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June Getting/Staying Clean/Sober Thread vs It's Finally Beach Weather!

Imtryin said:
Hi there!!
19 days clean and I finally had a good day. The last few days have been ROUGH. Just enjoying this day in case tomorrow sucks
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I had a rough day the other day and it really messed with my head, glad you had a good day though:) l have been feeling pretty good, all l had for sleep last night was 100mg gabapentin and l slept pretty good. How is everyone else doing?
 
On May 4th I dropped my klonopin dose from 2mgs to 1mg and on June 10th I dropped from 1mg to .5mgs. I never thought I would be able to get off benzos but it was a lot quicker and easier than I would have thought. I just needed to take the first step. I read that it is recommended to only drop by 10% each time but dropping by half didn't feel much different and I didn't have any warning signs of a seizure so it worked out well. I hope to drop to .25 in the next month and hopefully by the end of the summer be free of my benzo dependency. One that's been holding me hostage for 3 years.

So today I'm happy to say I'm still on my taper dose and I'm moving forward :).
 
Good job to everyone making such great progress! ^ l have quit taking benzos as well. I always convinced myself l needed them for sleep but l have been sleeping surprisingly well.
 
stardust.hero said:
On May 4th I dropped my klonopin dose from 2mgs to 1mg and on June 10th I dropped from 1mg to .5mgs. I never thought I would be able to get off benzos but it was a lot quicker and easier than I would have thought. I just needed to take the first step. I read that it is recommended to only drop by 10% each time but dropping by half didn't feel much different and I didn't have any warning signs of a seizure so it worked out well. I hope to drop to .25 in the next month and hopefully by the end of the summer be free of my benzo dependency. One that's been holding me hostage for 3 years.

So today I'm happy to say I'm still on my taper dose and I'm moving forward :).
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Ruby and Stardust: It sounds like you are both doing great! I continue to work on my opiate taper, and once again am going to try to go 48 hours between doses this week-end. I have gotten as far as 36-38 hours between doses, but would like to see if I can make it 2 full days. I am tapering; in 2013 I went cold turkey and ended up in the ER with skyrocketing blood pressure. I do not want to repeat that feeling ever again, so continue to slowly taper and take mini breaks with the goal of eventually being opiate free. BL has been instrumental in offering support and encouragement as I continue to work towards this long term goal.
 
Everything is going much better since I've got 7 weeks off psychedelics. Here's to being off the hard stuff
 
Ruby, this was an awesome thread to start. I've been trying my best to read through everyone's posts but it's been hard for me...I won't lie. But wow, all the support and all the people trying. It literally brought tears to my eyes. Some of you on here, I've "met"....many I have not but it sure sounds like you are all "fighters" of this battle and I hope you all (as well as myself) eventually "win". For those that have and have so many days "clean", great job:). For those still struggling, as I keep trying so very hard to tell myself....don't ever give up. Love to you all<3
 
I feel God fucking awful over this shit with my ex girlfriend, my heart is broken.

That being said, I am not going to use over it. Craziest part is this: I don't want to. A few times I have felt sorry for myself because "I can not have a beer" but that is about it. I know this wouldn't have been the case with the first few months, but now it is. Sticking with it has been so worth it for me.

Really going to refocus on my 10th step. I am already working out, will start seeing a therapist again, journaling, going to meetings etc. The reason why I was doing it before something like this happens is that it doesn't take that much effort to keep doing it.

1 year, 1 month, 13 days clean!
 
phactor said:
I feel God fucking awful over this shit with my ex girlfriend, my heart is broken.

That being said, I am not going to use over it. Craziest part is this: I don't want to. A few times I have felt sorry for myself because "I can not have a beer" but that is about it. I know this wouldn't have been the case with the first few months, but now it is. Sticking with it has been so worth it for me.

Really going to refocus on my 10th step. I am already working out, will start seeing a therapist again, journaling, going to meetings etc. The reason why I was doing it before something like this happens is that it doesn't take that much effort to keep doing it.

1 year, 1 month, 13 days clean!
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Congrats Phactor!
I am on my 4th month off methadone. Still bloody difficult!
One day at a time..
 
Coming up on 5 months soon but at a difficult point in my life so lets see how it goes
Congrats to evreyone on the hard work
 
So l have fallen off a bit. Have taken some Norcos and a few methadone over the weekend. So here is to a new day one for me tomorrow:) Congrats to everyone who is doing such a good job...l need to figure out what's contributing to my slip ups and start fresh. Overall l have been feeling pretty positive, but l would like to achieve complete abstinence at this point. Hope everyone enjoyed their weekends!
Ruby
 
Oh man, it just seems that everyday I am reading something that has been especially picked out for my situation... today's Just for Today (NA Daily Meditation) is just what I need:


June 22

Accepting life as it is

“In our recovery, we find it essential to accept reality. Once we can do this, we do not find it necessary to use drugs in an attempt to change our perceptions.”

Basic Text, p. 90

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Drugs used to buffer us from the full force of life. When we stop using drugs and enter recovery, we find ourselves confronted directly with life. We may experience disappointment, frustration, or anger. Events may not happen the way we want them to. The self-centeredness we cultivated in our addiction has distorted our perceptions of life; it is difficult to let go of our expectations and accept life as it is.

We learn to accept our lives by working the Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous. We discover how to change our attitudes and let go of character defects. We no longer need to distort the truth or to run from situations. The more we practice the spiritual principles contained in the steps, the easier it becomes to accept life exactly as it comes to us.

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Just for today: I will practice self-acceptance by practicing the Twelve Steps.

Copyright © 1991-2015 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved


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Feeling a little bit better today, hitting the gym before morning. My ex-GF always told me to not get "too big" well know I don't have to worry about that. Don't get me wrong, my first thought this morning was "we are broken up" but then its how I decided to respond to that, which was prayer and meditation and then just getting the fuck out of bed and deciding to hit the gym in the morning. That was I can do recovery work and I might even go to an Al-Anon meeting tonight.
 
Congrats on everyone making it work-one day at a time, regardless of what comes their way.
I wish strength and peace to all the others that are struggling and want it so bad but aren't quite there yet
for me, today is day 22. Not having and easy day 22, I must admit , but it's clean No pills. Somehow. I do t even know how.
thanks to everyone here that helps me, I guess you will never know how a simple post, a bunch of words strung together for me, just me, has made a difference in my life. I thank you
 
Keep up the good work Imtryin
I'm doing very well. I have 7weeks and 2 days clean from psychedelics. Also, my girlfriend wants me to quit weed, so today is day 1 clean from weed. Weed was the only mind altering substance that I have been using, so now that I am quitting it I will be entirely clean and sober. But my life is looking way better than when I was using psychedelics, and I think that quitting weed will also open new doors for me, and I would do anything to make my girl happy so I am done with all mind altering substances, hopefully for the rest of my life, as I want to be with my girl for that long. Everyone keep up the good work. It pays off!
 
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