Inflorescence
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XANAX is THE pill that works best for anxiety imo or Librium but you never see that unless scripted it seems..
Haha sounds like a nice way to celebrate the exam being over
As for anxiety... its absolute shite isn't it. Had it on and off for years, seems to have subsided with age though. and quitting meph helped alot. feel like i've gained some kind of inner peace over the years. Have you always had it?
Xanax is pretty good stuff much prefer to valium/etz.....
Well that gives me some hope! Maybe it's something to do with my age, I don't know.
I've always been quiet/shy but obviously that's a personality trait rather than a symptom of social anxiety. In hindsight I was pretty awkward in school, I had friends but I dreaded speaking up in class and having conversations with people I didn't know very well because I was terrified I would seem stupid. But I would say it has gotten much worse in the last few years, so bad that I'm often rather disinhibited in social situations. Went a bit off the rails for a while. The drugs probably didn't help much, and I suffered from chronic, low grade depression for most of the last 4 years.
I've always been quiet/shy but obviously that's a personality trait rather than a symptom of social anxiety. In hindsight I was pretty awkward in school, I had friends but I dreaded speaking up in class and having conversations with people I didn't know very well because I was terrified I would seem stupid. But I would say it has gotten much worse in the last few years, so bad that I'm often rather disinhibited in social situations. Went a bit off the rails for a while. The drugs probably didn't help much, and I suffered from chronic, low grade depression for most of the last 4 years.
ahhh fuck it had 4ish hours altogether of sleep in last four days...Group hug yepppppppp...![]()
you do not admit to any weakness, you do not cry, hug, you don't admit you're wrong ever, people are not to be given second chances, don't trust anyone...basically I was brought up by a true psychopath. I have railed against some of these instilled ideas my entire life...
I am often a moaney depressive sounding and sometimes genuinely real feeling of real clinical depression I am an optimist deep down.Sometimes I just have to have a word with myself and remember all the positive things I have...
People never fail to surprise me. There are cunts out there but there are genuinely others who will just get it, you, how you feel and will just know how to dispel that.![]()
tonight has been a fucking war zone, ha-hah, in the best possible way
I dropped three tabs of acid on a pretty empty stomach at five the previous day.
Then had half a gold bar and a bit of MD crystal.
Then I remember getting on the k, and mother of god. That combination, when your tripping balls. seriously I know that mdma and lsd is a beautiful combo, but a bit of decent k on top, and It's like nothing I've explained. fucking shot me into a dream world
it also takes balls, but tell ppl how you feel. (depression, anxiety, etc) i mean, tell someone who will listen. even your parents. its hard to even put into words, but i told my clsoe friends and it feels a lot better. it was hard, but its actually easy. one of my friends siad she is bipolar, i said life is bipolar. maybe i have that. not sure
i also told my parents that i smoke weed. my mum has always known and didn't care. even when she found drugs, she asked me if i needed help with anything and didn't even take the drugs away. did not expect her to act that way AT ALL.
told my dad and step mum about weed also. my dad , didn't even look at me. it was like he was ashamed of me lol? but then we are all good now. and they actually think weed is ok.