Thanks both for the replies. That is re-assuring to learn that its not possible to develop addictions to 2 different benzos. I've allready ordered 100mg of pyrazolam powder, it's so much cheaper than the pills, which were working out damned expensive. i will mix it with PG and inject 0.5 to 1 mg into my possibly seperate drinking water bottles for the day.
It is also reassuring to read that valerian / promethazine can help with benzo tapers and w/ds. I can't touch the green without benzos, i get anxiety/paranoia attacks so i wont be going anywhere near that. I could also use diphenhydramine for a while to help with sleep, and the occasional pregabalin to relax. I have noticed the "saywhateverthefucksonyourmind" thing, fortunately so far this has only had one bad consequence, i think that i just need to remind myself to stop and think for a moment about what im going to say.
At the moment work is pretty stressfull, as there is so much to learn, and so many new people to get to know, but once i know what im doing and feel more settled i wont be as stressed and will be cutting out the daytime pyrazolams, and can then get cracking on reducing my etiz bedtime dose.