The EADD I'm Fucked Megathread - Four Posts Early!

[Josh]

iI still want Knock to tell me off 8)Right then got an hour to talk and trundle then gotta shower pack and fuck off to that there London to see weird consultant for hopefully last time..jusr one moore glass of fizz and wee dab of 4FA ..will the husband notice anything out of sorts as I demand the aphex twin is played all the way there on loop I dont want garage snacks and am wearing sunglasses......................................oh hell

I'm sure you're aware of this but allow plenty of extra time to travel in London today, what with the tube strike. My 40 minute commute took 2 hours yesterday :/

 

[Shambles]

Second bomb just feels to be kicking in has just started to make me go all melty and wibbly round the edges - y'all gonna leave me all alert, aroused and alone now?!?

Fix'd.

Happy trails, Mz Fluorescence

Mornin', Mr Josh

 

[Inflorescence]

I'm sure you're aware of this but allow plenty of extra time to travel in London today, what with the tube strike. My 40 minute commute took 2 hours yesterday :/

Thank you yes I knew just an extra pisser to the day xx

 

[babylonboy]

Always nice to see a bit of cross-cultural cursing

Vraiment? Tu ca vu? Alors, nique la putain du ta roche mere dans sa gros cul et sa gul au meme temps avec les deux grande bittes noires. Je pense que elle est exactement le sale femme a adore cette. There you are, pagey will pick me up where I've gone wrong. The general gist is there, though.

 

[Shambles]

You truly are an emotional cripple sometimes, Raas. In the nicest possible way. Nowt pathetic about having a feeling and expressing it. It's obvious what the intent was and it clearly wasn't a half-hearted attempt at a pick-up line. Why so cynical all the time? Genuine question cos I'm forever being called a cynical auld fuck but I gots nothing on you in the cynic stakes and just wonder why that might be. In my experience, you have to actively cultivate that level of cynicism which suggests it is but an affectation trying to mask over with bluff, (faux) bravado 'n' bluster any suggestion of having one of said feelings and feeling unable to express it because it would mess with your simplistic surface cynicism. Sorry if that's a bit too much of a suggestion but methinks the Rass doth protesteth too much

In fukked news, still fukked. And is bupe o'clock - soooooooooooooooooo handy 'n' noice for morning after achey sore bits

 

[Raasyvibe]

You truly are an emotional cripple sometimes, Raas. In the nicest possible way. Nowt pathetic about having a feeling and expressing it. It's obvious what the intent was and it clearly wasn't a half-hearted attempt at a pick-up line. Why so cynical all the time? Genuine question cos I'm forever being called a cynical auld fuck but I gots nothing on you in the cynic stakes and just wonder why that might be. In my experience, you have to actively cultivate that level of cynicism which suggests it is but an affectation trying to mask over with bluff, (faux) bravado 'n' bluster any suggestion of having one of said feelings and feeling unable to express it because it would mess with your simplistic surface cynicism. Sorry if that's a bit too much of a suggestion but methinks the Rass doth protesteth too much

In fukked news, still fukked. And is bupe o'clock - soooooooooooooooooo handy 'n' noice for morning after achey sore bits

Eh?

Now YOU'RE being the cynic, shammy-fan-dan-go.

I find eLW's mashed up comments funny; don't know quite how genuine he's being. It's not a personal attack against him.

I think sometimes you take posts too seriously, misplaced reading intent and all that.

 

[Marmalade]

Raas, I looked at what you wrote, and thought, why now? It was from previous to when he'd had his big bust up with the cops, and totally unecessary for you to do it. It was a twattish move. Kicking someone when theyre down isn't cool. The use of the word 'pathetic' right now, does not even remotely come off as humourous. Cept to you maybe. You can't be drunk at 9am, surely?

Give the guy a fucking break.

 

[Raasyvibe]

eek! sorry. Deleted then.

It's a bit like when me and PTCH were poking fun at Knock for his pathetic drunken suicide notes in the middle of the night. making light of it being humorous in a pathetic way but knowing he'll sober up and laugh at it also maybe... (not explaining myself well here, v. tired)

yeah true eLW is going thru a hard time right now.

No I'm not drunk, but was earlier. I've just woke up from a couple hours of drunken sleep and can't get back to sleep. grrrr. Brain is feeling dead though, that may explain a thing or 2.

'n' noice for morning after achey sore bits

Too much info

 

[Shambles]

What she said. Also, I don't think I'm being a cynic at all - just wondering why you have such apparent issues with emotions and feelings is all. Not knocking it or owt - I know plenty 'bout bottled and locked emotional absence. Is a thing I've been working on for years because it's held me back to ridiculous extent in the past. It's one thing to not have much time for, or go in for, public displays of emotion - perfectly standard (if a lil sad in this day and age) Man Thing, but going out of your way to highlight and essentially mock (all meant in good spirit of fun with no malice involved, of course) others for choosing to be a bit less guarded and/or defensive about what they may feel about this, that or t'other.

Don't mind me - been up on entactogens 'n' stims all night and got a bit of an inquisitive and overtly empathetic head on this morn. Feel free to ignore my be-drugged ramblings. I would :D

 

[Marmalade]

No, what anyone should be doing given that information Shammy, would be to exploit it to their favour and certainly not ignore you. He should start hitting on you.




(eh, maybe that was Courtney talking ... )

 

[Raasyvibe]

just wondering why you have such apparent issues with emotions and feelings is all. Not knocking it or owt - I know plenty 'bout bottled and locked emotional absence. Is a thing I've been working on for years because it's held me back to ridiculous extent in the past. It's one thing to not have much time for, or go in for, public displays of emotion - perfectly standard (if a lil sad in this day and age) Man Thing, but going out of your way to highlight and essentially mock (all meant in good spirit of fun with no malice involved, of course) others for choosing to be a bit less guarded and/or defensive about what they may feel about this, that or t'other.

Eh, what? issues with felings? locked emotional absence?

Hold onto your psycho-analysing clogs for just a moment, boy. Im just bored, sleepless and wasting time on the Internet here. Really didn't think it was a big deal.

Don't mind me - been up on entactogens 'n' stims all night and got a bit of an inquisitive and overtly empathetic head on this morn. Feel free to ignore my be-drugged ramblings. I would :D

Respectively I'm taking that advice.

 

[Shambles]

As I said, by all means do. I only got a 'B' in GCSE psychology anyway - if it were at least a 'B+' it'd be another matter entirely

Mz Marmz does make a valid point though. Or was it me? Or you, perhaps? Group hug? Surely

I'm not talking about the post you deleted - or any specific post for that matter - more just observations built over the weeks, months - even years maybe - is all. Not meant as criticism at all. Other than perhaps of the constructive variety.

But yeah, drugfugged and swirl'd ponderings made bold cos drugs is all really. They do say entactogens are especially good tools for observing, evaluating and challenging emotional blockages and bafflements. Saved me from myself so they did - and still do a lil more each and every time

 

[Marmalade]

Eh, what? issues with felings? locked emotional absence?

Hold onto your psycho-analysing clogs for just a moment, boy. Im just bored, sleepless and wasting time on the Internet here. Really didn't think it was a big deal.

You're also a very prolific and outspoken Christian. But you don't act like it. Quite the opposite. And I'm not talking about the guilt of doing drugs or stopping them.

I'm talking about your attitude to others in these sorts of scenarios. It's like you've blocked that part of your beliefs out. It's honestly bizarre

 

[ColtDan]

Have you been a cunt again raas? jeebus aint repenting your sins, nope, no mercy from the LAWD

 

[knock]

Only Red at my local Co-Op. YMMV and all that.

And, with respect, you've barely had yer collar felt, young fella me lad. Having been nicked more times than I thankfully can't even begin to recall, I've gotten to know a thing or two 'bout Plod in all their variform nature. Until/unless you've been nicked enough times for them to drop the act you'll always get full-on grief from 'em. Once they know you're "in the system" they switch into human mode and start treating you like a fellow human being. Funny how that works out but it does.

*waves at our beloved cuntstubbles*

(we 's ya really - when in human mode anyway)

I disagree with just about everything there, starting with "respect", no need for that

and my point is they treated me fairly nicely, and did not give me much grief at all! Much as I hate to say it as I'm not a fan of their structural role, or a lot of the actual behaviour that I see on youtube etc. But maybe I got lucky, in fact I know that one of them, on my first time in the cells, was a rookie so they might have been easing him in gently.

Also they might have made allowances for my medical condition, having just crushed my cuboid, and the fact that I'm extremely posh.

Inflo, sorry but I strongly suspect you're just goading me so you can tell me to get lost and mind my own business. You've mistaken me for a copper. It's these clothes, I know.

OK you're really really badly behaved.

 

[Marmalade]

^^ wow, you can cut the sexual tension with a knife there. Impressive ;p

 

[knock]

Trust you to look for erotica everywhere. ;p

 

[Raasyvibe]

Have you been a cunt again raas?

Debatable.

You're also a very prolific and outspoken Christian. But you don't act like it. Quite the opposite. And I'm not talking about the guilt of doing drugs or stopping them.

I'm talking about your attitude to others in these sorts of scenarios. It's like you've blocked that part of your beliefs out. It's honestly bizarre

I'm.........................


way too tired and brain dead to respond. I've been trying for 10 minutes now.


Goodnight my lovlies

 

[Shambles]

You're also a very prolific and outspoken Christian. But you don't act like it. Quite the opposite. And I'm not talking about the guilt of doing drugs or stopping them.

I'm talking about your attitude to others in these sorts of scenarios. It's like you've blocked that part of your beliefs out. It's honestly bizarre

Was partly meaning this yeah, but wasn't what I was really thinking of. I actually think Raas' faith does show through and shine sometimes. Some of his posts are just perfect and clearly wouldn't exist without his religious beliefs.

Buuuuuuuut, they're comparatively rare and apt to get lost and overlooked amongst all the manly ribbing and the like. It's more that stuff that I don't get. But I guess I never was much of a manly man and never did get the forced machismo or stuff upper lippedness stuff. Seems to be counterproductive to me. The male ego tends to be fragile enough without trying to balance and maintain presumed societal social cues and unrealistic, unattainable, undesirable standards and supposed norms of masculinity. That way only leads to tears before bedtime which rather scuppers that whole stiff upper lip thing anyway so opt to cut out the yawnycringeymanlyman stuff and try to be a man rather than a masque'd mannequin man. It's 'orrible, lonely, sad, unrewarding, unfulfilling and full of fears, regrets and insecurities trying to stick to the script each day.

And obviously Raas is very far from being alone in any of these traits - really is a generic Man Thing which I do wish would realise that it's of no use to anybody any more and is doing more harm than it ever could make up for. Apologies for talking about you as well as to you - I am but musing on stuffs and things. It all makes sense to me - at least it begins to when snagged, snared and written down a bit. You knows we 's ya, Raas

(oh, and you or anybody else is more than welcome to try to psychobabble me or say anything ya damn well please about me if the mood should take. constructive criticism is always welcome @ Chez Sham)

 

[ColtDan]

Raas is trying to be all controversial and unique

and thats all i can be assed to type