GenericName12
Bluelighter
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What used to be the greatest day of the year.. Is now the worst. St Patrick's day.
When I was in active alcoholism I could drink as much as I wanted and not feel bad because everyone around me was doing the same. There was no shame. Where I live st Patrick's day is huge. People go hard all day.
I'm dreading this day. My friends (normal young 20s) are doing the usual all day, taking the day off work. I am not joining them. They understand why.
I really just want it to be march 18th. Maybe I just won't go outside Monday, pretend its just another day. Close my blinds.
Sigh.. I'm not going to drink.. It's just hard. People celebrating getting ridiculously drunk.. It's just so counter intuitive to me now.
When I was in active alcoholism I could drink as much as I wanted and not feel bad because everyone around me was doing the same. There was no shame. Where I live st Patrick's day is huge. People go hard all day.
I'm dreading this day. My friends (normal young 20s) are doing the usual all day, taking the day off work. I am not joining them. They understand why.
I really just want it to be march 18th. Maybe I just won't go outside Monday, pretend its just another day. Close my blinds.
Sigh.. I'm not going to drink.. It's just hard. People celebrating getting ridiculously drunk.. It's just so counter intuitive to me now.