I'm a 22 year old male who only took MDMA on a couple of occasions, prior to one month ago. I was at a festival on October 26th and dropped 3 pills; I didn't test the pills, but they were highly rated on my country's ''pill-report'', and came with no warning. So yeah, I dropped 3 altogether and double dropped 2 at the one time - far too much for an inexperienced pill taker. Two weeks later I had a line of Ketamine and a tiny dip of MDMA powder - the Ket had me buzzing but the MDMA didn't do much. On Saturday night (two weeks after the Ket and MDMA) I was out, and myself and my friend split an e tablet. We haven't a clue what was in it, just a complete impulse buy. Stupid, I know, but that's what happened. I was pretty loaded on alcohol already, and then I dropped half of that e tablet. It had a nice effect in general, although I was quite tired by the end of the night.
Any ways, Sunday was just a slog of a day; nothing happened, I just felt de-motivated. I went to bed that night, and I had a major anxiety/panic attack. I have been having a few of them lately. I thought it was a heart attack however, so I rushed to the hospital beside me. The nurse managed to calm me down; I got tested in a variety of ways and no sign of heart damage or disease showed up. The doctor and nurse advised me to take it easy for a while, but I felt like a right twat more than anything, to be honest! So I came home this evening (Monday 4.30 pm my time) and I tried to go to sleep as I hadn't been asleep since 12.30am on Sunday. The depression was hitting me hard and the lights in my room became pure trippy and visual-like. I couldn't settle at all, so I got up and told my demise to my house-mates. To be honest I was feeling like absolute shit at this stage, between the tiredness and just general edginess. I then had to go to the toilet, and what I noticed in my 'poo' was a Blood stool. It didn't just look like blood that came out with the poo, it looked like a solid piece of poo with blood on it. I came outside and chilled for an hour, and I've been feeling generally alright for the last 4 hours. Not perfect, but definitely content....
However, I'm really curious as to whether I should make a panic trip to the hospital again. I've read that a blood stool can often be the sign of internal bleeding, and there was a case where a young UK ecstasy user fell victim to some thing called ''Abdominal Aortic Aneurysm'' - one of the main symptoms of this is the appearance of a blood stool. I have Inflammatory bowel disease (the doctors never really verified if it was colitis or chrons), and blood in poo tends to be a feature of it. Nevertheless, I have had my IBD under control with medication for the past 2 and half years. Either way, I'm seriously considering going to the hospital again....
I'm just here in my bed now, not having been to sleep for 36 hours. I just feel there is indeed a possibility that I will go to bed tonight and not wake up. I was on the phone to my mother there, and I was even tempted to just ask her opinion, even if it means admitting to my mother that I do E. But I really don't know if it makes sense to go the hospital. This morning it was the heart, now it's the possibility of internal bleeding. If I develop another symptom tomorrow, will I have another excuse to go to them? Just reading about ''Abdominal Aorctic Aneurysm'' really irked me though, as it can happen very suddenly, and it is infamous for not having any obvious symptoms - bar, perhaps, the Blood stool one.
Nothing disturbs me more than the thought of my eyes going shut now and never opening again. But I'd just like to hear your guys thoughts as well!
Any ways, Sunday was just a slog of a day; nothing happened, I just felt de-motivated. I went to bed that night, and I had a major anxiety/panic attack. I have been having a few of them lately. I thought it was a heart attack however, so I rushed to the hospital beside me. The nurse managed to calm me down; I got tested in a variety of ways and no sign of heart damage or disease showed up. The doctor and nurse advised me to take it easy for a while, but I felt like a right twat more than anything, to be honest! So I came home this evening (Monday 4.30 pm my time) and I tried to go to sleep as I hadn't been asleep since 12.30am on Sunday. The depression was hitting me hard and the lights in my room became pure trippy and visual-like. I couldn't settle at all, so I got up and told my demise to my house-mates. To be honest I was feeling like absolute shit at this stage, between the tiredness and just general edginess. I then had to go to the toilet, and what I noticed in my 'poo' was a Blood stool. It didn't just look like blood that came out with the poo, it looked like a solid piece of poo with blood on it. I came outside and chilled for an hour, and I've been feeling generally alright for the last 4 hours. Not perfect, but definitely content....
However, I'm really curious as to whether I should make a panic trip to the hospital again. I've read that a blood stool can often be the sign of internal bleeding, and there was a case where a young UK ecstasy user fell victim to some thing called ''Abdominal Aortic Aneurysm'' - one of the main symptoms of this is the appearance of a blood stool. I have Inflammatory bowel disease (the doctors never really verified if it was colitis or chrons), and blood in poo tends to be a feature of it. Nevertheless, I have had my IBD under control with medication for the past 2 and half years. Either way, I'm seriously considering going to the hospital again....
I'm just here in my bed now, not having been to sleep for 36 hours. I just feel there is indeed a possibility that I will go to bed tonight and not wake up. I was on the phone to my mother there, and I was even tempted to just ask her opinion, even if it means admitting to my mother that I do E. But I really don't know if it makes sense to go the hospital. This morning it was the heart, now it's the possibility of internal bleeding. If I develop another symptom tomorrow, will I have another excuse to go to them? Just reading about ''Abdominal Aorctic Aneurysm'' really irked me though, as it can happen very suddenly, and it is infamous for not having any obvious symptoms - bar, perhaps, the Blood stool one.
Nothing disturbs me more than the thought of my eyes going shut now and never opening again. But I'd just like to hear your guys thoughts as well!
