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Craving thread – v. Hold On

^^ Congratulations! Not an easy decision.. Smoking is still my main vice after quitting alcohol and drugs. I'm currently switching over to an E-Cig vaporizer. Down to 2-3 real ones a day.

Keep it up though! Quitting smoking is harder than quitting hardcore drugs in my opinion.. You ever think about checking out a nic-A meeting? Nicotine Anonymous? Do a google search and see, I bet there's one near you! I'm sure they'd have excellent tips!
 
^^ spacing doses may help some people - yes.

In my own experience, tapering was never a real option. cold turkey or nothing.. I never followed through with spacing/lowering doses. whatever works for ya though. =D

Keep it up everyone! There's such good recovery on this forum lately its awesome.
 
I'm craving heroin so bad. My cat ran away.. I can't fall asleep. I'm either getting the flu or I'm never going to become well.

Worst night ever. :(
 
^^ Sorry to hear that S.H, do you have a local animal care & control or similar organization that you can file a missing cat report at? I lost my cat in San Francisco at one point when I lived in the sunset, I filed a missing cat report and they had found her within 24 hours of filing it.

I wish you the best of luck with everything - Stay strong. <3
 
I found her she laying in the sun on the porch this morning. I'm happy to hear you found your kitty too.

I used to live in the land of the rising sun o.O... er the east coast. NJ to be exact ;).

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Happy thoughts :)
 
No way!

I grew up in Sussex County, NJ! Whereabouts were you livin'?


I'm super happy your cat came home however. :)


Hope your doing better today. <3<3
 
I'm in Florida (Orlando) now but that picture was taken in my BFs hometown of Long Branch, NJ (near Asbury Park). We used to live 2 miles from that spot.

Also 8 miles across the bay from NYC:

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Fun times in NJ. I'd certainly be there if I could afford it :P.
 
^^ Haha.. I had some good times, was considering moving back there to be closer to family, but decided against it. I like it out here on the west coast SOO much better now. Plus My recovery is currently dependent on on the fellowship I'm involved in out here with AA, I don't wanna leave behind all the new friends I've made, risk not having as good of a fellowship in Jersey and relapsing. So for now I'm stayin put. Not to mention it would be way to easy to relapse on heroin in the North Jersey area..

I'm actually really happy with how I'm doing out here, thinking about going back to school this year. :)
 
@case My parents live in Pennsylvania and my boyfriends family and the majority of our friends live in NJ. I miss both places. Very easy to relapse in NJ no doubt though.

The coast will always have my heart. There is nothing more peaceful than sitting on the beach at night with nobody around but the warm wind and the sound of waves. This quote basically sums it up for me:

“The Sea, once it casts its spell, holds one in its net of wonder forever.”
― Jacques-Yves Cousteau

On another note..support your mind. Fight the cravings. <3
 
So I woke up today, and had the closest thing to a craving I've felt in a couple months... Was very strange. I woke up and for a few minutes it was like I hadn't gotten clean, my mind started going through old patterns of thinking where I was trying to figure out how I was getting money, when/where I was copping, etc. Then I realized what was happening and had to meditate for a few minutes. Reminded myself that I'm sober now, live at an SLE, and CANT FUCKING USE. I also thought about everything I am grateful for in recovery, and within a few minutes it passed and I went on with my day. Was very strange though, caught me off guard. I'm taking it as a healthy reminder that I'm NOT cured, I'm an alcoholic/addict, and I need to continue going to meetings regularly for the rest of my life. I'm almost grateful this happened this morning, I was starting to become complacent in my recovery which is all bad. This is actually exactly what I needed to get me back on my game. :)
 
caseface99 said:
So I woke up today, and had the closest thing to a craving I've felt in a couple months... Was very strange. I woke up and for a few minutes it was like I hadn't gotten clean, my mind started going through old patterns of thinking where I was trying to figure out how I was getting money, when/where I was copping, etc. Then I realized what was happening and had to meditate for a few minutes. Reminded myself that I'm sober now, live at an SLE, and CANT FUCKING USE. I also thought about everything I am grateful for in recovery, and within a few minutes it passed and I went on with my day. Was very strange though, caught me off guard. I'm taking it as a healthy reminder that I'm NOT cured, I'm an alcoholic/addict, and I need to continue going to meetings regularly for the rest of my life. I'm almost grateful this happened this morning, I was starting to become complacent in my recovery which is all bad. This is actually exactly what I needed to get me back on my game. :)
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Keen observation.
 
I'm one week sober, went through my first real physical withdrawal from H. Having experienced that nightmare still doesn't stop me from wanting to use, though. Right now, it's going to be very easy not to use, as I'm on medical leave from work and broke beyond hope. When I start working again, though, that's a different story...
 
I havn't had what I call the hunger type of craving in about a week. My boyfriend put something into perspective for me which was really helpful.

I used to enjoy Mephedrone and rolling in general (unhealthy binging episodes for days kind of thing). One night about 3 years ago he and I and a group of about 7 of our friends went to a spot by the bay (in NJ) and for some reason I was convinced since one of them was back from TX (a lot of backstory but irrelevant) everyone was rolling. I sat there all night miserable complaining to him that everyone was rolling and I wasn't.

I was talking to my boyfriend about how much I love heroin and I am sure the hunger for it will never die and he reminded me of that night. At this day in time I can be offered a "roll" and turn it down. I infact don't even like those types of drugs anymore. For some reason it awakened me. I won't always hunger for it. Because I remember at that time (with our friends) that same hunger was very real and very similar to what I feel about opiates today.

It's been an amazing revelation that I feel set free. Since he's told me this my entire mindset has changed. Yes I still do love heroin but I no longer believe that I will be in this state forever. I will get better and I will refuse it. It hasn't taken away my cravings or love completely but something in me did change.

So for any if you out there can get anything from that like I did I hope you can relate. Perhaps you've been addicted to another substance that you now find repulsive. Just remember that and where you are at now. It was so easy for me to get trapped in my own mind and believe I could never get out of it. But things will always change. <3

Hold on guys <3
 
Awesome post SH, and so true! :)

As addicts we tend to forget that these things are all in our heads. What feels like the end of the world to us in a moment probably wont matter after a short bit of time. We just need to relax, breath, remember the truth, and as you put it - hold on!

Stay strong everyone! <3
 
stardust I can relate. That's how I am about meth. I was a hardcore tweaker for 2 years, what a lot of people might have considered hopelessly addicted (I acted way worse on meth than I EVER did on heroin), but the day I was over it man was I OVER it. I haven't touched that nasty shit in 8 years and do not have a desire to. Everrrrr. Like you said it's good to remember that... it reminds me that a lot of this thing with heroin is just in my head, temporary, and doesn't matter in the bigger picture. <3
 
It was a huge revelation for me. Though I still have mad cravings, they're oddly difference since that day. :) I love reminding myself of it.

Glad you guys could relate <3. It's so true. One day we'll look back on whatever addictions have ailed us and can stand up in triumph that we conquered them all :).

..and of course live to tell the tale ;) <3
 
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