mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
sorry to hear that SM, i dunno if the 'self destructive streak' is due to your depression but i guess it could be. Good luck with the quit, how is it going? I really dunno how to respond to the addicted parent thing, but as opinionated as many people are here, i think most are fairly non-judgemental, and would be concerened for your own wellbeing and that of your kids.