Wandering Girl
Bluelighter
Hey everyone, my name is Alyssa. :D I'm sort of a forum lurker. If you can't tell from my username, I move around a lot. I thought it was a good time to set up an account here though.
I've been doing drugs for a few years. I started out smoking weed at the end of high school and right away picked up other things too. I was mainly a pill popper for a while... ecstasy, prescription, OTC, whatever, and occasionally with other things mixed in as well. My favorite kinds of experiences were from empathogens and psychedelics. But after a while I started getting some anxiety with physical symptoms and stopped doing anything but drinking alcohol and smoking weed. After I realized I needed to start facing my fears I dropped the drinking too and just worked on integrating my past trips. I took a break from weed but I'm back to it now and it's nice, no panic attacks or anything, but it still causes annoying physical problems with me that I don't think are going to go away until I give myself a long time to stay sober and let my psyche balance itself out. It mostly centers around these tension headaches that get worse and worse with chronic smoking.... I'm finally starting to get back to the point where I'd like to try psychedelics again but I've been worried that even without the anxiety the headaches will still dominate the experience, as I've tried it before and psychedelic-enhanced migraines are no fun at all. So as much as I enjoy it otherwise, I'm planning to drop the weed again as soon as I run out of what I currently have.
I tried smoking a very small amount of DMT the other day to see where I'm at. The head pressure was present, but it's been getting particularly bad even from weed lately, so it's not really unexpected. Aside from that, it seemed promising. It was only enough for minor visual distortions, but the body and mind effects were wonderful. I was very stimulated and euphoric and I couldn't take this big grin off of my face. The afterglow was really nice too, and the whole thing was done with close friends so my mindset was great. I felt that overall it was a really positive sign, and just emphasized even more that I just have to take that final step to get myself back to normal now.
So now my main interest really is to go sober for a while and then get back to tripping. In the meantime I figured I'd just sign up here to chat about things.
I've been doing drugs for a few years. I started out smoking weed at the end of high school and right away picked up other things too. I was mainly a pill popper for a while... ecstasy, prescription, OTC, whatever, and occasionally with other things mixed in as well. My favorite kinds of experiences were from empathogens and psychedelics. But after a while I started getting some anxiety with physical symptoms and stopped doing anything but drinking alcohol and smoking weed. After I realized I needed to start facing my fears I dropped the drinking too and just worked on integrating my past trips. I took a break from weed but I'm back to it now and it's nice, no panic attacks or anything, but it still causes annoying physical problems with me that I don't think are going to go away until I give myself a long time to stay sober and let my psyche balance itself out. It mostly centers around these tension headaches that get worse and worse with chronic smoking.... I'm finally starting to get back to the point where I'd like to try psychedelics again but I've been worried that even without the anxiety the headaches will still dominate the experience, as I've tried it before and psychedelic-enhanced migraines are no fun at all. So as much as I enjoy it otherwise, I'm planning to drop the weed again as soon as I run out of what I currently have.
I tried smoking a very small amount of DMT the other day to see where I'm at. The head pressure was present, but it's been getting particularly bad even from weed lately, so it's not really unexpected. Aside from that, it seemed promising. It was only enough for minor visual distortions, but the body and mind effects were wonderful. I was very stimulated and euphoric and I couldn't take this big grin off of my face. The afterglow was really nice too, and the whole thing was done with close friends so my mindset was great. I felt that overall it was a really positive sign, and just emphasized even more that I just have to take that final step to get myself back to normal now.
So now my main interest really is to go sober for a while and then get back to tripping. In the meantime I figured I'd just sign up here to chat about things.
talk soon.
