience than drinking, though. Not better or worse: just something that, when done carefully, can be a fun part of cleaning yourself out.
e) don't overdo any step. Better to have a less-than-awesome result and add more, than to go overboard and wish you stomach would stop trying to kill itself.
