Hi all. I've been a junkie for years, been thru suboxone maint. The past week i've been going to a methadone clinic. Methadone has ALWAYS been my DOC. It used to get me higher than anything, and last the longest. Needless to say i CANNOT get high off dones anymore. Before i started going to the clinic i was taking dones about 5 days out of the week avg at 80mg doses for over a month. This is what killed my ability to get high. I havent gotten high in about a month. this week at the clinic i started at 30mg and just leveled off at 60mg. i'd like to be on a lower daily dose, but im just curious if it is possible to get a slight "buzz" if i were to lower my daily dose to say 30mg, then one day take 100mg? i know its kinda against the bl rules to ask bout what will get you high, but im just trying to ask for harm reduction sake so i dont end up killing myself. if this post is in fact an "illegal post" let me know and i will by all means take it down. I am trying to kick, but I am going through the worst personal issues i've ever had the misfortune of coming across. Basically my fiance was date raped, and now shes pregnant and i dont know if the baby is mine or a rape baby. I havent slept in 2 days, and i just want to feel something other than complete hatred. I know this doesnt justify getting high, and I also know that getting high isnt going to help or solve any of my problems, but as i said its been a month since i've been high, and I refuse to drink or smoke weed, or use any other drug. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thx all.