I'm coming the fuck down from dope... I am so tired I could probably sleep for a week but I have to work tomorrow and the next day and... BLAH.
I had an appointment with a Suboxone doctor today. He charged $300 for the visit. He basically said, in not so many words, was that he thinks I am going to divert the Suboxone and not take it and so he only gave me a prescription for 15 8mg strips. If I wanted to buy those off the street, I could have gotten a lot more than 15 for $300 dollars, so FUCK THAT ASSHOLE. My piss test came up positive for dope and coke. Duh, I am an addict. I need help getting off of drugs. Am I missing something? I am also prescribed benzodiazepines so there is a huge problem now, apparently. Sigh. I don't know what the fuck is going on.
But I got another bundle of dope for tonight and tomorrow... I also have some crack that my dealer gave me by accident. Accident crack?! Lol... I want to smoke it but then I do not want to smoke it... hmmm... that will open yet another can of worms, eh? Fucking hell.
So yeah I had another bag of dope between when I started this post and when I finished it. I may sprinkle some crack on a cigarette and see what the fuss is about.
EDIT: so I smoked the crack off foil with a tooter and that was meh and then i smoked crack sprinkled on top of marijuana in a bowl and that was much better and i think I am high on crack right now... no bell ringers but i do feel the numbness in the back of my throat, i gotta remember to look at my pupils, wow, i feel so CAPABLE... and the heroin is like whoooooa insane, hmmm, so i can see why ppl smoke crack now...
Got suboxone prescription and smoked crack for the first time on the same day. I have to add that to my memoir... Wowwweeeeeeee.
holy crack, heroin and an unfiltered newport... im 20 miles high