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ykm420 said:
Iuno, they were some fuckin' rockstars, though.. I think it was them who snorted zombiedust if I recall, cocaine n halcion in the same line.. Which sounds fucking awesome.
Boise, if you relapse, I will to. Well shoot up on skype together.. It'll be a bonding experience. LOL.
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That's pretty wild bro imma do my best but deal!!!

Halcion? Can you bang it? Zombieball?

Scratch that sounds lame
 
I am tempted everyday to just try and see if I can get a vein to register. It literally consumes my thoughts. Once I quit H, I started IVing demerol solution. I get prescribed it every month because I have a brain tumor and get bad migraines. I am trying to get back to just using it how its prescribed (which is injecting it IM)... BUT its so hard to do that when I now know what it feels like to IV demerol. I find NOW that my drug of choice is no longer H but Demerol solution.
 
I've shot halcion.. Overhyped, same with Midazolam (Maybe it was because it was pill form, not the actual solution IV ready.) I did Halcion+Midazo+Coke.. Iuno why ;p I love needles! And no, 31 is the absolute smallest. I prefer 29g 1cc.
EDIT: How's IV demerol like? Comparable to any other pharm?
 
ykm420 said:
I've shot halcion.. Overhyped, same with Midazolam (Maybe it was because it was pill form, not the actual solution IV ready.) I did Halcion+Midazo+Coke.. Iuno why ;p I love needles! And no, 31 is the absolute smallest. I prefer 29g 1cc.
EDIT: How's IV demerol like? Comparable to any other pharm?
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I like IV demerol (the solution that is...100mg) more than H. Its the best feeling in the world.
 
ykm420 said:
Iuno, they were some fuckin' rockstars, though.. I think it was them who snorted zombiedust if I recall, cocaine n halcion in the same line.. Which sounds fucking awesome.
Boise, if you relapse, I will to. Well shoot up on skype together.. It'll be a bonding experience. LOL.
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Yeah,you're right.I remember reading somewhere about the zombiedust.I think they did that on their private plane but I definitely remember the mention of zombiedust and knew it was halcion mixed with something,I just couldn't remember the other ingredient.
 
I prefer the 29g 1cc also, they're as small as you can go without getting flimsy. Though sometimes I'd get the 30g short tips for my hands and veins right on the surface.

It's been 4 months since I last used. It's been hell, being an IV user just makes the cravings unbearable. My tolerance is fucked to shit but a fat speedball would do the trick. Ugh.
 
Rhun, please tell me you love Mac Drizzle, yadadamean? I've been having rly random dreams about dope, and needles.. And surfing (Which I've never done o0) It's odd.. I recall at one part of the dream someone through a hacky sack fulla yowda at my face, and it went numb, I did not get geeked up. Why would they do me like that?
 
ykm420 said:
Rhun, please tell me you love Mac Drizzle, yadadamean? I've been having rly random dreams about dope, and needles.. And surfing (Which I've never done o0) It's odd.. I recall at one part of the dream someone through a hacky sack fulla yowda at my face, and it went numb, I did not get geeked up. Why would they do me like that?
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Lol yeah I think we're from the same area ;) Except I just moved to Sac... fucking fail.

I went to rehab in north bay and after I took off at the 2 week mark we went on a 6 week bender. And we'd get the dope but the yay always fell thru... every damn time. So we'd shoot it with crystal instead. God, I wanted to cry. Started dreaming about that shit too.

I don't crave dope as much, did a year on methadone and I've been on subs a minute. Know it won't do much. But I fantasize about shooting the perfect ball. With hella benzos.

Eta: I've got the flu bad and might just be delirious but I've had to edit out a random quite from a few pages back three times now
 
Awhh, hareon and no soft.. That honestly (No fucking sarcasm) bums me right out.. YOU CAN'T HAVE DOPE W/ NO CAINE! That's like.. Not smoking a morning cigarette. Ugh. I'm soz you went thru that.
 
ykm420 said:
Awhh, hareon and no soft.. That honestly (No fucking sarcasm) bums me right out.. YOU CAN'T HAVE DOPE W/ NO CAINE! That's like.. Not smoking a morning cigarette. Ugh. I'm soz you went thru that.
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I know, I was so depressed. Haha which is fuckin sad. I held out going to sober living hoping it'd come thru. Finally ended up driving down to the town I'm from and dropped 500 in one night, making that shit happen. Then went into the SLE that was holding a bed for me as soon as I tested clean.

I'm stubborn as shit though, I've never been able to get clean if I feel like I wasn't fully done on my last run. I relapsed after I left that SLE, then went into another one, relapsed before moving out on my own, then had one more relapse before getting where I am now. Guess I was making damn sure that I really wasn't able to get high on dope anymore.

Are you using rn or on maintenance?
 
rhun said:
I know, I was so depressed. Haha which is fuckin sad. I held out going to sober living hoping it'd come thru. Finally ended up driving down to the town I'm from and dropped 500 in one night, making that shit happen. Then went into the SLE that was holding a bed for me as soon as I tested clean.

I'm stubborn as shit though, I've never been able to get clean if I feel like I wasn't fully done on my last run. I relapsed after I left that SLE, then went into another one, relapsed before moving out on my own, then had one more relapse before getting where I am now. Guess I was making damn sure that I really wasn't able to get high on dope anymore.

Are you using rn or on maintenance?
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Was on Subboooo maintence for awhile. I'ma PM ya if that's coolio, Rhun!
 
ComfortablyNumb95 said:
I've never IVed anything but the needle really fascinates me.
I wish it wouldn't be like this because I really want to try and IV something, but i know i would end up in a bad BAD situation.
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I like you dude. You like Jack Black, and RJD. I pray to the Gods you can avoid this. Once you travel down this road it is always there in your head. I've gone years without touching one only to go right back. IT BLOWS.
 
ComfortablyNumb95 said:
^ thanks nursey. I really appreciate that. For now IVing anything is just not an option to me.. but you never know.. a year ago I woud've never even touched heroin, now I'm on to the road of addiction.. hopefully I'll get through this.
Thanks :)
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Ugh yeah, trust me... it will be the biggest mistake of your life. It was bad enough getting physically dependent to opiates, I still remember waking up dope sick the first time.

But 9 months in, after getting clean off a pretty huge oxy habit then relapsing a month later, I started using heroin exclusively and picked up the needle. It brought my addiction to a whole new level.

I never managed even a day clean once I started shooting dope. Even being on methadone didn't stop the cravings and I failed every drug test at the clinic the entire year I was on MMT.

All methadone did was force me to use insane amounts of heroin, cocaine,and benzos. I was in a daily battle against my tolerance. Then my body just couldn't take it anymore and suddenly the fight was for my life.

And to this day I have this insane thinking that it's worth it, that all I want to do in life is be an IV drug user. But it's not. If there's anything in your life worth living for, don't start shooting dope. Because your life won't be yours anymore, I can promise you that.
 
Ya, the needle changed everything for me...of course I thought ya know "oh, it's dilludaid they say the only way to do it is to shoot" so I did and that was that...changed everything and took my craving to a whole new level... I always wanted to try it though, grew up reading stuff like William S. Burroughs and all the beat generation stuff, and my favorite movie when I was 13 was High Art, about a photographer and her group of friends who were doin H....Just wanted to know what it was like, now I do, and really wish I didn't..had it in my head it would be that one time, or just every now and agian, probly like a lot of people who try it... still struglle with it...just shot up god knows how much filler from those little pink 10mg oxys, did three shots before I decided to just eat what was in the spoon...need to get my priorites straight again, because all I wanna do now is get high agian, and I know if I do that, its gonna be much harder to stop than the previous times... and oh the drama that has probly come from me getting those(crazy ass people, don't get mad at me when I help you out all the time!!! But I disgress.. Love the needle, but also hate the fucker, landed me in a spot I never thought I would be in.
 
Just curious, how long did it take you guys/gals to be.. How shall I put it.. Profession intravenous all-stars?
Took me probably upwards of a year before I was 100%. Lots of missed caine (LOTS) / hareon in those days ;) Also, biggest you've poked yourself with? 26g for me, not the funnest, poking myself does not bother me a bit, but still, fucking big gauge.
 
ykm420 said:
Just curious, how long did it take you guys/gals to be.. How shall I put it.. Profession intravenous all-stars?
Took me probably upwards of a year before I was 100%. Lots of missed caine (LOTS) / hareon in those days ;) Also, biggest you've poked yourself with? 26g for me, not the funnest, poking myself does not bother me a bit, but still, fucking big gauge.
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A month? But I was very lucky, no one ever shot me up or taught me to shoot. I made the decision to become an IV user on my own and taught myself to IV correctly and safely using online resources, primarily BL.

The first needle I ever shot up with was a 24G I think? Maaaybe 25G but it was huge and I did my wrists and hands before my crook for some reason. Ouch. Probably why I got good so fast. My dad had tons of clean syringes but they were for IM testosterone :/
 
ykm420 said:
Just curious, how long did it take you guys/gals to be.. How shall I put it.. Profession intravenous all-stars?
Took me probably upwards of a year before I was 100%. Lots of missed caine (LOTS) / hareon in those days ;) Also, biggest you've poked yourself with? 26g for me, not the funnest, poking myself does not bother me a bit, but still, fucking big gauge.
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Well I'm certified in phlebotomy and hit my girl a lot before I ever did so like prettty much from the get go.
Not many misses or anything one concerning opiate one all better and a fat coke one that is fine as well.
Idk I think like a 28 first iv huge needle like screw on front missedan but just water. Haha
 
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