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Tacoma

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So I've now been off heroin for a little over a week and i gotta say lifes just awful. I do want to be sober and okay but i don't know how much longer i can do this. I've been drinking poppy seed tea to make the withdrawal bearable its helping but i really have no idea how to deal with life when i'm not blasted out of my mind anymore. Here's whats bothering me the most about being off heroin ..
1- feeling my feelings i hate this i want to be numb to everything again.
2- weight gain I've already gained a couple pounds since i stopped using.
3- CRAVINGS
4- i badly miss shooting up
5- depression and mood swings
6- physical pain everything hurts.
I feel like im no longer making good decisions for myself i mostly just sit in my house being anti social and feeling shitty. People say "it gets easier " but does it really? Because all i do is sleep. This is the longest i've ever been off of the shit i feel like I've come far to just throw it all away but i don't think i can keep going. Anyone got any tips that helped them get through this terrible time?
 
It's hasn't been very long at all but congrats, I kno it seems like it is
But you should give it a little more time, try it out, and I bet you'll start finding some positives about not being dependent any more

You're just coming out of the physical part, it's gonna be rough but it'll be easier day by day and eventually I hope you'll realize it ws worth kicking it
 
Just an idea i used to think about is that during recovery everyday gets a little bit better so u can look foward to the future with optimism.on the other hand while in active addiction everyday u are using it will get worse so a cynical attitude develops and the beginning of recovery the cynical attitude is still present and u feel like nothing will get better but it will. Every experience u have sober will make u become better adjusted to handle life without opiates..a support system is crucial in this part of recovery

i know u feel like shit but just taking a walk or just getting out in the sun will help.maybe stretching and a light workout l .maybe go see a movie or anything to get out of the house because it will take longer to feel better the longer u sit inside and do nothing.best of luck my friend
 
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Despite feeling so bad I've been taking walks and trying to go to the gym but everyday I'm just giving up more and more hope that I'll be able to do this.. back when i was olny addicted to pain pills i went to rehab i didn't like it much because i don't like people telling me what to do and constantly diagnosing me with different mental iillnesses. And the one i went to kept asking me to bring in my family to get through with how i "hurt them " which just made everything worse because they didn't want to see me and i didn't want to see them. I was there for about 2 weeks checked myself out tried to find a pill dealer but all i could get my hands on was some heroin and this is what it lead me too. I'll check out some N.A. meetings maybe it would help to be around others who've went through the same thing.
 
It's tough cause as an addict we get used to easily making ourselves feel good in the short term. You just get high. but it's artificial and fake and goes away.

When sober, things take longer. there are less shortcuts. It's tough retraining your brain. But trust me, those long term gratifications are much better than any high you will ever have.

To deal with the more immediate problem, just get through the first few weeks. Then start trying to find a hobby. Try to meet non drug addict friends. You gotta find a reason to enjoy life.
 
I have the worst cravings I've had yet for it. I had a really good day actually my friend who is clean and very supportive threw away all my old baggies and some needles so since i was feeling well and good i thought it would be a good idea to see some family but of course there assholes who keep referring to me as "junkie" and now im not doin so well and want to get numb more then anything
 
Tacoma,
Please hang in there. I am not going to preach. But your life will be rewarded if you keep clean. You can do it. Please keep your chin up.
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You should be approaching the "pink cloud effect". This is when it just feels great to be sober, it happens in the first month or so. Many people in rehab get this effect during and after. So u should be approaching.. However, maybe u need rehab, therapy, and connections with sober people for this to happen. Thats been my experiance
 
I just keep remembering the feeling i got whn i was high the feeling of nothingness the feeling of being numb i had no emotions not much mattered. .i miss that. Sitting in my house feeling stressed or sad loading up the syringe hitting my veins and feeling that stress realise that plays back in my head again and again.
 
It gets better dude, guaranteed. People say after time goes by the "obsession is lifted"... That is what they say in meetings atleast. Basically, what that means is eventually you forget. You forget what it feels like to be high and you stop obsessing over it. So just give it time. Time is your friend.
Believe it.

Just remember, once you use again you're fucked. Your body and mind remembers the high and you have to start all over again...
 
Your mind and body is trying to lie to you and find an excuse. I am a life long addict and just quit using h back in Jan and stopped suboxone 3 weeks ago. I almost gave up many times and thought about using again more times than I can count. I often thought I can't do this and was better off using. I'm so glad I stayed strong... because a couple days ago I started to feel happy and normal again... and wow I love life again. Trust me hang in there, and keep busy to keep your mind off using. For a while I laid around missing my dope and xanax and it didn't help. You need to find things to keep occupied... meetings, reading, video games, exercise whatever u want... it will get better, just give it another week or two, you don't have anything to lose, and a lot to gain.
 
Im going through that same feeling of "i would be better off using" it sure feels that way my whole life starts to fall apart i start getting so depressed. I sat around today for about 2 hours with a razor scrapping spoons and old baggies just trying to get SOMETHING of course all my time was spent for nothing i didn't get nearly enough to get high
 
How much of your free time do you spend volunteering? I found that volunteering with homeless people is the number one way to stop worrying about whatever you are going through, as it pales in comparison to what these people go through. very good for putting things into perspective. I believe volunteering is a big part of a lot of sobriety programs for this very reason.
 
I don't do much volunteer work somtimes I'll go pick up some trash off the street but that's it. As far as homeless people im always very generous to them on my own not through volunteer work (giving them money, food,a place to crash ect) which always makes me feel good like i have use.
 
Things will get better! I went through tremendous hell while detoxing from H and a fentynal habit. It's going to take a lot of time to retrain yourself but trust me you'll eventually get there. To be quite honest after kicking those withdrawls in the teeth I felt I could do anything. It will make you stronger and smarter in the future. I believe it's a bitter sweet experience. You must go through the bitter hell of withdrawl to see the sweetness that is sobriety.
I still fight the craving everyday but most days are better than not. Keep a plan stick with it and start fresh. You can be anyone you want to be instead of being a slave to your addiction. You can do this! And yes working out helps so much.
Best of luck❤️
 
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I don't do much volunteer work somtimes I'll go pick up some trash off the street but that's it. As far as homeless people im always very generous to them on my own not through volunteer work (giving them money, food,a place to crash ect) which always makes me feel good like i have use.
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If you have the time, perhaps call up a local food bank or soup kitchen, or sign up to to volunteer work at an folks home and spend a few hours a week there. I know it probably sounds crazy, like, "why the fuck would i want to do that depressing shit".. but really, i've found that it really can do wonders for improving one's sense of purpose and value in this world. When you start to form relationships with the regulars, hear their stories, the triumphs and downfalls of their life, it can be quite special. So many people in shelters and elderly homes have ZERO family and almost no contact with the outside world, something as simple as receiving a visitor once a month can completely turn their outlook, and yours, around.

Just something to think about, I completly understand that it's tough to feel motivated to do things when life is a drag :)
 
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