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Iv'e been getting real behind in my school due to my anxiety and depression acting up bad which is made exponentially worse by my severe insomnia. The fact I keep getting behind just make me more stressed which makes me get more behind. This year has been fucking horrible.
 
Good part of why I had to quit. Fact is, I didn't really need the course, would have been nice. I feel for people who are getting degrees that are imperative to their future and have to face such issues.
 
phenethylo J said:
Iv'e been getting real behind in my school due to my anxiety and depression acting up bad which is made exponentially worse by my severe insomnia. The fact I keep getting behind just make me more stressed which makes me get more behind. This year has been fucking horrible.
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yeah that's pretty much my story too

falling behind, pile of work gets bigger, and so anxiety over the amount of work to do increases, leading to blanking out and being unable to decide where to start chipping away at the pile...
 
Most of my anxiety and depression is directly related to the fact I was so motivated and put so such time and effort in only for it to get fucked up time and time again due to my insomnia, chronic arthritic + nerve pain, and other autoimmune issues related to my arthritis. It has caused me to drop and repeat lots of classes but I'd still try and push forward not wanting to give up only for it to happen again and again. I finally ended up having to take a two year break. I went back a year ago.
I was doing good at the start of this semester but had a very bad break down around 2 1/2 months ago.


I'm thinking maybe I should take my pain doctor's advice and see a psychiatrist.
 
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So ever since I posted my ibogaine story, I have been getting contacted by a lot of people wanting guidance for using ibogaine to get off opiates. I expected this and I think it's amazing to be able to help people like that. But I just realized today that one guy who I had been talking through the taper, withdrawals, planning, etc took his flood dose exactly a month ago, and I have not heard back from him. :\ Makes me nervous, I hope he's okay. And it's a weird feeling that if something did happen, the sole reason he decided to do it was that he read my story online and then communicated with me to gather all of the information about what to do. He had the supervision and acceptance of his parents and was very serious about doing it properly, but who knows? I wish he'd PM me...
 
This must be magical thinking my daughter has I hope-when we are driving, I always play music and ask them about what they've heard. A few times she has said stuff like "oh my God Mommy, a whole pack of birds flew off right when that song ended" or "the light was dancing on the window along with the song"
We also like to play Woodpecker from Mars (Instrumental Faith No More song)and make up stories about what is going on in the song by how the music is going. She is awesome at it, the last time was a battle between zombies and Egyptian cats.
And we aren't on anything, well the kids aren't
 
Yeah that just sounds like a great kid imagination to me, and a lot of connections in the brain. I used to always notice shadows and light and even ambient nature sounds going along with music, I still do.
 
JackiePeyton said:
This must be magical thinking my daughter has I hope-when we are driving, I always play music and ask them about what they've heard. A few times she has said stuff like "oh my God Mommy, a whole pack of birds flew off right when that song ended" or "the light was dancing on the window along with the song"
We also like to play Woodpecker from Mars (Instrumental Faith No More song)and make up stories about what is going on in the song by how the music is going. She is awesome at it, the last time was a battle between zombies and Egyptian cats.
And we aren't on anything, well the kids aren't
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Yeah that's what meant with magical thinking in that paper I quoted. It's good for kids to do things like that though, exercises like that will help them develop their intuition. Magical thinking is only dangerous when adults start using it in the wrong situation. In most situations its harmless though and forms the foundation of creative thought.
 
That is good to know. All bits of good feedback. My daughter is also a drama queen, so I am watchful. It also hasn't been easy for her because I haven't been myself and wrecked my car. Kids are amazingly resilient though. This reminds me to do more things with her, now that I am feeling better maybe I can come up with some ideas. That is the hard part, sometimes you just don't know what to do to get them into thinking. They just want to sit on the computer and don't know what to do on their own.

And it is just plain freezing here, and I have orders for both wood and oil in.
Spent the day between two space heaters, but I really need a walk, so I somehow have to brave it.
 
Fucking sweet! The girl I've been waiting to return from California is flying back tonight late night, and she's coming over after work tomorrow. :) I'm super ready for her to come back, I thought about her every day she was gone.
 
Ah true, got a lot to catch up on no doubt :)

Yesterday was 6 months with the missus...instead of heading out to dinner or something, we picked up some takeout from the local kickass Thai restaurant then found a nice spot on the golf course around my house for a picnic dinner kinda deal. Was a great evening :)
 
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