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So I did MDMA again today

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Dawglaw

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As many of you know, I experienced some nasty anxiety and DP/DR for 8 months after being dumb with untested crap.

This happened exactly a year ago. Today, on a whim I took (and tested) about 100mg of MDMA. I had an absolute blast. I am a bit fried after the big weekend but I want to report that I feel fine and am not experiencing any anxiety related issues.

For me, this is proof that my comedown was a ton of stress on my brain rather than "brain damage".

Who knows. Ill update you guys if I have any DP/DR spells over the next few days.
 
Wow! That's awesome! I'm so jelly! Well I hope you don't get any effects since its a tested product. I wish I am in that position. Congratulations keep us posted with any negative effects :)
 
Cheers for the update Dawglaw.

Wow that was brave of you. Interesting to hear your report.

Lets hope theres no returns from the passed fingers crossed.

Good luck!
 
brave
/brāv/
Adjective
Ready to face and endure danger or pain; showing courage.
Noun
People who are ready to face and endure danger or pain.
Verb
Endure or face (unpleasant conditions or behavior) without showing fear: "we had to brave the heat".

So yea it was brave, whether or not it was sensible is another story :P
 
I woke up today and feel hung over and tired but so far so good. No real mental comedown of any sort. No depression or anxiety. I attribute this to the low dose and year break.

T 0:00 - took 80mg.
T +0:45 - took another +- 20mg.
T +1:00 - feeling great
T +1:00-4:00 - spent the rest day drinking and enjoying the massive party known as Bay to Breakers.
T +11:00 - posted on BL.

I didn't really plan on taking MDMA but my buddies bought 250mg. As it was exactly the one year anniversary of my comedown, and I have been better for about four months, I figured why not.

Note the dosages were approximate as we didn't have a mg scale.

I prob won't do it again. Hope this helps anyone wondering about dancing with the devil again.
 
you took quite a risk i say, glad it went well.

i won't touch mdma again, at least for a few years, if at all.
 
Yeah that's glad to hear dawg! I'm with cope I don't think ill touch m again for years but never say never lols.
 
Glad you recovered Dawglaw but why would you risk the same shit again. Keep healthy mate. The stress on your brain is possbily cuz of brain damage? Becuz sert chills ur mind. And if that system broken you ain't that chill right?

And you can rlly say you 'fully' recovered.
 
damn dude. id be too scared to touch it again after going through this
 
Vikingdancer said:
Glad you recovered Dawglaw but why would you risk the same shit again. Keep healthy mate. The stress on your brain is possbily cuz of brain damage? Becuz sert chills ur mind. And if that system broken you ain't that chill right?

And you can rlly say you 'fully' recovered.
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What? Who says that system is "broken"? He said himself he had recovered. There is nothing brave about this, I'll say it again. I don't give a shit what the dictionary has to say.. you take drugs, you comedown. THEN, you come back up again, take more drugs and repeat the cycle all over again.

There is NO reason that you can't try MDMA again after abusing it, and just about everyone I know that has done has been PERFECTLY FINE. Even Somedud, the man who is now dead, potentially from his symptoms... I remember him trying to roll again, and as far as I remember he had a perfectly dandy night with no lasting problems.



MDMA is a drug, it's not something to be afraid of. If you take a safe, tested dose.. what exactly do you people think it is going to do to you.....? Just cause all that serotonin that's been building up for the last 8 months to disappear? 8)
 
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hey, glad you recovered, just want to share smth : I experimented severe reaction to cannabis, 3MMC, salvia wich can be somewhat labelled as "long term comedown" like you (it manifested as depersonalization/derealization, anxiety, depression). The first episode took 5 month to subside. I continued to get high after that, all was ok for some time, then I got another episode. Then another. Luckily they all have subsided. So if u have experienced shit from drugs, if the problem go away (yeah, sometime dp/dr can be lifelong), you can continue to get fucked but you are never 100% sure you will never experiment another episode. So try to limit your MDMA consumption to the minimum !

Interestingly, my symptom have allways manifested as dissociation from myself and the world, and the only class of drugs which actually never done that to me is... dissociative... I can binge, abuse, hole on dissociative (NMDA antagonist) with for the moment no long term effect after.
But if I take 1 hit of salvia, if I abuse cannabis daily for more than 2 week, if I OD on 3MMC, I go dp/dr.
 
Hi guys I would just like to speak on behalf of Dawglaw that he will not be back on bluelight for a while. His DP/DR came back a few days later and is now facing another comedown. Let's hope that he will recover soon. Best of luck bro!
 
Jonnavi said:
Hi guys I would just like to speak on behalf of Dawglaw that he will not be back on bluelight for a while. His DP/DR came back a few days later and is now facing another comedown. Let's hope that he will recover soon. Best of luck bro!
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Dawglaw...nooo! Haha. You are like a shining example of a recovery and you put yourself right back into the hell you went through?? What was so tempting about doing it again? I guess your first comedown was not that bad after all. I am just beginning to feel normal again.. So Mme and drugs are done done done. Once I'm 100% I'm sticking to occasional alcohol and morning coffee... That's it! Cardio, Sex and Music are my drugs.
 
Jonnavi said:
Hi guys I would just like to speak on behalf of Dawglaw that he will not be back on bluelight for a while. His DP/DR came back a few days later and is now facing another comedown. Let's hope that he will recover soon. Best of luck bro!
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Noo , that hurts to hear. I was gonna tell him it was cool that he tried it again but to lay off it for a while as you never know.
But i guess it is too late, Damnet! Hopefully it doesn't bring him into a long come down again.

Me personally , i have taken large breaks in the past rolled again and not suffered long term affects and such. But i never really feel completely right for a week or so after MDMA, something is just not intact. Which is why i don't risk it anymore, i've had my fun with it but this is one drug i really plan to never use again unless there is a female who wants to do it with me on a special night.
 
Hi guys I would just like to speak on behalf of Dawglaw that he will not be back on bluelight for a while. His DP/DR came back a few days later and is now facing another comedown. Let's hope that he will recover soon. Best of luck bro!
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Thats not good news for Dawglaw. Lets hope cause it was a relatively low dose of 100mG the symptoms clear up quicker this time.

There is NO reason that you can't try MDMA again after abusing it, and just about everyone I know that has done has been PERFECTLY FINE. Even Somedud, the man who is now dead, potentially from his symptoms... I remember him trying to roll again, and as far as I remember he had a perfectly dandy night with no lasting problems.

MDMA is a drug, it's not something to be afraid of. If you take a safe, tested dose.. what exactly do you people think it is going to do to you.....? Just cause all that serotonin that's been building up for the last 8 months to disappear?
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^^ mm not so sure about this however..

I think once you have experienced one long term comedown then the risks to go back just seem not worth it. I had one longterm comedown I went back to taking MDMA and two years later another one started this time a lot worse.

I just hope recovery for Dawglaw is quick good luck!!
 
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