Gibberings CLXXVII -- You could use that fantastic iphone of yours

[SummerSerenade]

After 5 days of absolutely lovely ups and crushing life ruining style downs I am sitting in a pub getting slightly pished while I wait 3 hours for the coach that will take me on a very unwelcome return back to reality. Fortunately uni reality rather than home reality. All I know about my future is that it's going to contain shit loads of cocaine. Silver linings right? I never quite believed how much things can change in the space of... hours until now.

But enough from me, how are the rest of you lovely fuckers?

 

[kingme]

@chatative : indeed it is. modafiendz shitty name but an ok nootropic. no abuse potential that i see, not at sane doses at least, about as abusable as tea, but slightly more effective at keeping me up and paying attention. no side effects so far... we ll see how this behaves in the long run, but so far it's pretty ok

@summer all is well here. how are things with your mom? last i read, she had bumped into your (al be it empty at the time) stash...
also, if the rocky up and down life cycle bothers you, why keep up with the cocaine? thats a practically assured way of continuing the up and down

 

[SummerSerenade]

@summer all is well here. how are things with your mom? last i read, she had bumped into your (al be it empty at the time) stash...
also, if the rocky up and down life cycle bothers you, why keep up with the cocaine? thats a practically assured way of continuing the up and down

Oh it's not that cocaine darling, haven't taken any for over a month now. It's just life, you know how it is. Was having an absolutely amazing time then the thing with mother happened right in the middle and kinda fucked everything a bit. And now my whole life is an uncertain mess and I rather fancy consuming a lot of drugs. I couldn't give two shits what she thinks, tis just that she almost ruined one of the happiest weekends I've had for a very long time. Plus all my stuff is at hers still which is a bit of a shitter.

Ahh, uncertainty. I just literally feel like my whole life is upside down.

Blah.

 

[ScotchMist]

Afternoon all

Im tip top today, which is rare, so im making the most of it..!

I thought you was looking forward to getting back to uni summer?

I think we need to rewind to Eveys "lawn moor", is this a welsh ting or has Evey got her words all muddled up?

Edit: obviously i don't know the ins and outs of what happened Summer but i think you should really cut your mom some slack.. i caused my parents no end of torment and pain, at the time i had a "fuck em" attitude because i was so wrapped up in myself..

Im a parent myself now and i know that id be full of fear if i found needles in my kids room, again, i don't know the ins and outs however id suspect the reason shes rooting around through your stuff it stems from concern and love for you, not to be a nosey pain in your ass..

Speaking from experience, more drugs tend to lead to more problems.. thats something you've gotta find out for yourself though i guess.. take care

 

[SummerSerenade]

Im tip top today, which is rare, so im making the most of it..!

I thought you was looking forward to getting back to uni summer?

Edit: obviously i don't know the ins and outs of what happened Summer but i think you should really cut your mom some slack.. i caused my parents no end of torment and pain, at the time i had a "fuck em" attitude because i was so wrapped up in myself..

Im a parent myself now and i know that id be full of fear if i found needles in my kids room, again, i don't know the ins and outs however id suspect the reason shes rooting around through your stuff it stems from concern and love for you, not to be a nosey pain in your ass..

Speaking from experience, more drugs tend to lead to more problems.. thats something you've gotta find out for yourself though i guess.. take care

Glad you're doing well scotchy, I'm doing amazingly well despite everything and have had a lovely time over the last 5 days or so. I'm more pissed off about the fact that she almost ruined that more than her actually finding anything.

BUT. The thing that still absolutely bewilders me is why on earth she looked through my stuff (to that extent as well) in the first place. I've never been obviously fucked around her, always hidden my drugs well and since I never get comedowns I've never felt suspiciously bad at any point so as she'd notice. She's also never looked through my things before and has always respected my privacy completely.

Even weirder is that she thought it was all connected to where I'd been this weekend (see previous post) despite me not saying anything that would have given that impression at all. So fucking strange that I can't even... ahh. Fuck it I'm still so happy and I hope that everything works out now even if it doesn't with her.

4 hour coach from Exeter to brum and am already pissed so sleep then mucho coke and clubbing like fuck, still going to catch most of freshers so despite wishing I could just stay here I'm going to get too fucked to care for the next week.

Mucho love

 

[Eveleivibe]

Summer your Mam is probably extremely worried about you. I wasn't able to see my parents' side of things either, at the time. I'm not saying you're an addict but why dont you go to the recovery forums n see a thread for friends n family members of addicts. It may give you an idea of how your parents may be feeling / assuming / anticipating.

Please don't think i'm trying to judge you or owt. I wish you all the very best.

Evey

 

[ponch]

Oh no sorry to hear that. I hate those types of day.

I'm hopefully having my sleeve finished but he seems to say it'll be finished every session n it never seems to be. I like it but kinda regreetting the time-consumption n cost

.....oh and I'm having EVEY on other fore-arm with a peace logo n flames (to show the conflict of drama n peace within me) lol



Evey

You should get something to do with repetition, that would look top.

 

[SummerSerenade]

I've barely taken anything to the addict kinda level for ages, it's completely ridiculous and I'm past understanding or particularly caring what she thinks. She, like most upper class posh shit parents is er... shit and should never have had children in the first place if I'm completely honest. If I didn't have the time or inclination to care enough to raise a kid then I wouldn't, you can't get pissed when things go wrong and then blame the kid when you were never fucking there for them in the first place. My only regret is that I didn't start shooting coke cos then at least I'd have gotten something out of her being pissed rather than her thinking I'm a fucking liar. I didn't lie about where I was this weekend, what I have actually taken or anything else in my whole life so if she doesn't believe me that's her problem. I have my own house, my own money, and hopefully after this weekend at least one person that cares. So am I bothered anymore? Not at all

 

[Eveleivibe]

You should get something to do with repetition, that would look top.

Eh? What do you mean?

Evey

 

[Eveleivibe]

I've barely taken anything to the addict kinda level for ages, it's completely ridiculous and I'm past understanding or particularly caring what she thinks. She, like most upper class posh shit parents is er... shit and should never have had children in the first place if I'm completely honest. If I didn't have the time or inclination to care enough to raise a kid then I wouldn't, you can't get pissed when things go wrong and then blame the kid when you were never fucking there for them in the first place. My only regret is that I didn't start shooting coke cos then at least I'd have gotten something out of her being pissed rather than her thinking I'm a fucking liar. I didn't lie about where I was this weekend, what I have actually taken or anything else in my whole life so if she doesn't believe me that's her problem. I have my own house, my own money, and hopefully after this weekend at least one person that cares. So am I bothered anymore? Not at all

Have you been to meet Dan by any chance? :D

I'm sorry for what's happened with your Mam n you. Like I said I'm not judging, I'd be the last person to do that, would make me a hypocrite.

I'm glad you've had as nice a time as possible n wish you all the best n happiness xxxx

Evey

 

[SummerSerenade]

Have you been to meet Dan by any chance? :D

I'm sorry for what's happened with your Mam n you. Like I said I'm not judging, I'd be the last person to do that, would make me a hypocrite.

I'm glad you've had as nice a time as possible n wish you all the best n happiness xxxx

Evey

Dan? Pff, nah, we clearly hate each other

Thanks though, I have had a lovely time but like anything fun, it's always over too soon. Unlike this fucking coach journey which is going to take over 4 hours and has only just begun. I am not drunk enough for this and my fucking card isn't being accepted anymore because it's expired and I left my new one at home, only have 25 quid on me as well which is going on the most sensible thing possible, half a g of cocaine.

Bollocks. Hope my housemates can lend me some dollah. Hard not having money when you actually have a couple of grand left.

 

[Nicklazz]

Oh no sorry to hear that. I hate those types of day.

I'm hopefully having my sleeve finished but he seems to say it'll be finished every session n it never seems to be. I like it but kinda regreetting the time-consumption n cost

.....oh and I'm having EVEY on other fore-arm with a peace logo n flames (to show the conflict of drama n peace within me) lol



Evey

Sounds awesome Evey :D

 

[ColtDan]

Dan? Pff, nah, we clearly hate each other

Oh c'mon people stop lurking n get typing

* checks in
* discovers over half the last posts on the page are by evey
* fucks off

The evey effect. making the place half dead.

Feeling kinda hanging again, more than i should be, nothing major but annoying, emotional flat-ness, thought process is foggy, lethargic, sneezing, might try and sleep this shite off. a combo of things are the cause no doubt. worth it though

 

[ScotchMist]

But what about the lawn moor??

 

[Eveleivibe]

I always said I had magical powers n could make people disappear

But what about the lawn moor??

You're obsessed with that LOL digging today I'm afraid dig dig dig
Flowers up, weeds up, borders re-done. (Sort of)

Evey

 

[Nicklazz]

Which combo Dan?

Sum sleep is always good!

 

[Inflorescence]

KINGME I was going to post this the other day in relation to stims/KFC ponderings. Fucking hilarious.

The chicken club song

How are all the bluelighters, fighters, cluckers, fuckers, lurkers and ummm desperately tries to rhyme Lurkers with something.

Just popping in and straight out..am too straight and trying to stay that way for a while..will feel the benefit of lower tolerances when I am back in the room.

Over and out.

 

[Eveleivibe]

*drunken-slurpers

Evey

 

[ColtDan]

Which combo Dan?

Sum sleep is always good!

3 almost sleepless days of lots of booze, a pretty stupid amount of speed, some amazing MDMA 2 nights in a row, small-ish amount of decent meph ontop, sporadic valium dabbles, couple etiz

KINGME I was going to post this the other day in relation to stms/KFC ponderings. Fucking hilarious.

The chicken club song

How are all the bluelighters, fighters, cluckers, fuckers, lurkers and ummm desperately trys to rhyme Lurkers with something.

Just popping in and straight out..am too straight and trying to stay that way for a while..will feel the benefit of lower tolerances when I am back in the room.

Over and out.

Haha brilliant tune i may heed that advise for a lil while.. maybe

Burkas, gurkhas, workers, shirkers

Good on ya for having a break.. peace and lovage

 

[SummerSerenade]

I am still on this fucking coach feeling half dead with exhaustion and generally emotionally fucked. I'm only in Bristol, this is going to take 5ever, if I fall asleep I'll probably end up in Edinburgh though so not the best idea. Blah.