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what if you could go back?

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Bare_head

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What if you could go back, with the same knowledge you have now , would you do differently? Discuss. If I could go back I wouldn't have got involved with women that were nice to look at but hard to handle, I wouldn't of ever tried to take on the best cash plo players.. wouldn't have ever used benzodiazepines daily.. Wud not have been in call with 20 left distracting me n ultimately cost myself a chance at 200k.. anyways rant away when u want and I am interested to know the smallest of details
 
I was just talking about this at the pub tonight.

I would remind myself that bad luck women stick like glue. Then further remind myself that it is a proverb and not just lyrics.

I could have done with telling myself, ''these things shall pass'', and stopping myself from doing the one thing that won't pass.

Probably would have stopped myself ever getting a Nirvana CD as that seemed to lead to me being the loser I am today :)
 
I would do so many things differently...... Just about everything in fact....

That's life though, we make decisions everyday without thas e benefit of 20/20 hindsight.

It's just my opinion but I don't believe in "destiny "....
Our current position in the world relative to others is the result of a million different independent decisions out of which if only a few were.different we would be in a totally different place..

No I believe we make our own destiny by virtue of our actions and the actions of others. I certainly don't believe it's somehow "mapped out" for us at birth what we'll be and who we are. We make our own decisions and they alone determine our final status in life.

Just IMO anyway....for what it's worth (etc. etc.) :)
 
Nothing.

Bad or good everything I have done has led me to this moment and who I am. I am happy with me and I am happy with who I shall be because of my choices in life.
 
I would never have taken crack - my addiction to opiates was manageble until that point, then it just spiralled out of control. Also, I would have joined BL long before I did, then I'd have had some idea of harm reduction.

Finally, I would have pursued my childhood dreams of becoming an astrophysicist or pharmacist (these were the careers I aspired to from as early as I can remember) - though I'm sure the pharmacist one would have ended badly ;)

Other than that, I'm alive, have a roof over my head, a job, a good women and 2 lovely kids, so no real regrets....
 
I would have come out sooner.

And if it were not for my congenital ability to operate a motor vehicle at anything beyond walking pace (I'm fine on the set-piece manoeuvres) then I might have made myself a life on the road, fixing up and selling discarded electronic and electrical appliances that I found.

Still, this is the way the cards have fallen, so this is the hand I'm playing with. And there have been all sorts of wonderful things that have happened and people I've met along the way, that I might never have known if I did it differently .....
 
£60k 0n drugs? I hate to think what i have spent in the last 35 years but it must be close to 250k maybe more in fact deffo more if you include bulk purchases but that was business so got money back.
But i always land on my feet - got a job, wife, 2 kids and a smack adiction that i can deal with thanks to my script and an inheritence. Been lucky in life (lucky being one of my nicknames) but ultimately I 'm not what i would call happy.
 
I wouldn't have stepped off my right foot and passed the ball to my team mate. If I had only taken the tackle I wouldn't have been spear tackled in back play and I would still have feeling in my left fingers. That tackle probable cost me £50k.

I regret not keeping in touch with more of my friends over the years. Not any ones fault, just seems such a shame to miss out on each other's adventures over the last 20 years. Facebook has bought us back but I feel there are many years where I should have been there

Apart from that it's surprising how many things I don't regret. I don't even regret my first marriage because I see the things in my kids that reflect the reason I once loved their mother. I probably should regret intentionally consuming pma and ending up in a canola field crying, but it was an awesome night all the same

Edit: I regret not scoring more cocaine in Colombia and not buying that glass heart from the night club we partied at
 
I should never have quit medical school. There isn't a day goes by that I don't regret it. Plus my stupid reason for leaving after three years with three still to go was that I would be in too much debt (I completed an eeconomics degree just before that so it was effectively 9 years straight).
What an idiot! Everyone's in debt anyway these days!!..at least my debt would have been meaningful.

Maybe it was for the best, maybe I wasn't cut out to be a doctor. Being a paramedic is hard enough. Probably harder in some respects...the only teeny difference is consultants are on about £100k a year compared to about 38 for a paramedic so roughly three times as much.....but money isn't everything....
 
Yes. I'd have waited until I found a decent bloke before I had my child. I'd not have befriended the backstabbing, selfish friends I had n wouldn't have touch opiates. Would have kept training n healthy. Would never have bothered with chat rooms / internet forums.

Evey
 
There is too much to mention. I would change right from where I went to high school acting like a little gangster. Sucks brah
 
lol yeah basically everything

About the only thing I've done right is not spent any time in the nick (other than the odd night here and there).
 
I meant I've been nicked a few times and had a few scrapes and that but never actually been sent to the big house!
 
If I could go back...I'd have said "NO" more. :|


Hmmm, that makes me sound grummy, alas I was a lass who said Yes to too too much 8)
 
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