PriestTheyCalledHim
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Serious question: Am I an alcoholic, or just a heavy drinker/"problem drinker"?
I first drank an entire glass of wine when I was 12 or 13 and I liked the buzz I got from it. Then at 14 I started to drink vodka my parents had that they didn't drink, and when I was 18 I had only drank half of the bottle. Through ages 15 through 20 I would sometimes drink beer or liquor with friends that we would get for parties or at live concerts. I also would have periods where I was not drinking; but I was not sober but I would just use other drugs like LSD (acid), psychedelic mushrooms, amphetamines (prescription, never meth), pharmaceutical opiates (oxycodone/hydrocodone/codeine-not heroin), and I tried coke once but did not really enjoy it. I never really mixed the other drugs but I sometimes would have periods of time when I would take them daily if I wanted to. But I stopped using all of those years/decades ago, and I do not really have a desire to use these drugs now.
I had a period in college where I was in my early 20s and I drank daily for 5 months. Yes I did black out at least once. I did not drive as I had no access to a car.
I did stop drinking daily. I slowly cut back and then quit. I also would smoke pot instead of drinking as I figured it was less harmful and it would not give me horrible hangovers. I know it was stupid to do this but I did not have any sort of withdrawal at all, and at the time I did not want people to know I was drinking so much alcohol.
I did this over the summer before my last semester of college. I returned to college that fall and yes I did still drink but kept it to just the weekends and I would drink maybe 5-6 drinks or a bit more with friends at a bar throughout a night.
I did graduate from college, I was easily able to complete all my exams/papers/projects, etc. and get very high marks. I did however continue to drink until I was 29. Sometimes I would drink "normally" and only have 1-2 drinks in a night, and then not drink for awhile like months at a time to where when I did drink one or two standard measured shots of vodka would get me very drunk when sipped slowly.
Other times if I was on vacation with friends and we went to a bar, or I was at a party with friends and I was having fun I would get very drunk and have 6 drinks or more in a night. But we were partying at a bar, or at someone's house.
I haven't drank intentionally for 2 years and 3 months. I stopped drinking 2+ years ago since a friend of mine died from cancer and I did not take her death well, and drinking alcohol would not have helped. My relatives and friends do know that I had a period in my life where I was drinking heavily and abusing alcohol. By the time I stopped 2.5 years ago I would mainly just drink on weekends and have 1-2 drinks either beer, mixed drinks, or wine.
While I was living with a roommate who is a secret alcoholic last year, he did make homemade eggnog last December and either put lots of vanilla extract, or rum into it, and did not tell me he did this. I had some and it just made me sleepy, and I did not have any desire for alcohol despite having drank it.
No I'm not going to drink since I'm having some personal issues right now and alcohol would not help. I also have stopped hanging out as much with my friends who when we would socialize together or hang out all they wanted to do was drink at home, or go to a bar/pub/party and drink. I still see them but when they suggest that we drink together I just say no thanks and drink water instead, or just don't go out with them if they're going to a bar and will be staying there most of the night.
I first drank an entire glass of wine when I was 12 or 13 and I liked the buzz I got from it. Then at 14 I started to drink vodka my parents had that they didn't drink, and when I was 18 I had only drank half of the bottle. Through ages 15 through 20 I would sometimes drink beer or liquor with friends that we would get for parties or at live concerts. I also would have periods where I was not drinking; but I was not sober but I would just use other drugs like LSD (acid), psychedelic mushrooms, amphetamines (prescription, never meth), pharmaceutical opiates (oxycodone/hydrocodone/codeine-not heroin), and I tried coke once but did not really enjoy it. I never really mixed the other drugs but I sometimes would have periods of time when I would take them daily if I wanted to. But I stopped using all of those years/decades ago, and I do not really have a desire to use these drugs now.
I had a period in college where I was in my early 20s and I drank daily for 5 months. Yes I did black out at least once. I did not drive as I had no access to a car.
I did stop drinking daily. I slowly cut back and then quit. I also would smoke pot instead of drinking as I figured it was less harmful and it would not give me horrible hangovers. I know it was stupid to do this but I did not have any sort of withdrawal at all, and at the time I did not want people to know I was drinking so much alcohol.
I did this over the summer before my last semester of college. I returned to college that fall and yes I did still drink but kept it to just the weekends and I would drink maybe 5-6 drinks or a bit more with friends at a bar throughout a night.
I did graduate from college, I was easily able to complete all my exams/papers/projects, etc. and get very high marks. I did however continue to drink until I was 29. Sometimes I would drink "normally" and only have 1-2 drinks in a night, and then not drink for awhile like months at a time to where when I did drink one or two standard measured shots of vodka would get me very drunk when sipped slowly.
Other times if I was on vacation with friends and we went to a bar, or I was at a party with friends and I was having fun I would get very drunk and have 6 drinks or more in a night. But we were partying at a bar, or at someone's house.
I haven't drank intentionally for 2 years and 3 months. I stopped drinking 2+ years ago since a friend of mine died from cancer and I did not take her death well, and drinking alcohol would not have helped. My relatives and friends do know that I had a period in my life where I was drinking heavily and abusing alcohol. By the time I stopped 2.5 years ago I would mainly just drink on weekends and have 1-2 drinks either beer, mixed drinks, or wine.
While I was living with a roommate who is a secret alcoholic last year, he did make homemade eggnog last December and either put lots of vanilla extract, or rum into it, and did not tell me he did this. I had some and it just made me sleepy, and I did not have any desire for alcohol despite having drank it.
No I'm not going to drink since I'm having some personal issues right now and alcohol would not help. I also have stopped hanging out as much with my friends who when we would socialize together or hang out all they wanted to do was drink at home, or go to a bar/pub/party and drink. I still see them but when they suggest that we drink together I just say no thanks and drink water instead, or just don't go out with them if they're going to a bar and will be staying there most of the night.
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