I just felt like making this thread to see how others feel about this:
The other day I had the best experience on Kratom and it felt a lot like my last shroom trip where I just felt really peaceful and happy with life and it really made me bummed that I can't always feel like that, yet NOT because of the "high" so to speak but because I really felt at the time like it was "medicine" for my anxiety and depression.
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression yet on the right dosage of things like Kratom and Shrooms I can not only feel free of anxiety and depression but still "normal" and happy.
People would pass it off as "oh you are just happy cause your fucked up" and while Yes, of course the high makes me feel good, the truth is that I feel like it's more than that.
Other drugs like Oxycodone or alcohol or weed or nitrous all feel really good but not in the same way for me as things like Kratom and Shrooms because on those things I am "inebriated" and only feel good because of the high.
On the contrary, Kratom or a low dosage of shrooms make my mind Much clearer than it would be normally and I feel satisfied with life more than any anxiety medication I've ever been prescribed has done for me and even if the high may be what is doing that, any "intoxication" is secondary to just feeling like my mind is quieted.
However, unlike some I refuse completely to let myself get physically dependent on it so I won't take it more than 2-3 times a week...but I can see why a lot of people do.
I wish my normal every day consciousness was more like I feel on Kratom and I wish somehow I could meditate enough or learn auto-hypnosis or something so I could somehow make the way I feel on Kratom cross over to every day consciousness, but good fucking luck with that cause I'm not sure anyone can do it.
As I had that completely clear mind on Kratom, just feeling so much more "reasonable" and relaxed than I would when I am sober, it made me ask myself the question "why should I not have the right to feel this relaxed and happy about life every day when I'm sober??".
I've got a lot of good things in my life but why can I only appreciate them when on something like Kratom (other than like the 1 or 2 good days a year when I manage to do something extraordinary that makes me feel accomplished)??
It's not just wanting to be "fucked up" or high everyday, it's wanting to feel free of anxiety and normal everyday.
Not sure if anyone else can relate, but when I get the dosage right I feel it's better anxiety/depression medicine than anything else I've ever taken other than shrooms.
I wish I had a solution as to how I could feel more like that when sober.
Does anyone think there's any possible way to make these feelings I have on Kratom cross over to normal everyday consciousness when I'm sober or is it just because I'm high??