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I take MDMA everyday. I love taking it but i Can't stop! Help!

Aklife

Aklife

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I'm a Silly 22 year old boy , Graphic Designer / Photographer / Musician in London. I am 175cm tall and 64.4 kg.


I LOVE MANDY, i love her ;[ but i know she is not good for me but i just can't resist seeing it infront of me and not taking it.

It's my 5th day I am taking 1 gram each day. Its some brown mdma.


Why i'm taking it ?

- I get many Designs in my vision when closing my eyes.

- I love the feeling being high and euphoric

- I can dance for 8 hours non stop straight.

- Sex is just way better i could of imagined


Weird things i've noticed since i started taking md.

- I twitch

- I have fast reactions

- When I jog am getting hight at some point while the drop is coming along in the music.

- I would talk to you about something and stop in the middle of the convo and ask you what I was talking about. Or same if you were talking to me I would make you remind me what you are talking about every 15 seconds.



I know this is bad, I am not crazy yet and fucked up.
I just love this substance soo much that I can't enjoy a day without it.

Problem is not that i need it , i just want to be fucked everyday and maybe I pass away one day.


Sorry for bothering you guys with this but I think I have a problem. My friends ... Well i don't have any friends , I drop it as soon as I finish work at 5pm and buzz till 4am and fall asleep.

Never had a comedown, its just a mental thing you need to control. Your body listens to your mind.


p.s. I take 5-htp to boost up my Serotonin and eat lots of fruit.


Basically I am lost man, I am scared aswell but don't give a fuck just want to wash away the pain by getting high
 
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Slow down man!! If your consuming that much MDMA you could be asking for some negative effects down the road.. Moderation is key!!
 
Is this a troll or? never had a comedown? i was pretty sure when i read everyday and 2 gram = fried brain
 
if you would do 2 grams of relatively pure MDMA ONCE in a day you would be so fried and fucked you wouldnt touch it for days. Either your shit is extremly cut or it aint even the real thing. In either way you should stop. Nothing positive can come from this.
 
Troll...or someone natural selection was going to get eventually anyway.

IF this is true...walk into a hospital before you are carried in.
 
On the off chance that you're not a troll...

Empathogens definitely carry addiction risk for some people. Unlike regular amphetamines, MDMA comes with some additional danger in terms of neurotoxicity and heart valve damage. Regular amps can burn out dopamine receptors but MDMA also acts on serotonin, so daily use is not healthy. (Not to mention the possibility of "losing the magic" forever).

Not suggesting that RC's are safer by any means, but you may want to check out 4-FA, ethylone or one of the other "milder" empathogens if you insist on daily use.

But it's whatever.
 
SLOOOOW buddy. If you love it that much, realize that if you can`t do it in moderation you`re eventually gona have to stop it and suffer some unpleasant consequences. But if you stop before you do damage maybe you could save that magic by only using it on special occasions.
 
OP thinks he can shield himself from heavy drug use that alters the brain, compromises the immune system, and destroys the central nervous system by increasing his fruit intake? What a joke.

If this OP is serious then it's pretty sad is all I got to say. The earlier you stop the better chance of a recovery.

You're obviously avoiding most negative effects since you're taking it daily, thus you're not seeing 99% of the negatives yet. Your best bet is to stop today and start the recovery process which I'm sure is going to take a while but it will save your life in the long run.

PS
Considering you are a graphic designer and work on the internet, aka isolation and lack of social skills then this drug is even more not for you to abuse.
 
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Think it's a joke. He has no friends, but says having sex is great on it? Alot not adding up, especially the amount this OP is taking. Unless he's a robot, he WOULD be experiencing serious comedown effects by now.
 
Call me a jaded, cynical old man but there's a basic truth that what goes up must come down. The problem will take care of itself because you'll eventually get sick and tired and then after a while of that you'll be so sick and tired of being sick and tired that you'll stop. The road back from abuse sometimes is a long, lonely one full of pain and despair, but in the end we have to live with the consequences of the choices we make. I wish you the best.
 
i just can't resist seeing it infront of me and not taking it.
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Well, that's your first problem. Stop putting it in front of your face.

Try to take yourself out of the environment you've been in for the last five days. Wake up tomorrow morning and go to the park and just wander around for a while. Sleep over at a friend's house if need be, whatever keeps you from triggering this craving.

Reflect on the fact that life is not supposed to be a constant fountain of superficial pleasure. There's a whole spectrum of experience you miss out on if you live this way, and that's ignoring the fact that it just won't last forever.
 
Heres a thought...I've used biweekly and weekly at times and have lost a shitload of weight. I'll gain it back in between rolls if i give it a little more time than usual and make the conscious effort to eat more, but I always end up losing it again next time I use.

If OP was doing that much mdma he'd wither away to nothing. You claim you weigh 64kg... you'd weigh more like 50kg or less. Even if when he started using mdma he was at 150kg he would be down to about that 50 mark by now with everyday use.

unless troll?
 
MDMA is not the kind of drug you get addicted to and must have more. You are simply being greedy and wanting to feel on cloud 9 every day. I have zero sympathy for you, at this point you have already caused some form of brain damage. It is up to you to continue to use and permanently fry your brain, a very important part of your brain.

You want to wash away the pain? Do some fucking research and maybe choose an opiate, they are non toxic how ever addicting. WAY better than doing MDMA though, have fun being depressed the rest of your life.
 
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MDMA is not the kind of drug you get addicted to and must have more. You are simply being greedy and wanting to feel on cloud 9 every day. I have zero sympathy for you, at this point you have already caused some form of brain damage. It is up to you to continue to use and permanently fry your brain, a very important part of your brain.

You want to wash away the pain? Do some fucking research and maybe choose an opiate, they are non toxic how ever addicting. WAY better than doing MDMA though, have fun being depressed the rest of your life.
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disgusting post.
 
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