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The ANGRY thread v3

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felix said:
Let's just go back to pretending. I refuse to be extorted in such a shameless manner.
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Pfft. Such extortion is the basis of our devolved assembly!

A 50 bag is an indeterminate quantity of cannabis, purchased for £50.

Spangles has just left my room after coming in only to inspect the areas that he vomited on last night.
 
Don Luigi said:
I hear they are also accepting 50 bags as payment now, too %)
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Extra illustration: here is lady who is showing off her 50 bags

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(.. of trees :|)
 
NHS politics. Doctor can go fuck himself backwards. Rather die than go back to Prince Phillip Hospital, Llanelli, the last place any cancer patient should go.

Cunts.
 
Just wanted to vent, don't want to wash my dirty linen in public really. Some doctors are cunts and shouldn't be let anywhere near cancer patients, that is all.

I wouldn't touch Prince Phillip hospital with a bargepole. I'd rather die. That's not hyperbole. I'd really rather die.

Back to London.
 
Its not nosey. It was nice of you to show interest/concern. I'm just fucking livid at the way I was treated today. Just because I initially refused their treatment, went somewhere else, and now have been forced back to them by my GP. Like I said. NHS politics. I just have no desire to be the monkey in the middle and doctors should fucking know better how not to talk to cancer patients.
 
Fucked a nerve up in my right hand (i think), punched a wall last thursday after a drunken argument with my dad. Cant move my little finger properly still, thought i had broken it at first and cant see a doc about it though cos they booked up.
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
Its not nosey. It was nice of you to show interest/concern. I'm just fucking livid at the way I was treated today. Just because I initially refused their treatment, went somewhere else, and now have been forced back to them by my GP. Like I said. NHS politics. I just have no desire to be the monkey in the middle and doctors should fucking know better how not to talk to cancer patients.
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It's awful how "care" is taken out of the NHS equation, stats, n 'all that crap. Bloody hell, I think we do well here in Scotland when I hear of the stories elsewhere around the country :\

You didn't deserve that babes (hugs) xxx But try to see it for what it is. Think what like it's for Jude 8( . Still no comfort if things didn't go easy, try not to see it on that footing, use your charm and wile to get the most from them next time <3
 
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use your charm and wile to get the most from them next time <3
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There isn't going to be a next time. I told you. I'd rather die than go back there.

StoneHappyMonday said:
don't want to wash my dirty linen in public really.
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But then perhaps to vent is cathartic. Here's what happened. I don't care if nobody reads it.

In 2012 I was diagnosed in Llanelli with prostate cancer. I was trying to bullshit Cialis and they made me have tests. Irony being I'd be dead by now if I wasn't a dirty little sex druggie looking for cialis because I had non-symptom prostate cancer.

Llanelli told me I had three options. But then when I went back to choose my option they told me I had one option, radical prostatectomy. This kills your sex life. So I told them where to go and looked around for alternatives.

In 2013 I had HIFU treatment from UCH London, an experimental treatment. It worked.

In 2014 at my 12 month follow up I dropped out of the London trial. I was fed erroneous information. I was told I would have to have another 56 needle biopsy (normal biopsy is 12 needle) and I couldnt face it. Previous 56 needle biopsy, prior to HIFU, left me unable to walk for 3 weeks (and in severe pain). Turns out I wouldnt have needed another 56 needles. But it was too late. I missed a date in the trial and so was technically off it.

In 2015 my GP insisted I needed to be 'under someone'. He coerced me back to Llanelli in April.

I went back to Llanelli. I was treated like shit (this was April). "What are you doing back here?"

I was given another appt in 3 months (now).

I went back today. Got treated like absolute shit again. "What are you doing here? What do you expect me to do? How do you expect me to interpret your PSA scores?" This was basically repeated ad infinitum. I was told I was wrong for leaving Llanelli, wrong for leaving the trial in London and now this was all my fault that I had no treatment plan. The appt continued like this for 30 mins. I tried my best to be conciliatory in the face of adversity. He was asking me what I thought the doctors in Llanelli should do while simultaneously being told there was nothing (according to him) the doctors in Llanelli could do. I was threatend with more needless biopsies and needless MRI scans on the basis of a PSA score that didn't justify this, only that "we don't know how to interpret your scores now you've had that funny treatment in London"

After 30 mins of being abused and ridiculed for seeking an alternative (NHS trial) treatment I got up and walked out, saying I was going to get back in contact with UCHL. He let out a sarcastic and loud 'cheerio!' as I did so.

That's how you treat a cancer patient right?

Fuck 'em. Fuck the world. I'd rather die than be treated like that again.
 
Have you tried looking at it from their prospective? You flicked them off to trial an experimental treatment, that you then in turned flicked of for your own justified reasons. It now sounds like this treatment makes their job more difficult, if not impossible because a) it was experimental and no doubt very little research for them to compare and call upon, and b) by the sounds of it the trial creates a differing PSA profile that throws off conventional, accepted guidelines for their job.

Now I feel sorry for your plight, but ask yourself what their job would be like if every patient Google doctored and told them how to do their job? Who is accountable when you die, even if you decided the course of treatment you felt was correct and got it wrong? What was the doctors next appointment? I'd hazard to guess the rest of his day involved another cancer patient, followed by yet another 5 or 6, with a high chance of having to tell someone else today that there is nothing else he or she could do. It's sad you feel like a number, but you are one of thousands every day who they must deal.

I'm not saying this to be a jerk, far from it. I'm simply pointing out how one can become very blinkered when faced with their own immortality. If you want to die that is both sad but understandable. Anger and venting blame is to be expected, but there will come a time in the next week or two where you will likely have to decide if you want to truly live or die. Personally if I had to spend the last of my breath fighting for my existence I'd prefer to do so surrounded by health professionals working with me, not a group of strangers who I don't appreciate or respect.
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
After 30 mins of being abused and ridiculed for seeking an alternative (NHS trial) treatment I got up and walked out, saying I was going to get back in contact with UCHL. He let out a sarcastic and loud 'cheerio!' as I did so.

That's how you treat a cancer patient right?

Fuck 'em. Fuck the world. I'd rather die than be treated like that again.
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Fucking hell, they sound like total pricks. Sorry you've got to deal with them on top of what must already be one of the most stressful things a person can endure.

Totally understood not wanting to be spoken to like shit and retaining your dignity, fuck 'em indeed. <3
 
One Thousand Words said:
Have you tried looking at it from their prospective? You flicked them off to trial an experimental treatment, that you then in turned flicked of for your own justified reasons. It now sounds like this treatment makes their job more difficult, if not impossible because a) it was experimental and no doubt very little research for them
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Stop right there before I kill you.

Very little research? You're guessing to make a point and guessing wrong so fuck off. This trial has been going more than 10 years. There's plenty of information and evidence, none of which he could be bothered to check himself because of NHS politics.

if every patient Google doctored
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I googled nothing. Away with your patronising. HIFU is very close to being a fully fledged NHS practice thanks to the aforementioned 10 years evidence. It appeared on mainstream media at an opportune time and I was an ideal candidate thanks to my cancer circumstances of which you know fuck all. One affected core if you must know.

I'm not saying this to be a jerk, far from it
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Then try not coming across as one for once in your life. Stop trolling on something so serious.

If you want to die that is both sad but understandable.
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I have no need to die. There is nothing mortally wrong with me. I simply do not wish for unnecessary invasive 'treatment'.

PS thx Whore.
 
Just because I'm not agreeing with you does not make me a troll! Just as Surrounding yourself in yes men does not make you right. Well thank Christ you live in a free society where you can choose not to have the treatment. If they aren't forcing it upon you what is the problem? (Other than having cancer of course?)

Rather than be a prick to the people trying to help you, is it not healthier for your stress levels to nod politely, and say thanks but no thanks?
 
Thx OTW. Now fuck off. You have sweet FA understanding of the nuances of what I describe yet you still feel the need to offer your wisdom. Go on troll. Troll for NZ. Offer a witty response to this. And think yourself lucky you only do this in an internet society where being a keyboard warrior is so cool and free of actual repercussion.

How good are you for my stress levels? Think about it.
 
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