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Share something POSITIVE from your day vs. it's all around you

Yeah lucky me... I spent all summer healing after my 12-year marriage/relationship breakup last year and I guess I'm finally really ready because all of a sudden there it is. Probably doesn't hurt hat I've been working out heavily since the beginning of May either.

I'm gonna go after work today to my friends' place and sit in for their jam practice... I don't have my djembe yet but I am going to join their band once I do. Djembe for secondary percussion to start and once I get good enough at the guitar to jam I'll do that too.
 
^ glad to hear that. I still have wounds to heal after all the shit I've been through with that mentioned ex. Sometimes I think if I'll be ready to have relationship ever again... at least that's how it has felt: from being the one that always took someone with me from nightclub to shaking & damaged wreck.

But hey, this is for positive things. Long time drummer here. It's kind of pity that I lost my touch during military service & due to former bandmembers having families to prioritize, but I have finally gained some enthusiasm to work on my solo stuff, mainly electronic/industrial material. I'd also love to meet some people to jam with, and I actually know plenty, but it always comes to me trying to handle synthesizers/stringed ones and my skills are far inferior to these people. I'd so much love to have a punk/grindcore group again to join as a vocalist or drummer :)
 
I'm gonna do backup vocals too and occasionally featured. I have been feeling increasingly like I NEED to get back into playing/performing music, it was one of my main passions and my main art form until I was 18/19. I have beautiful music in my head at all times and I feel the need to share it. It basically sounds like guitar solos (my guitar friend in the band says my singing - I can sing it out but not play it out on an instrument - inspires him regularly in his playing), so that's why I want to learn to get it out on guitar. But that will probably take a long time because I am a beginner (very beginner) on the guitar. That was blocking me from getting back into playing music at all but this band will help me to get involved again and the rest will follow. :)

I was just dealing with your username in my job, which is as a computer programmer, by the way. :)
 
Very similar here when it comes to importance of music. The main thing I've learned about my lack of skills is that having the ability to pour true feelings & soul to whatever you create is something that cannot be taught ;)
 
more positives: I'm quite certain that the severe depression, hatred & bitterness is finally making room for acceptance, forgiveness & love in general. Until the next time...
 
Xorkoth said:
Sexy overnight visitor... not a lot of sleep. Man, when I broke my dry spell I broke it hard. =D The other girl I'm interested in also texted me like 2 minutes before me and the other girl went upstairs last night... for about a month it had been me contacting her, making tentative plans and then getting bailed on last minute. She wanted to let me know she's sorry for being weird and she doesn't want me to think it's me because it's not, she's just been in a funk because of other people but she really wants to hang out with me some night soon. All these posibilities suddenly... it makes my head spin. :)



It might be perfect timing too because in reality I am more into the girl who's been in a funk... it was like magic when we met (I can only speak for myself but I am pretty sure she felt it too), it's actually the strongest I have ever instantly felt about anyone. This other girl is really cool and I like hanging out with her but she's leaving for a long time in a week and a half so I won't be seeing her for long.
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Vergina is a hellafadrug!! %)

Enjoy the possibilities.*bro/hoe-fist*


I'm just happy to not be thinking of death/dying every day, as I usually was. This realisation only occurred to me the other day - I must be breaking out of my usual skin... Good therapy/peoples is VERY underrated, as is the ageing process.

Appreciating myself, anew, ATM. Waking up is very important.
 
oh, what up Asclepius. glad to hear you're making some positive realizations.

today was a good one. work was enjoyable and productive, ran afterward, hung out with my parents at their place for a bit. now i'm gonna do something i really shouldn't -- but have greatly reduced -- read some, and call it goodnight. then tomorrow it will be friday. works.
 
broken

resumed my meditation and fitness routine today. was slipping out of it, addiction resurfaced in the past few weeks. i've left a wake of destruction behind me and feel awful and so alone, anyways to keep it on a positive note, i haven't lost much physical strength despite abusing my body, felt strong in my workout. also resolved in my daily meditation practice, no more slacking.
 
Hiroki said:
resumed my meditation and fitness routine today. was slipping out of it, addiction resurfaced in the past few weeks. i've left a wake of destruction behind me and feel awful and so alone, anyways to keep it on a positive note, i haven't lost much physical strength despite abusing my body, felt strong in my workout. also resolved in my daily meditation practice, no more slacking.
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I also did the same thing with exercise/fitness today. I do some daily meditation but before bed so it helps me to fall asleep.
 
herbavore said:
Hello!<3 I will certainly second the list of three things that are undervalued, with age being the big surprise. Glad to see your name here again!I've missed you.<3
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Loves to you beautiful, lady! :D<3

The merits of ageing are TERRIBLY undervalued and often devalued, in general, by society imo. To our detriment. :\




Had a really good day -walking by the coast, basking in the stunning, panorama. Love that stuff, makes me feel magical. :D
 
Going to checkout my coworkets apartment. She pays a cheap price and me and bf wants to move in to a cheap place. I hope it works out i mean im not in a rush but itll be good not to have to look around for more with my tight work schedule
 
^exciting.

i was in a terrible place this morning. went running and feel much better. i'm a bit volatile and this running thing is important.
 
Gay pride in September? I thought gay pride celebrations were always in June because of the connection to the Stonewall anniversary. Maybe June is too sweltering in Texas?;) At any rate glad you met some cool new friends.

Went to the main arena last night at the Monterrey Jazz Festival. New hero:Damon "Tuba Gooding Jr." Bryson, a man that can dance , skip and leap in the air while playing hip hop tuba.=D
 
^Well, now that you are a bloodied combat veteran of the Great Buckthorn Wars, what's a li'l defeat on the football field?;)
 
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