Update and question about Oxycodone wd

[love88]

Hey guys!!

So I hve n update and question about my Oxycodone addictin/ recovery....

So the last two months I've been trying to get clean and I have been Goin to NA for the first time.... I love it!!! So over the last 6 weeks or so, EVERY week I get about 3 or 4 days clean (only using gaba and flexiral, and lil bit of Xanx) So Id do That, get 3 or 4 days cleanl, then I'd relapse, but only relapse for 2 or 3 days and then go back to being sober for 3 days ....

So today I'm at day 2 nd the only symptoms I have is my legs are hurting. My question is, is it possible that my wd won't be too bad if I'm using randomly? And it's jus that I can never get past the 4 day hump, really only bc I end iup getting my paycheck and use for 2 days. But this week is gonna be different bc my bank account is over drawn 500$ so when I get my pay check friday(I get direct deposit) so I won't be using at all this week. So looks like I will be Goin over the 4 day hump lol

One last thing.... I do have subs but I don't wanna use them unless I have to

So if anyone has experienced this, I would love to hear from u!

 

[Smoky]

Perhaps but it's such a difficult cycle to be in…. It's that 4th day that is so very difficult to move through without using as the symptoms peak then. How are you doing now this week?
I'm an x opiate user. I was pretty much on or off completely, for stability. It was too unbearable to work and function on that type of roller coaster of on and off withdrawal. It's good you have subs available.

 

[love88]

Hey smoky thanks for ur input.... Yea I only made it 7 days then I had my monthly appt w my PM dr and I ended up using 2 days in a row (half the amount I would usually use). So tomorrow will be "day 1" again.

I'd have to say that I was all over the place last week.... I'd have hot flashes/sweats but not have RLS. I'd not sleep but then sleep the next night (I do/did hve the help of Ristol a prescribed sleep medication that I take for sleep some nights and for anxiety for the day). I almost value having it for the random anxiety at work during the day, then trying to use it to sleep at night.

And it was strange, day 5 I noticed randomly that my pupils were like sooooo big and I thought to myself "fuck I'm still in heavy wd?!?"

I'm seriously all over the place. I do have to say that it's better then being in really really bad wd. But I also know that I can't keep doin this to my body. I'm soo mad at myself for using especially since I was almost over a week! But I'll try again this month bc I have 4 weeks until my next script if I WAS Goin to be tempted at all. (I'm really committed to making money and trying to get outta debt). So I'll jus have to take it day by day. I also have been Goin to Na and that has really helped as well!!

 

[P0kemama]

Glad to see you posting, and good for you... 7 days!!
May I ask a question? Do you tell people at NA that you are still using... are they judgmental?

 

[love88]

Glad to see you posting, and good for you... 7 days!!
May I ask a question? Do you tell people at NA that you are still using... are they judgmental?

Hey poke mama!

Well first off, u jus must have the desire to stop using..... And it's not that I'm still using (well I mean I consider it relapsing) and they know about it. I have a home group and I am very comfortable w them and they are very encouraging. Even tho it may not seem like it, I'm really making progress.... The last month and a half I would have 4 to 5 days every week!!! That's more days in and entire 7 YEARs for me! Now I'm making it to 7 days and I jus recently had more of a spiritual awakening and the obsession has lifted(that has been the hardest part.... The habit and obsession. I'll go to work as WD and shit but that's the easy part lol). I recently came over another milestone, I got rid of my entire script (except for 4 n "relapsed" after a week) and kept the money and still havent spent it!!!!

I'm jus doin better n better. I will make mistakes, but at least I'm making some sort of progress!!

I hope ur doin good too mama!!! I've been so busy w meetings, not feeling super hot, and jus trying to change my habits that I haven't been on here much

But I'd have to say once again, NA has open arms for me and everyone of my chronic relapses, they jus offer more advise and help. They really changed it up for me and it's not jus a bunch of drug dealers tryin to make connections. (Now that's jus my option and my experience w the meetings I have around me)

 

[P0kemama]

^^ It sounds like you have found a wonderful home group... I would go back to meetings if I knew I could find a supportive and welcoming group that I could be honest with.
You are doing great... thanks for posting!!