The EADD I'm Fucked Megathread - is Super Mario your dad?

[ColtDan]

How long have you been dabbling with drugs for in total? how long daily?

 

[Shambles]

Or you know you have a problem when you struggle to get through a day without taking anything. Or when you take more even when you feel shit because it's better than facing reality.

Hypothetically speaking.

Yeah that too. It's all relative though. There are problems and there are PROBLEMS. At the risk of repeating myself, all your choice to be choosing.

(i'd recommend sticking with the former at most if i were you )

 

[Eveleivibe]

Oh man...... the JD is going down...............

COME ON PEOPLE LET'S GET FUCKED!!!!!

Evey

 

[SummerSerenade]

How long have you been dabbling with drugs for in total? how long daily?

First did coke during first week of uni so September last year. Then didn't do anything else until I got into meph that November for a big reason and then it just went downhill quickly not counting my months off over Xmas. Doing shitloads of coke after then didn't do much of anything for a little while then went back to doing a lot after easter.

I don't use everyday for more than a couple of weeks and then I tend to run out and have a week off, not really a choice, would do it all the time if I could and probably will now mainly.

Sometimes you have less of a choice, or you get forced into a choice because you can't face the alternative. I'm struggling to think really, probably not making sense but fuck it feel shit still.

 

[Shambles]

I'm struggling to think really, probably not making sense but fuck it feel shit still.

At the risk of sounding overly harsh, get used to it cos that's your future laid out by your own hand... If you choose it.

 

[SummerSerenade]

That wasn't a i feel shit because of drugs, that was a more i feel shit because I have fuck all to feel cheerful about. But I guess it still applies, it doesn't sound harsh at all. In a way I already am getting used to it. I've realised tonight that I made my choice a long time ago and I've just been delaying it, in theory I could still change my mind but really I don't know if anything can or will.

Typing on phone is shit so can't be bothered wording all that better, not worth reading anyway unless you're feeling too cheerful and need some more misery in your life.

 

[Shambles]

There's never enough misery in my life so feel free

Misery converts nicely to far nicer things dontcha know. Them there self-transforming machine elves know the score

 

[Eveleivibe]

To be fair, Summer, a lot of us tried to warn ya and give you advice about addiction n what-not but you snapped our heads off. I understand that, I've been there with opiates... But you must understand that if you snap at people when they offer advice they won't in future as they'll be scared of you snapping again.... I know I'm queen of it.... Just spreading some eveydom... LOL

EDIT; I know I've snolly on facebook n we talk most days but I'm gna miss her as hell as a mod, still I'm glad I never talked her around as sometimes I know I've got to put my selfishness aside n think of others' needs n wish her all the best.....

Evey

 

[Shambles]

Summer hasn't snapped at anyone in regards to what most at that age (yes, I hate me using a phrase like that too but is still true) would've done. Personally I think she's revealed an insightful sense she probably hides from all at all times generally. Including herself perhaps. Whether she knows it or not yet.

There is no done deal here. Choices every step of the way. Words are easy - we can all have a bad night - but I don't believe for one second she's truly as shallow as she wants us all to believe.

 

[Eveleivibe]

I'm talking about a few weeks ago, Shambles, and I'm not having a go at her, just trying to help her...

Nah she's not shallow, far from it... seems like an intelligent girl, exploring drugs and has some self-esteem issues....

Evey

 

[Shambles]

I agree with the second line of your post.

 

[ColtDan]

To be fair, Summer, a lot of us tried to warn ya and give you advice about addiction n what-not but you snapped our heads off. I understand that, I've been there with opiates... But you must understand that if you snap at people when they offer advice they won't in future as they'll be scared of you snapping again.... I know I'm queen of it.... Just spreading some eveydom... LOL

You sound proud of it

 

[Eveleivibe]

You sound proud of it

I was making a joke. I had been drinking few cans of Jack Daniels, and sometimes it's good to make a slight joke now and then, lightens the situation somewhat.

Sometimes you have less of a choice, or you get forced into a choice because you can't face the alternative. I'm struggling to think really, probably not making sense but fuck it feel shit still.

Sounds like psychological addiction to me.

Evey

 

[Sammy G]

Might not be psychological addiction to any one drug in particular, Evey. It might be an attempt to self-medicate because 'real' life has become unbearably painful or difficult.

That wasn't a i feel shit because of drugs, that was a more i feel shit because I have fuck all to feel cheerful about. But I guess it still applies, it doesn't sound harsh at all. In a way I already am getting used to it. I've realised tonight that I made my choice a long time ago and I've just been delaying it, in theory I could still change my mind but really I don't know if anything can or will.

Typing on phone is shit so can't be bothered wording all that better, not worth reading anyway unless you're feeling too cheerful and need some more misery in your life.

I disagree that you having nothing to feel cheerful about, but any attempt to persuade you otherwise will come across as either being trite, sleazy or both, so I won't bother with that.

I'm also well aware that nobody else can ever know how you're feeling. This kind of statement, however:

forced into a choice because you can't face the alternative.

... I identify with all to readily, and I really wish I'd not wasted years of my life realising that there is a choice after all.

If you're still feeling this way in a few years' time then I think that's a terrible shame. It's a shame that you feel that way now, of course, but you know what I mean.

 

[SummerSerenade]

Cba typing any kind of essay response but I would like to point out that;

1) I've never snapped at anyone for trying to offer me proper advice. I've been more than sensible in terms of asking questions, talking about things etc etc. I snap at people who snap at me for no reason. Never anything else. However, I don't remember doing that either so err... yeah. Not that I really care.
2) You're all taking a bit much from me being a bit whingey on a coke comedown.

However, I do appreciate the nice comments and hope you're all doing well on this lovely (lovely because it's not as fucking hot as usual) day.

 

[Sammy G]

2) You're all taking a bit much from me being a bit whingey on a coke comedown.

Never would've guessed, you know?

 

[SummerSerenade]

My point exactly. I also find it amusing to think that I have self esteem issues. It's an interesting one certainly. If I have self esteem issues than how arrogant would I be if I didn't? Doesn't bear thinking about.

 

[Sammy G]

Imagine! All that hyper-inflated sense of self worth and out-of-control grandiosity...

 

[Eveleivibe]

Might not be psychological addiction to any one drug in particular, Evey. It might be an attempt to self-medicate because 'real' life has become unbearably painful or difficult.

Why are you nitpicking at everything I'm saying? I'm getting annoying it's like you're deliberately trying to argue with me. I'm aware that, that could be a possibility but psychological is another. Sorry I spoke.

Eveu

 

[Sammy G]

Once again, Evey, I'm not nitpicking. You stated that Summer's comment sounded like psychological addiction, whereas I disagreed and voiced my opinion. Which is kinda what a discussion forum's about.

Shall I just keep quiet instead?