Im a recent member to this site and this is my first post. Im doing this because i desparetely need help. Sooo I've been on suboxone for a while now and been doing great and been weaning off for a few months, down to less than 2 mlg per day. Where im from everyone does dope and mabye 30s. But a few months ago i moved to a nee location far away. Ended up getting a better job than expected and making decent money. But Meth is extremely prevalent where I live now. My new job is where I tried it first. One of my co workers had it and i had wanted to try it for a while. So I threw him 10 bucks and he hid a piece in the back room- i was sketched out doing it at work and was kind of scared so i only took a hit. I felt good and had energy n watnot but i knew it wasnt enouhh or what i was looking for. On my way out of work, my co worker handed me a bag- it was half of what was left. I couldnt beleive how much it was. It got me high for days (I know his boy hooked him up bit for $10 I was like dammmmn ) i couldnt stop smoking it. I feel like its all i can think about. Once i had gone through the bag i knew i needed to take some time off that shit n stay awway.did a bunch of research and found out I had been playing with fire. But the next day at work i felt like shit and it was pretty much presented to me. I ended up getting offered a 40 bag and bought it. I knew i shouldnt i just couldnt say no. This is where things start getting deep. I keep trying to not use- being aware of what im doing- going 3 days or so then giving in. Its hard because its present at work (obviously discreetly, but still, I notice it n think about i). I feel like shit when I stop taking it and I do long 12 hour days of physical work. I feel like its got a hold of me and i fuckin hate it. I had been off dope for sooo long and this shit comes out of nowhere and pretty much got me from day 1. I dont know what to do its all going to catch up with me. This needs to end I cant live like this... any advise?? Anything I can do to reduce cravings? Things to take to help withdrawal symptoms and detox?? Anything???

