☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: Engage the digital super banana

[Xorkoth]

If you worked out regularly you'd probably feel less angry just because of the endorphin release and the health benefits to your brain and body. There's a huge range of benefits besides just being stronger.

 

[kidklmx]

Nonetheless, I feel like I'm coming to some impasse where... I don't know... Things feel wrong still. I can't put my finger on it, but I don't think contentment in life is possible for me.

I had felt that way for so long, couldn't even remember the last time I was truly content and I don't think I really had been past the age of 3. It ended up with me being admitted for a year last year, not because I was trying to hurt myself, but because I really needed to change my behaviors in some way. While things are far from being perfect, I feel that I'm getting there. I've made a lot of mistakes, but ehh, they're just mistakes.

In the end, I'm very grateful that I just kept truckin' along, because ultimately the positive will come in some way and, now for me at least, the path forward is clear. I'm not saying there is something "wrong" (dirty word..) with you or that you need to get admitted at all*, but just that at some point you will be inspired as long as you keep trying. Exercise for the body really helps with that, but so does exercising the mind through whatever means.

*A lot of that didn't really work out for me either. It's because of what I did despite being admitted.

Originally came in to this thread to say that Kingsnight/day in Holland is amazing The vibes are so positive even 2C-E felt like the most euphoric thing for me, better than 2C-B ever was really. Seems like a stupid idea, 2C-E at a party, but I felt like it would work out like it did.

 

[swilow]

Yall crackas cray.
i needs mo amp mane.

Well, that's a pretty useless sentiment to me. You're as crazy as the rest of us.

There's nothing wrong with discussing things besides drugs you know?

 

[Cream Gravy?]

I think a lot of my current anxiety in regards to life in general is due to the fact that I'm graduating college next week, yet have absolutely no plans or even inklings of plans for after. I hope I can find my direction in life.

 

[swilow]

^Just keep yourself open for whatever might come. But do make a back-up plan in case the inspiration doesn't arrive. The work I do is done because I must, not because I overly love it; I quite like working in a library but I'd rather be a writer or an artist or an ascetic hermit TBPH.

Life is so intense. Anxiety is normal in this world. It can be used to drive you forward though....




Spaeaking of work, time to go

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

I felt the burn on that one willow.
true though, im not offended by that.
im nutty as well, i dont deny that.
but my nuttiness is a different strain. The funhouse nuttiness, is what i call it.
amp (not generally, but sometimes....methamp always did it to some degree when id use it as i prefer to...)
its like a funhouse or a parallel universe man, i think. The shift in perception/thought process/reasoning/cognition brought on by binge/high dose use of amphetamine drugs..
its like everything is just not quite right, but you cant put a finger on how the world has changed exactly, but reality seems to bend....and you dont realize delusions/misperception that you operated based upon till youve slept/stopped dosing.

 

[pharmakos]

this guy, Matt Bowden (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matt_Bowden) is my new idol. he owns his own lab in New Zealand inventing and selling new legal highs, in addition to having his own musical group Starboy that is on the top selling music charts in New Zealand, and his own steampunk fashion line.

he was the person who first popularized Methylone.

i want to be him when i grow up.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

I think a lot of my current anxiety in regards to life in general is due to the fact that I'm graduating college next week, yet have absolutely no plans or even inklings of plans for after. I hope I can find my direction in life.

Man, you don't need a plan at this point (besides finding employment), even if you knew what you wanted to do chances are you're not going to be able to do it right out of college. You've got credentials, now you need to get that work experience. Volunteerism would also be good for you, meet people who do good things, not just the festival crowd or persons who drown themselves in pleasure in lieu of doing anything meaningful with their lives (meaningful living here indicates that one's existence has positive social value). Be constructive, the particular way in which you go about it is not important, expect that you'll change your mind multiple times before you find your tempo.

failures in life

You're still in fucking school, you can't fail before you leave the starting gate. Ay ay ay, you often hear older folk referring to people in their twenties as kids for a reason, the decisions you make aren't particularly weighty, unless you get married or create human life or something. You'll calm down and gain some perspective as you age and get in the swing of things. If you want to be concerned about something now, ask yourself if the people you know are better off for having known you. If the answer is not yes, make it so, 'cause that's what really matters.


Have you read Plato? If not I'd recommend him to you. And the classics (i.e. Greek and Roman thought) in general, they're the beating heart of Western civilization. I'm disturbed by how little people read nonfiction written before the twentieth century, but I'm digressing.

 

[Xorkoth]

Yeah the twenties are intense... it's the period where you're learning to be an adult. My twenties were incredibly intense, lots of good and even more bad. Very unbalanced feeling. Once I hit about 30 I started to feel more stable. I'm almost 32 now and I'm more as peace and stable than I've ever been, but it took a good decade to get here.

The key, as I see it, is to follow your passions. As long as you are working towards something you love and care about, things will eventually work out. At least, that's my belief.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

This cheapass Mexican sherry is like the robutissun of wine, blech. Oh well, gotta get that GABA flowing.

The key, as I see it, is to follow your passions

But how many young folks define passion as pleasure? There're so many folks who party, get high, and chase skirts while complaining about how empty the world seems. Forging a life with positive social value (I include artists in this category) is what maturity is about. Or at least that's my way of looking at it (FYI my moral sensibilities are largely a synthesis of utilitarianism and virtue ethics. Perhaps they are odd bedfellows, perhaps they are not, I dunno.).

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Ella le gusta la gasolina
como le encanta la gasolina

 

[SONN]

this guy, Matt Bowden (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matt_Bowden) is my new idol. he owns his own lab in New Zealand inventing and selling new legal highs, in addition to having his own musical group Starboy that is on the top selling music charts in New Zealand, and his own steampunk fashion line.

he was the person who first popularized Methylone.

i want to be him when i grow up.

lolol he's like the bob marley of research chemicals

Does anyone have any articles on the medicinal benefits of music?

the rush that music gives me has straight up medicinal benefits I swear!

I recently got a little too into cocaine and did it for like 5 days straight and on the last day my friend was playing a show at a house one block away from mine, and I did like a shitton of coke right before he was supposed to play even though I felt like shit and didn't wanna move mainly due to barely sleeping the past five days and extreme muscle tension.

So I do like a quarter gram of blow and drink a shitton of coffee and get all ready to see my friend play, but when I get there it turns out he's not playing for a few hours and my back is so sore I can barely stand so I go back home and lay down in my bed until he was right about to play. Then when he finally played four hours later I dragged myself out of bed literally just because my really good friend would have disappointed if I didn't go to his show.

When he finally started playing I finally got enough energy to get up and when I finally got that rush across my skin of my hair standing on end I felt way better than I'd felt all day.

Literally music and the empathic feeling that seeing all the facial expressions of my friends brought on felt better than about a quarter gram of cocaine did

tingles went down my whole body and I had more energy than I'd had all day, all of the sudden the muscle tension in my back was more manageable and I was vigorously smiling to everyone else in the crowd at how awesome the performance was going at times. It literally felt like it unconstricted my blood vessels a lot and provided a lot of stress relief that my body really needed after being zooted on coke more often than not for the past 5 days.

I think it has to do with the activation of mirror neurons that have to do with empathy or understanding other people's self expression rather than pain. Mirror neurons are mainly studied as responding to pain, but I'd be willing to bet that they have a lot to do with why seeing someone put their soul into a solo into a performance seems to release so many endorphins.

You literally feel their pain! I also just read an article about how pain makes pleasure more pleasurable I wonder if seeing someone perform a heart wrenching solo kind of makes you feel the pain that brought them those emotions in some way or another.

after the show I ended up giving the rest of my coke to my trustworthy friend for safekeeping to stop myself from being tempted to do it for no reason, which I know a lot of people wouldn't even be able to do that.

Has anyone here read Terrence Mckenna's True Hallucinations??

 

[Xorkoth]

Music manipulates my thoughts and emotions more than anything else. It's such a powerful thing. Listening gives me great highs, and actually playing music is about the greatest feeling I can imagine, sometimes I get so pumped up and euphoric that it's incredible.

I've met a couple of people who say something to the effect of "I don't get what the big deal is about music" or "It just sounds like noise to me". It makes me feel sad for them. I can't imagine. To me, music is one of the greatest and most powerful things that exists.

But how many young folks define passion as pleasure? There're so many folks who party, get high, and chase skirts while complaining about how empty the world seems. Forging a life with positive social value (I include artists in this category) is what maturity is about. Or at least that's my way of looking at it (FYI my moral sensibilities are largely a synthesis of utilitarianism and virtue ethics. Perhaps they are odd bedfellows, perhaps they are not, I dunno.).

Yeah that happens, though I suspect that a lot of those people are just using partying/getting high/chasing skirts as a diversion from their unfulfilling livs. I certainly did that for a time.

 

[kidklmx]

SONN: Being joyful with friends really goes far doesn't it? After my 2C-E trip (~15mg) on Kingsnight, which is quite a tiring thing usually, I still was able to dance for like 7 hours (a good 15 hours total, and if I didn't sit in a car for 1 hour after that it wouldn't have been the end) straight with no sleep or any stim and a lot of drinking. Usually after such a thing I do some stimulative drug the entire time and I'm worn out for a week, but you know what? I've gotten a lot of things done and so far this has been the most productive week of 2015.

And yeah, I think True Hallucinations is amazing. McKenna's ideas and interpretations are odd, sure, but now that I think of that more like a thought exercise or something, this book suddenly becomes one of the best road-trip books I've ever read.

@240x: If you want a plan, why don't you make a plan? Sure you don't really need one, but in the end having some idea can be rather comforting.

It might seem stupid now, but usually when I really need something to get done I employ the Getting Thing Done method. It's something middle managers use for time management/productivity lol, but it works for someone like me as well so whatever. Basically it's just a to-do list, but with a system behind it based on how large/important a task is. I've used it from administration to hobbies to school to cleaning to setting goals for myself.

It's so squarish, but I've found that being squarish really goes a long way in this aimless world.

 

[SONN]

15 hours of dancing? I'd be dead

I can barely handle 4 hours and after that i'm quite sore usually.

The other day me and my housemate were talking about Epigenetics and I kind of made a connection between epigenetics and what Timothy Leary called "behavioral imprinting."

we were just discussing how the things that cause you to develop as a person such as things that first experiences that caused you to be skeptical of whether or not someone's being truthful are probably epigenetic shifts in the structure of certain areas of the brain that have to do with reasoning and stuff like that. Then we came up with a theory weird enough we had to write it down:

What if the brain stores memories as markers of epigenetic shifts?

in other words: the stimuli that caused your cells to use more energy and/or do something different than what they are normally conditioned to do is marked as kind of like a turning point in the development of that cell and how it deals with the stress induced by said stimuli

is that worded in a way anyone can understand? and how palpable might this theory be?

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Trozzdog.
focus rs mane
Looks cooler than the golf r/sti manedog.
by looks im not talkin like exterior gnomesayin
id have one over a sti or golf r

 

[Xorkoth]

My girl likes to have sex a lot and particularly she's into doing it multiple times in a row. I can't always do that, but I always want to... so I sometimes take this sexual stimulant pill called Rhino X that I get at a head shop. Those things are amazing, really, I can have sex for a lot longer and best of all, pretty much right away I can just do it again. It's awesome.

But the weird thing about them is, they give me visuals. The first few times I used them I was also taking MXE that night and I ascribed these visuals to the MXE, but it turns out it's the Rhinos. It consists of a whole lot of visual static in the dark, and the most striking feature is these glowing, crawling neon purple visuals I get off light-colored things, especially actual lights. It's like a ghostly plasma forms of the outline of light objects and it persists in my vision after I move, relatively quickly beginning to curl like smoke and drift away. It's a really weird thing, they're pretty intense and beautiful. No morphing or crawling or anything, just this weird plasma stuff that's very bright and clear and crisp. It doesn't come with a trip or high of any sort either.

 

[pharmakos]

what's the ingredient list for that Rhino X stuff? lots of sex pills have yohimbe in them, which is a substance that doesn't always combine well with recreational drugs.

 

[Yeetbeat]

Trozzdog.
focus rs mane
Looks cooler than the golf r/sti manedog.
by looks im not talkin like exterior gnomesayin
id have one over a sti or golf r

I agree the RS looks pretty damn sexy.....but if we want to compare, we need to take into account all aspects of the vehicle - including performance (since the RS is a performance car)....ergo it still comes in second, imo

My girl likes to have sex a lot and particularly she's into doing it multiple times in a row. I can't always do that, but I always want to... so I sometimes take this sexual stimulant pill called Rhino X that I get at a head shop. Those things are amazing, really, I can have sex for a lot longer and best of all, pretty much right away I can just do it again. It's awesome.

But the weird thing about them is, they give me visuals. The first few times I used them I was also taking MXE that night and I ascribed these visuals to the MXE, but it turns out it's the Rhinos. It consists of a whole lot of visual static in the dark, and the most striking feature is these glowing, crawling neon purple visuals I get off light-colored things, especially actual lights. It's like a ghostly plasma forms of the outline of light objects and it persists in my vision after I move, relatively quickly beginning to curl like smoke and drift away. It's a really weird thing, they're pretty intense and beautiful. No morphing or crawling or anything, just this weird plasma stuff that's very bright and clear and crisp. It doesn't come with a trip or high of any sort either.

I'd honestly be very cautious with anything that allows you to go again very soon after. ESPECIALLY if it's giving those kinds of weird side effects

I've not read any conclusive papers on it, but to my knowledge the primary reason guys can't go again straight away (even if you're mentally keen) is due to prolactin. Certain AAS will cause elevated prolactin secretion, which can be combated with thinks like Cabergoline (which is oddly a derivative of ergot, lol), a fairly potent D2 receptor agonist. I'd be concerned if what you've got has any direct relation to a drug such as Caber, as you'd be fiddling with certain systems you probably don't want to be. Just tread cautiously with anything that promotes that kind of sex drive increase. My 2c

Oh, and my experience, caber does have that kind of effect, though not nearly as pronounced as whatever you've got hold of. That's another slight concern, given in my case I'm intentionally taking a prescription med, whereas you've got an off-the-shelf product that's seemingly stronger.

 

[pharmakos]

i remember reading reports from a PDer who used caberogline (a lysergamide) to eliminate the post-orgasm refractory period. i think it was samadhi smiles?