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I posted as a new be on a thread that had 832 post so I thought I ed redo this. I am presently on a "sub vacation" but you name it, I've done it, lots of it as certainly many of you can relate to. Been lurking around B.L. for a while now and decided to register. I seem to have a lot in common with so many of you yet all of us have a unique twist going on. My guess is, half the members in this forum are musicians, artist, poets, writers or actors. (Most of us are actors, maybe not by trade). It just seems to me that many that alter perception are usually creative sensitive souls by nature. Anyway enough from me, glad to be here.
 
Lol,- I thought u meant "actors", as in for "doctors", ;) ;)
Then read ur post properly.

Add to ur thread if u get the time Done.

Everyone had a story,- especially here :)

Rtp.
 
Runtoparadise said:
Come & chat buddy, I now u were just online.

Rtp
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R.T.P. , Unfortunately for me, I'm technically challenged. I log on to B.L. on an I - phone. I don't know how to chat. I sent you a reply early on in your original post but I don't see it so I must have done something wrong. How are you doing have the W/D's passed yet ? Going back to questions you had for me prior, subs don't really do much for pain for me. I have drug related legal issues and needed an lawyer to help me get meds. ( I'm on probation). My choices were subs or methadone . I don't ever want methadone again. It would be a better med for pain relief but the down side is to high a price to pay. I started on 16 m.g. of sub but after researching I brought myself down to 4 m.g. I don't feel any difference on the lower dose for pain relief but I feel more like me. The higher dose sort of robbed me of subtle joys in life. I'm not sure what I'll do when I'm off probation in January. I'm entertaining the notion of getting off narcotic meds all together and checking out more of a holistic approach. Narcotic meds cause caos in my life. That's another reason I backed down on the subs I may be coming off soon. Anyway hope you're doing well, you're still posting and that a good sign. I wish you peace in your life

D.T.B.T.
 
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Hey, DTBT,

Yes, I'm doing well thanku!

I've now even uploaded a pic, so super proud of myself...,

And look.. Ima blulighter now!

It doesn't sound so great for u, how're things??

Rtp
 
R.T.P.

Things are okay, a positive mindset can go a long way. I'm coming to the realization that I have 2 choices. 1). Live in the basically chaotic and unstable world of narcotic pain medication (that how that goes for me). Or 2). Attempt to get relief by alternative methods. I can't take scripts as prescribed. I wish I was someone that could. I run out halfway through the month and put my freedom at risk scheming to get more or most often hitting the streets for (H). Besides from years and years of opiate use and abuse, my tolerance is so high naturally , Dr's don't want to give me the amount needed for pain relief. There's a Dr in my area that specializes in non narcotic pain relief. He wants me under 2 m.g. of subs before he'll take me on as a patient with the understanding that I get off it altogether. I'm wanting to get off sub anyway. I'll let you know how treatment with this Dr goes maybe I'll be able to share something that is of value to you. Take care of yourself.

D.T.B.T.
 
Great to hear from u again!

I'm similar to urself in that I can't take opiates as prescribed, which is why I was in wds when I joined up. Bluelight helped keep my mind off the cravings, I was glued to my iPhone!

My meds don't all fall due at the same date which is a blessing for me, I kinda binge then have to lay off a bit, have a cpl of days of misery, then same.

My first post, I was in a place where I felt perhaps I didn't need the painkillers... Was just in it for fun. Today I got my main script, & man was I ready for it!! Yesterday my body went into a full on flare up of neuropathic pain. I've had a pretty good run, but this is agony.

My pain goes off the radar. Sometimes I can use mindfulness and relaxation and will it away. Others, I'm admitted for a ketamine infusion. When no matter how high I self-dose,( w/out harm), I get almost zero relief.

I have started a ketamine thread, because the experts in my area, hell, my country say that's all there is left to help me. Another reason for becoming a member here, I refuse to believe nothing else in the world can be of benefit!! I'm early thirties, I have a whole lotta yrs ahead.

So, my admission to hospital is planned for Monday. I really hope it will settle by then, now I have my meds back.

That's my rant,

Rtp
 
How's it going Done?

It's been a cpl of weeks since uv posted. Hope ur A o.k.

Did u manage to reduce ur subs & see the new dr? I'd be interested to hear of non-narcotics.

I started with NSAIDs, prednisolone, cortisone, tram, codeine.., prob more, but that's all that comes to mind.

Before my Dr's brought out the big guns..... Sitting here writing this I find it ridiculous that I began on 10mg oxys,- to the mgs I am now prescribed!! More so, the mgs I self medicate with!?!

So I totally feel ur pain of the endless cycle of meds & then no meds! I mentioned before that I had a similar lifestyle and thought perhaps the opiates were more trouble then it's worth, but my physical pain reigns supreme so onwards & upwards I go.

Rtp
 
Good to hear from you. I'm doing a very slow taper for the last 2 mgs. I'm at 1.5 mgs. And will be on 1.25 mgs. In a few days. So far it's not been bad at all. I won't start alternative pain management until I reach .25 mgs. I'll let you know how that goes once I'm there. Thanks for asking.

DTBT
 
I simply love this conversation between the two of you and I would feel too much like a voyeur; peering into the lives of others, if I didn't chime in. I hope that is alright with you. I have't introduced myself on the forum yet, but I am sure that will be forthcoming after I make this post.
I am a slave to oxycodone, and have been for some time. I get a prescription every month, from my doctor, that most would envy. However, it never lasts the entire month and I have to go back to my doctor to try and get some more. My life used to revolve around taking those wonderful pills in the morning and keeping that warm feeling throughout the day; now, I am just trying to shorten the time in which I go through the withdrawals.
I also want to find alternate methods of relieving my pain and breaking the psychological hold that these narcotics have on me; but I am afraid. WD's really suck and incapacitate me for days. I am useless when I am going through them.
My point for this post is to acknowledge that there are others like you and I, DTBT; we just need to allow ourselves to let go of the drugs and live a sober life. My fear is that first step, of quitting the pills, will put me through so much hell, that I won't be ale to go through with it. I wish you both success in whatever you decide to do and I hop you are able to do it comfortably. Y'all will be iny thoughts and I will send good vices your way!
Ms
 
Glad to be of entertainment value MsFortunate;)

Done, sorry for such a long absence. I have been lurking, & adding my 2cents here & there, & just posted in my Cpp thread... Also, just home a few days from a fantastic holiday at a very cool/posh beach location. Awesome, amazing time with sweet child of mine, but to partake in fun activities I as usual, ripped thru my scripted opiates & am now finding anything other than sitting on my couch just too difficult! Lol. How predictable...

It's so great you're staying on the path to looking at alternatives to opiates for your pain. Perhaps I will someday get off the wheel, but right now alternatives are not for me. I can wish for adequate pain relief as much as I want. And I can be very convincing with my doctors, but if in their heads I'm at the upper end of what they're comfortable prescribing, nothing's gonna change. Add to that my pm doctor has had several patients at ED for ODing, so is extra cautious.

Anyway, just wanted to say hi & see how ur going, hope ur doing well.

Ms, come chat, or join our thread.

Rtp x.
 
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