slackhands
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2010
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On Saturday my so called mate gave me what he said was decent MDMA. Only once we had started rolling did he mumble underneath his breath something about a bad comedown but obviously I laughed this off. Now then i only took a few dabs ( It was pitch black but it can't have been much more than 100mg's) I started to have an amazing time and experienced the intensity of light like never before despite walking through a god damn forest; having done MDMA perhaps 4 times in 2 years from random mates of mates.
However my sense of time after a few hours got incredibly bad and I was just utterly confused at some points walking back through a forest and grassland. Almost 2/3 of the way back (about 5 miles in total) I just came to a dramatic halt in pitch black with a river about 30 yards in front of me. It felt like everything just stopped, including time itself and just felt like ending everything right there. I don't think I said anything to my mate for about 30 seconds to a minute and then just said 'I don't feel right' After about a few minutes I somehow managed to snap out of it but I've never felt so hopeless before. Is this a sign that I should never touch any drugs again? I just feel the risk is too big now.
However my sense of time after a few hours got incredibly bad and I was just utterly confused at some points walking back through a forest and grassland. Almost 2/3 of the way back (about 5 miles in total) I just came to a dramatic halt in pitch black with a river about 30 yards in front of me. It felt like everything just stopped, including time itself and just felt like ending everything right there. I don't think I said anything to my mate for about 30 seconds to a minute and then just said 'I don't feel right' After about a few minutes I somehow managed to snap out of it but I've never felt so hopeless before. Is this a sign that I should never touch any drugs again? I just feel the risk is too big now.
