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Sammy G
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mydrugbuddy
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im not keen on speed in paste form atall. When they say your getting a gram, when it dries up, is it fuck a gram, its a rip off. When i had some good contacts several years ago they used to get proper strong speed powder, it was so strong that they had to cut it with 50 % mixing ingredient, and even after that just a dap of little finger tip sucked or gummed would get you flying.
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
That's the point of street 'paste' - a caffeine, glucose adulterated rip-off, basically.
Of course, old-timers who once took some oily speed and swear that 'it were t'best I ever 'ad, I tells thee' insist that all good speed looks that way.
They talk gash.
Of course, old-timers who once took some oily speed and swear that 'it were t'best I ever 'ad, I tells thee' insist that all good speed looks that way.
They talk gash.
Albion
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Tangerine Dream
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Bupe made me full of shit 
Good value though...not just on less toilet paper used.
Good value though...not just on less toilet paper used.
Bodda
Ex-Bluelighter
Bupe made me full of shit
I know the feeling too well, worst was not having a crap for nearly 2 weeks & when it came out it ripped my arse & made it bleed it was that hard.
Could have cracked somebodys skull with it
Shame when you kick OP8's it goes the other way, like turning on the shower full blast, I am scared to fart when I am on a kick but I am sure you know about that as you know 'bout OP8 abuse.
Just got a message off "Bear" AKA Mrs Farmaz V2.0, she asked me to go with her tonight to some gay bar in the city, I aint sure wtf to do if I am honest. Anyone that aint gay been before to them kinda places & is it safe to go?
I got some terrible image of some kinda Pulp Fiction scene crossed with Irreversible if I am honest.
"NO I didn't order a Taxi in the name of Tapeworm"
Pagey
Bluelight Crew
lol I've done that plenty of times, you'll be fine.
Wishing you the best of luck BCF
Anyway thought I'd pop in and say hi...two weeks completely off drugs (wow when I write it down it really doesn't seem like as long as it feels!) and I already feel a billion times better, plus it turns out I moved away just as my parents found out about the heroin so perfect timing really. Hope everyone's okay
swampdragon
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I'm sorry, you expect BLers to not be a bunch of slackers? I've not even renewed the xbox live account yet.
Good to know! Am a bit squeamish about putting owt up my nose.
That's great news. Really well done.Anyway thought I'd pop in and say hi...two weeks completely off drugs (wow when I write it down it really doesn't seem like as long as it feels!) and I already feel a billion times better, plus it turns out I moved away just as my parents found out about the heroin so perfect timing really. Hope everyone's okay
Albion
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Congrats, Pagey!
Staying sober gets easier the longer you stick at it. The cravings don't go, but your ability to resist them increases. 2 years ago I was in a pattern of daily stimulant, benzo, opiate, dissociative and psychedelic use (usually alternated but not always). But today my last binge was months ago, and the previous binge months before that. So yeah, it gets easier.
Staying sober gets easier the longer you stick at it. The cravings don't go, but your ability to resist them increases. 2 years ago I was in a pattern of daily stimulant, benzo, opiate, dissociative and psychedelic use (usually alternated but not always). But today my last binge was months ago, and the previous binge months before that. So yeah, it gets easier.
Bodda
Ex-Bluelighter
lol I've done that plenty of times, you'll be fine.
Wishing you the best of luck BCF
Anyway thought I'd pop in and say hi...two weeks completely off drugs (wow when I write it down it really doesn't seem like as long as it feels!) and I already feel a billion times better, plus it turns out I moved away just as my parents found out about the heroin so perfect timing really. Hope everyone's okay
Yeah when you come off the gear or any frm of dope I find that time feels so long in your mind when in reality it's hardly been any time at all.
I give you respect Pagey as I know myself kicking "God's own medicine" aint a easy task, I find it the most hard thing to give up & stay away from, You had any PAWS effects yet?
Godspeed to a better place
Not to be rude etc & feel free to ignore me or say "fuck off" as I won't be offended, but how did the mom & dad find out you was riding the horse?
My mom is well suspect atm & has been for a good 6 weeks now, she asked me the other day if I was back on it but I said no like anyone would, if she found out I was back riding the horse it would destroy her, the 1st time she found out it really mashed up her mental health & caused brutal depression as to her that is one of the most low things a person can do but she is an average member of the public & takes all her understanding of stuff from the BBC & the average media so to have a schmecker in the family is terrible & a really shameful thing, they overlook my birth mother & real dad were heroin addicts though.
I'll take your tip Pagey & give it a try, I got nothing against the gays personally & when I was in Cape Cod for a few months working with some Mexicans in a pizza shop I crashed at a guy's yard he shared with his boyfriend & another woman, I got no issue with what people choose to do in terms of their sex life, my god some of the stuff I got up to in the past would upset your average "Vanilla" (hint) person in the street but actually going into a full blown place made just for gay people kinda freaks me out in a way.
Like when I went to me first dub reggae event I was kinda worried as it was full of black guys that looked rough etc but it turned out to be one of the best events I ever been to & I had no problems. I remember reading a bio on Joe Strummer & he talked about the track "White Man (In Hammersmith Palais)" which is the kinda same thing in a way I guess.
Hope you keep well & stay away from the gear, it aint a good thing but I am sure you know that by now.
EDIT - I am out folks, time for a shower & to venture where no Bodda has before.
Have a good 'un folks
Mela
Greenlighter
Bodda, you really must check out Homopatik if you're ever in Berlin :D
I'm pretty sure you'll lurve the place long time
I'm pretty sure you'll lurve the place long time
Pagey
Bluelight Crew
That's great news. Really well done.
Thank you!
Thanks
Good to hear it gets easier. Yeah, it's basically the same for me except for the dissociatives, the cravings are insane and pretty much constant but it's so nice having a clear head and being able to interact normally for once that they're not too hard to deal with luckily. Very happy I decided to stop.
Yeah when you come off the gear or any frm of dope I find that time feels so long in your mind when in reality it's hardly been any time at all.
I give you respect Pagey as I know myself kicking "God's own medicine" aint a easy task, I find it the most hard thing to give up & stay away from, You had any PAWS effects yet?
Godspeed to a better place
Not to be rude etc & feel free to ignore me or say "fuck off" as I won't be offended, but how did the mom & dad find out you was riding the horse?
My mom is well suspect atm & has been for a good 6 weeks now, she asked me the other day if I was back on it but I said no like anyone would, if she found out I was back riding the horse it would destroy her, the 1st time she found out it really mashed up her mental health & caused brutal depression as to her that is one of the most low things a person can do but she is an average member of the public & takes all her understanding of stuff from the BBC & the average media so to have a schmecker in the family is terrible & a really shameful thing, they overlook my birth mother & real dad were heroin addicts though.
I'll take your tip Pagey & give it a try, I got nothing against the gays personally & when I was in Cape Cod for a few months working with some Mexicans in a pizza shop I crashed at a guy's yard he shared with his boyfriend & another woman, I got no issue with what people choose to do in terms of their sex life, my god some of the stuff I got up to in the past would upset your average "Vanilla" (hint) person in the street but actually going into a full blown place made just for gay people kinda freaks me out in a way.
Like when I went to me first dub reggae event I was kinda worried as it was full of black guys that looked rough etc but it turned out to be one of the best events I ever been to & I had no problems. I remember reading a bio on Joe Strummer & he talked about the track "White Man (In Hammersmith Palais)" which is the kinda same thing in a way I guess.
Hope you keep well & stay away from the gear, it aint a good thing but I am sure you know that by now.
EDIT - I am out folks, time for a shower & to venture where no Bodda has before.
Have a good 'un folks
Cheers Bodda
luckily PAWS are starting to get easier by now, I went through the worst of it in june/july (and that was hell, those things are evil) and the relapses did set me back but they're starting to go away. Regarding my parents, turns out they're just not very trustworthy...apparently they had suspicions (can't blame them, track marks/being sick half the time and emotionless the rest, massive weight loss, etc.) so they decided to go through my phone and obviously they found stuff on there...so I couldn't exactly deny it sadly. Now my father won't speak to me anymore and my mother is insanely worried which just isn't helping anything at all. Like I said, good time to get away ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Really sorry to hear that about your mom, it's one thing for parents to be worried, but ashamed is really awful. Hopefully things'll ease up soon...
Seriously it'll be fine, I go to lesbian/gay clubs all the time with friends, they're not gonna jump on you or anything
Best of luck with the gear and stuff
Well done pagey, congrats
Time for a nice big roast and the last ever ep of breaking bad
Thank you
Enjoy the last BB btw.
Tangerine Dream
Bluelighter
I think the pain killing effect of bupe lasts a lot longer and 8mg pills seem to go for 13-15quid....then split into 16th or 32 bits maybe? I would need validation if I'm right, also don't know your opiate tolerance...
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breakcorefiend
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Yea I think that is a decent price tbh, considering they go for 20-25 in the uk.
brimz
Bluelighter
Alright man but you know that by now
Shame on you boy for that fukin dumb shit you fuked up earlier .
IRL you would be getting a serious doing over 4 that but this is t'internet so i'm cool
brimz
Bluelighter
lol I've done that plenty of times, you'll be fine.
Wishing you the best of luck BCF
Anyway thought I'd pop in and say hi...two weeks completely off drugs (wow when I write it down it really doesn't seem like as long as it feels!) and I already feel a billion times better, plus it turns out I moved away just as my parents found out about the heroin so perfect timing really. Hope everyone's okay
Hi Pagey
Yeah i've had a rough ride recently but once i got back on the Heroin things have improved , weird eh ?
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