I need advice. It's complicated.

[SkyblueMolly]

I was never a big fan of alcohol(ethyl alcohol). I had a few drinks yesterday to fit in and avoid being laughed at. I went to my aunts house(it's just a block away) and took a cool shower. I didn't want to get drunk. I never get drunk, only inebrieted. So now it's today and my dad is making jokes about how I shoud've got drunk. He told me I should've got drunk. I felt he made fun of me. It was enraging! It's been a week since my last klonopin and I left it when I went on vacation a week ago. I only brought citalopram and hydroxyzine. I went to the backyard and chased chickens and ducks. I captured a duck and was smacking it. Then I thought "What the hell am I doing? This isn't me!". I think extreme anxiety is starting to creep back into my life. I can't wait until I get klonopin again. I don't have klonopin withdrawal as I only used it for a few weeks. I'm just starting to get extreme anxiety again. That klonopin better be there when I get back from vacation. If not, there's a chance that all hell will break loose. I NEED my klonopin. It's the ONLY thing that can effectively dissolve the excess anxiety. Help! What should I do?

 

[ChipTrippyFox]

Well first of all tell your dad to fuck off.
If you don't wanna drink, you don't have to. Getting intoxicated on any substance just to fit in is just dumb.. don't do substances you don't enjoy.

Also, how long before you are off vaccation?
Try to just relax and enjoy yourself.. just remember that you'll be back and try not to do anything crazy.

Poor duck..

 

[SkyblueMolly]

Well first of all tell your dad to fuck off.
If you don't wanna drink, you don't have to. Getting intoxicated on any substance just to fit in is just dumb.. don't do substances you don't enjoy.

Also, how long before you are off vaccation?
Try to just relax and enjoy yourself.. just remember that you'll be back and try not to do anything crazy.

Poor duck..

Thanks. I'll try to relax. I'll be back from vacation in a few weeks. I must try to go back to college and start and finish college. I was depressed the last time I was in college because of high school thoughts and bad neighborhood thoughts. I was at an adolescent pavilion years ago. I was 17 the last time I was in college. I need to study chemistry in college and get my own lab(even if it's a clandestine one). The duck's ok though.

 

[PotatoMan]

Man reading this made me sad. Don't do what doesn't make you happy buddy. Never do something to "fit-in" esp alcohol. For obvious reasons that it's unnecessary. Fuck people and their opinions. At the end of the day you won't be buried with ANY OF THEM. So why trim yourself to suit them? You'd soon wither away!

And yeah your dad isn't helping the case. That was very weak from him IMO.

In terms of the major anxiety. Sounds like rebound anxiety from the klonopin to me. It's longer acting so it makes sense that the rebound effects are present after a week.

I ain't no expert tho but the peer pressure, parent pressure and rebound effects from K-pins sound like the most logical reason for your extreme anxiety.

If you smoke weed get some indica and blaze up mon!

 

[SOMECHiCKk]

Well first of all tell your dad to fuck off.
If you don't wanna drink, you don't have to. Getting intoxicated on any substance just to fit in is just dumb.. don't do substances you don't enjoy.

Also, how long before you are off vaccation?
Try to just relax and enjoy yourself.. just remember that you'll be back and try not to do anything crazy.

Poor duck..

i agree... Tell whoever teases you about you being sober or whatnot to go fuck themselves.... Your better off being sober and have a functional sober life then to be some drunk...