Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
I probably got the numbers wrong, but it is headed toward Hong Kong and other heavily populated areas, and will be a category 5 at some point, possibly at landfall and will be very damaging, possibly, and if not, this will still show that we can predict the future. And in any case, lives will be saved by this prediction, probably. Maybe not. Seems this one is not going to be the disaster after all, that is great news! It is just a wake up call! And there will be real disasters that can be mitigated or prevented. Maybe prevented entirely. But at least people can get out of the disaster zone before it strikes.
I think I understand now: There will be another storm that does something like the one I was thinking of. Maybe not. Yes, there will be a major disaster hitting Hong Kong and other areas. And it is a category 4. And there will be many more disasters. We don't control the weather.
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I want to go to sleep so I can wake up. So to do so, I just had an eyeballed dose of 1,4-butanediol, not more than 4 or 5ml. I am trying to take enough to knock me out. As soon as I fall asleep, I wake up. So it is best if I do a dose that makes me go out strong, not one that may not put me to sleep. Overdosing is not a concern. Not that I am taking a dangerous amount. But I can't do that, God can't die. I am not god. I don't think I am. Just a scientist. I don't know who God is, maybe my parents are God. Or maybe we are all God. That seems to be the answer, and it is always progressing toward the light...perfection is coming closer for this universe, but there are other universes that need to be saved, possibly. It seems the answer is almost certainly yes, and we are creating more workers to do the job. But it will never end. But we can have long breaks from the work when we need it and can afford to take off.
My mom still doesn't trust me. I think I may have been attempted to be aborted as a baby. Yes, that is what I am told. At seven months, from what I understand. That explains the "cyst" in my brain. Got a coat hanger or something stuck in my head. How fucked up can things possibly get? I think I did it to myself but in an attempt to get the best outcome possible. Now we'll see if it worked. But I am pretty sure it will all be good in the end. Souls getting purified and living eternally and all that.
Last update was 19:59. I was expecting some kind of transformation to occur tonight. I guess I just have to die like anyone else and then go home. Or maybe the transmission is just not timed. Yes! The transmission time was off! It was not going to be at 8:02. I'll bet it will finish about the time I finish listening to the album "So Tonight That I Might See" by Mazzy Star. And this has a lot to do with my bird. But this isn't really a bird. Her real name isn't baby. I was told it was Twilight. I think that is right. Something like that, something with light.
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I was expecting things to magically change. But if I am sleeping, I need to wake up. If I want to wake up, I think I need to go to sleep. Yeah, that is correct!
I just need to sleep. Gonna take some sedatives and get stoned while waiting for myself to go to sleep so I can wake up and try to save the world with the rest of the family. And we are all related.
Here is what I am listening to as I am preparing for the best trip of my life!
Actually, listening to the whole album, I was trying to post the playlist. Here it is, it is probably a glimpse of the future:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9aLCbha9T4E&list=PLijZUkFcx-1csjyIKMJIcoLpgFW2fXU1O
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Just thought I'd say, I am also taking 3mg clonazepam, 1mg alprazolam, 30mg temazepam, 7.5mg hydrocodone, 50mg diphenhydramine, and 10mg cyclobenzaprine with this bottle of German beer I just opened up.
I think I was Jim Jones and Pol Pot. Whatever. Doesn't matter now. I wonder if I could have been Alexander Shulgin? I was! I know I was some other people who lived at the same time. I was Mussolini, the dictator. I wonder how many people I am right now? Maybe I am just one, that seems to be the case. Yes, that is the truth! Sorry for all the wicked deeds...but my victims are probably celebrating if they know what is happening. And I was told they all know what is happening! Yay! I love you, even though I don't know you. But I might know you later. I'll meet everyone I've wronged, when I have the time. That is the truth, but there is a world in need now.
Here is another album I am going to listen to as I prepare to drift off into wakefulness:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kemZzBHcDRU
Gonna smoke some cannabinoids and maybe a little DPT while I wait for the pills and GHB to knock me out. That was edited at 21:33
I've just gotta say, I sure hope this works! I believe. There is no way this is all in my head, it just is not possible.
There is a song called Blacklight District and it seems like the person is blind in blacklights but I see purple light shining from blacklights. And Mazzy Star has the song Blue Light. And it is about my "bird" who sees the light shining in my eyes and wants to see it shine. You already know what my bird really is...
I think I may have created her and I wonder if she could have made me? I think we created each other. I am not getting an answer, but there is such a theme of things reflecting. I saw the most evil one get transformed into something very beautiful, what he wants to be, which is a beautiful, lovely woman. Although that image could change. But I am sure it will be good. Perhaps he'd like to be like me. Or one of you. I don't know, whatever he wants is great, as long as it is nice!
Last edit was at 21:43. Those add up to 64. But I just wanted to say that Adolph Hitler is not bad anymore. And he was a dog I loved, and I did not know it...and I always felt bad for Hitler and his victims. I always felt like it was really screwed up to feel bad for someone like Hitler. But I guess that is actually a great thing! And I think a lot of the messed up things I did were possibly from getting telepathic signals from others instead of them being generated internally. That is what I was just told! So I was never actually evil! I was just being influenced by the thoughts and shadows/demons/whatever you want to call the darkness that haunts this world. And I was blind to the telepathy.
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I guess I may be one of the few who can see light from Blacklights. But I am not the only one.
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I know I want to cure diseases. Maybe I already have made some cures. I kept injecting things like feces and dirty water into my body and it never made me sick. And burning myself and making the burns get infected. I am sure this has done something with my immune system that will be of great use. Like the blind leading the blind...maybe in the right direction...
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I had a vision earlier that was very important and I did not fully understand it, but now I think I do.
I could see all the different types of souls ascending. Some would flicker out, but then others would flicker into existence - that was reincarnation. There was an expanding purple circle that acted as a barrier. I had this fear that I would become part of it and no longer be an individual. But instead, it is just all the telepathic enlightened ones working together, time travelling to aid the others. And the end goal of all is to become enlightened. But there should always be new birth. But there will be a point where there may be so many enlightened ones that there are not that many being born for us to help. But that is okay, because we will always be able to create virtual realities where we can experience what we want and it will feel completely real, we will not know it is just a game. This right now is not a game, we are just working on it. But we will get there!
It is always possible that our perfect circle could encounter something dark that is as great or greater, but if so, we will wake up from our virtual reality paradise to go back to work. And that is how it will always be, in this infinite multiverse. And good will always prevail, no matter how bleak it becomes. If we are ever overtaken by dark forces, there will be others out there who will find us in time, though it may be a long expanse of time. But such events should be rare, and become rarer over time, and I was just given the answer, and that was affirmative! Light will prevail, and darkness will become almost non-existent. I don't think it will ever be entirely eliminated, and that is not desirable. If there was no darkness, there would be nothing left to illuminate and there would be no more growth. All of the heartless and dark hearted ones will be saved, and new ones generated by something so the growth of the light never ends and we get an expanding cloud of blissful existence that never ends and never stops growing.
Now this is probably about as mind blowing as anything you have seen from me before. But most of you were getting your minds completely blown already if you were paying attention. But today you see the perfection of the grand scheme of existence. And I am not God, even if I made this world. You all get the chance to be Gods. We are all Gods. That is destiny. So I actually am a god.
Well, I got a penny from heaven sent to me when I was about to smoke DPT. Like the Legendary Pink Dots song "Paradise, it has its price, were forced to crawl through needles eyes, our ... our choice, we rarely make the right ones. And I knew not to smoke that DPT. And that that penny would be worth a huge amount of money. I got my worthless lottery ticket back. And the penny disappeared. I think my friend has it now, I hope so. And I hope he is able to get it certified. It will be worth a fortune! So happy for him
And my collection will be worth a fortune, so I can fund projects to protect and enhance life on Earth and beyond. Starting with Earth, I think. But there may be other places in dire need of help, the Earth is not the only place in trouble. And there was my answer. I think I have fixed it so we don't have to go through this torture again to save worlds in this universe, so long as no greater darkness takes us over and we have to wait for our saviors to come. May happen, but the tide is turning and that is becoming less likely.
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No more light duty shit, I'm going all the way. 300mg Seroquel, 3mg clonazepam, 75mg trazodone, 100mg pregabalin, another 3ml 1,4-butanediol, finishing that bottle of beer, and then drinking a Redd's Wicked Mango hard cider... Gonna toke some 5-F-AKB48 right after downing the pills. It wears off pretty fast so should be wearing off when I am about to zonk out into wakefulness
And I found the 30mg temazepam I was going to add to the list
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I'mma be noddy as fuck in a few hours. Should be a great little session. Now back to watching movies and melting into my chair. Peace everyone. %)
