Acually able to feel half decent to goos tonight. This is rarely the case in my life. Typically every day is a struggle and I desperately reach out at anything to help me just not hurt all day and just feel kinda ok at best usually. 2 years waiting to get some real insurance and finally get treatment/begin recovery. Now I finally have good insurance im having trouble finding a doc that will actual help me. This first fancy 'Back Center' place I got into takes to make any progress and have given me trouble and little help. Huh.
Anyways, to stop ranting and to get to my on topic point....
Had a Xanax bar - No tolerance and empty stomach. Love how these thing's have instants effect orally.
Gram of some premium 'Maui-Waui' cannabis for tonight. I can enjoy a good hybrid with a favor for the indica side or a 40/60 I:s ratio. This waui stuff seems geared towards the latter. Fantastic taste. I clean my glass bong fully, like its new, for every session. Even go to the extent to chamge the bong water ever/every other hit. I find this is essential to fully taste the weed. Feels much healthier than bongs I smoke out of from a more typical user. Most aren't even coconscious of these things when I mention it to them. I guess its more of a connoisseur thing. I just prefer getting the full taste of the bud as a part of the experience. Like enjoying craft beer. My methods using fresh cleen glass seems to be much more gentle on the lungs and seems healthier. Hitting the typical residue filled dirty rarely cleaned bongs most users seem to have kill my lungs. I also use hemp wick to 'psuedovape' my bud by holding the wick a few cm from the bud so the bud slowly vqpes but never combusts. much cleaner taste and high... then you can smoke the remains.
And 300mg Er tramadol which just keeps me normal, Still mostly in pain but im buzzed enough to be distracted from it. I hope I find help from a decent-doc soon. Its just getting worse the longer it takes.
i feel great.
