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Derp. New member. Much drugs. So excite.

ConkyMadeMeDoIt

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Hi...

Just a creeper here, who has recently realized she has fucked her ability to get high from adderall anymore, and now I'm sad. And pissed off. And my body hurts. And I want to sabotage all that I have worked so hard for during these past 2 years.

Some things that may make me happy, given the situation:
•Listening to Tool or A Perfect Circle
•A well executed tattoo
•Smoking weed and actually getting stoned
•Smoking two cigarettes in a row, and nobody bitching at me about it.

Some things I'm currently obsessed with, which may or may not have something to do with the fact that I now pick the DUMBEST shit to focus on when I take adderall:
•Studio Ghibli
•Drawing/painting characters from Studio Ghibli movies
•Avoiding school assignments until hours before they are due (this I why I started taking adderall in the first place, wtf??)
•Devising plans to secretly smoke a cig, 5 minutes after I just had one.
•Fantasizing about never, ever returning to my classes, Ever.

That's all. For now.
 
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Welcome to the site:D

Sorry to hear about your troubles.

I have a lot of college friends who take adderall for assignments on quite a regular basis too.
I've never resorted to it myself, but when I was using hard drugs I wasn't studying anything during those times. Now I just smoke weed mainly but cut back because it affects my memory.
What do you take in school?
 
Thanks! Now where is my new member gift bag?? Lol

Here:
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lol.
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C'mon Doc.. that signature font size is a little overbearing lol
 
Dude, most pills turn me into a cigarette fiend, but adderal really takes the cake- I sometimes chain smoke (in hiding, of course) until I feel like puking, then lighting another... Haha.
 
Lol yep. I'll smoke them til my tongue feels all fuzzy and pissed off at me when I take the add. Does anyone know why pills make you want to smoke so much? What's the science behind it, I wonder?
 
Thanks. I am surprised at how happy I am to have stumbled across this site, I don't really have anyone in my life anymore that I can openly talk about drug use with. I plan on making myself right at home here :)
 
Lol yep. I'll smoke them til my tongue feels all fuzzy and pissed off at me when I take the add. Does anyone know why pills make you want to smoke so much? What's the science behind it, I wonder?

The nicotine+MAOI's in cigarettes are potentiating the amphetamine

the nicotine+MAOI's is reinforcing in itself; when coupled with amphetamine, it is doubly reinforcing.
 
No worries- I knew this was coming. I did them pretty regularly about 6 years ago, but just for the high. I didn't really have anything constructive to do back then...lol. I've been doing them now for a little over a year, and in recent months using them way more than I should have. I stupidly made myself mentally think that I couldn't even touch a paper if I hadn't popped 2 30mg. It was bullshit because in the back of my head I knew that wasn't true.

As for my major... I'll say it's the legal field but def not a lawyer :)
 
hello! welcome to the site! sorry to hear your troubles, and i hope you are dong fine now ◕‿- wish all the luck for you my friend ◕‿-
 
Thanks! I am doing much better... Cut down from taking 70-90mg add per day for many days, trying to catch a buzz that I pretty much knew wasn't coming, to just stopping with them for now. This is the second day in about 2 months that I haven't taken any, fucking tired to the max, but physically feel better.
 
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