Not sleeping at all yet. Not even w kpins and cyclobenzaprine. PLUS THIS MOTHERFUCKING JOINT PAIN
When I detoxed from methadone cold turkey (in jail-FML) i did not sleep for a month straight. NO exaggerating. People say its impossible, but those are people who have never kicked methadone.
I have historically never been a good sleeper, even early on as an infant and child. I was always so hyper active, always doing shit.
I cannot wait until I sleep. I am going to have to pop some of my adderall to make it thru the day today. I just hope I don't start feeling all shitty and edgy and start being a bitch, cuz that wouldn't be fair to my bf since he's just getting out.
Wish me luck?
I REALLY hope you didn't take the Adderall!! Stimulants + withdrawals (of any kind, but stimulant withdrawal) = hell. It doesn't give you energy, or focus. It doesn't get you through the day, it just makes you that much sicker. In fact I've made a couple threads on the matter - being a daily tweaker myself lol.
Anyways. I know exactly how you feel. Seriously. I really have sympathy for people who don't sleep because I know just how awful it is. I suffer from horrible insomnia that is potentiated by horrible RLS. I've tried literally every drug (tha isn't a controlled substance) for sleep - you name it, I've been on it. 99.9% of those drugs made me tired. Hell, Geodon made me passout, literally. But all of them plagued me with horrible nightmares, caused paradoxical anxiety and agitation, and literally caused pain. I'm serious, they put me in intense pain. Why? Because all of them would exacerbate my horrible RLS to literally unbearable RLS. I would ly awake EVERYNIGHT, wishing nothing more than to be able to sleep. I begged god to let me sleep. But every time I would lay down, I would experience such horrible RLS that my legs would literally feel like they were on fire. I can't take 'anti' drugs because they just cause pain and misery.
Then... After three years of pain, horrible pain... My horrible, evil, awful, not-even a real doctor 'doctor' got sick of me because I was finally calling her out on her bullshit and I was finally starting to raise slight suspicion that she had no idea what she was doing - so she moved me to an actual Psychiatrist.
The first thing my psychiatrist said to me when I walked in the door for my first appointment with him was - "so I was looking over your files and... I can see that you've been lectured about drug addiction." Instantly I knew that in was about to get the help I deserved. In that first meeting, I told him how I'd been prescribed Ativan by an emergency room doctor before and how much of a difference it made for me. I explain how little any other drug has worked for me, and listed all the ones I've tried.
My previous "doctor" (she was actually a nurse practitioner who had no idea what she was doing) refused to prescribed me anything that even had the slightest possibility of being addictive. In my first meeting with my doctor (who has a PhD in Psychiatry I might add) said to me - "Not only do I think that you should be on Ativan PRN, I'm going to give you 90, 1 milligram Ativan pills a month so you can take up to 3 a day if you really need to."
Due to the horrible nature of my previous doctor, I thought that was literally the end-all for everything. But once I described my sleep problems to him and my horrible RLS symptoms he said - "Okay, well let's try Ambien. There's no reason why your previous doctor shouldn't have done this. In fact, Ambien is a first-line treatment for insomnia in most adults."
Anyways, I don really know what my point was.... Maybe saying I really get your pain. I really do...
Anyways, Ambien worked and it worked well, but ultimately it didn't last long enough and I would then experience rebound RLS within 4 hours. So ultimate I tried Ambien CR, Lunesta, Zaleplon. Zaleplon was fine for getting me to sleep but then I would wake up in seriously 40 minutes. Ambien CR have me flu like symptoms, and Lunesta literally did nothing at all. Maybe I felt slight sedation? But no... Not really.
After those he through up his hands and said pretty much said "You know what? Fuck it. Let's just move onto Temazepam." And now... That's were I am today. 30 milligrams of Temazepam per night. Plus I take 25 milligrams of Benadryl, and 20 milligrams of Pepcid... But that's beside the point.
Only thing I don't like about it is the fact that I'm now phsyically addicted to Benzo's. I start feeling WD's in the mid-evening and sometimes have to take my Ativan to stop them. I only take the Temazepam when I know I'm only 20 minutes from being in bed.
But anyways, this thread is about you!! Not me lol. Sorry I like to talk. Anyways, again, I'm really sorry you have to experience these horrible withdrawals and insomnia. There is literally no worse hell I can think of. I know - I've been through it myself. Just remember, however, that the 'night is darkest just before the dawn'. There is light at the end of this tunnel. You will make it through. If there's anything, anything at all that I can do for you - come find me.
I will do everything in my power to carry you out of hell.
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