my boyfriend and i have dated for over a yr and we have been living together for maybe 6 months now
prior to our relationship i'd only tried weed. after meeting him i tried mdma, e, and cocaine. mdma is by far my choice of drug... e is too long and weird for me, and cocaine is whatever to me esp since i experienced the mdma high first.
anyways, i tried mdma for the first time 4 months into our relationship with my boyfriend. i felt pretty fantastic. i could have been laying anywhere, the bed, the dirty motel floor, and nothing would have stopped me from feeling so amazing. we spent the night talking away for hours, and it definitely help us get to know each other a lot better.
we did mdma for the rest of the summer last year, a lot of the times we did it with his good friend. we'd always just talk or hang out outside while we were on m's. it turned out that his good friend and i have a lot in common in terms of things weve experienced in life and just our general outlook on things. mdma helped speed up the whole "getting to know each other" process between me and my bf, and between me and his friend. it's been a while since ive done mdma, esp with his friend, but since then we've always felt very connected and we always have lots of things to talk about with each other. im not able to talk with my bf the way i do with him. not to say that my boyfriend isnt a deep or intelligent person, but idk, whenever we hang out with him its as if my bf is the third wheel and i feel bad sometimes. i love my boyfriend a lot but lately ive just been turned off by his overall laziness. he's a heavy pot smoker and doesnt want to do anything but play WoW. i dont mind if he plays but thats all he does lately. hes also been laid off from work but doesnt want to find a job, and will instead settle for unemployment insurance.
ive been trying to focus more on myself and sometimes my mind drifts to what my life would be like if i were dating his friend. i truly believe that there would be something between us if i wasnt dating my bf :s and now it's just awkward when his friend is around. is it wrong for me to think about his friend like that? what should i do abt it?
side question... now that im trying to focus on my life (and possibly university) will my relationship with my bf will change? he hasn't done anything wrong to me, he treats me kind and well, but part of me wonders if it's possible to continue being with someone who isnt motivated to do much with his life. he says he wants to be an investor so he can be rich, but he's not putting much effort into studying. i dont know if he genuinely wants to be an investor since he's only lured in by the $.
prior to our relationship i'd only tried weed. after meeting him i tried mdma, e, and cocaine. mdma is by far my choice of drug... e is too long and weird for me, and cocaine is whatever to me esp since i experienced the mdma high first.
anyways, i tried mdma for the first time 4 months into our relationship with my boyfriend. i felt pretty fantastic. i could have been laying anywhere, the bed, the dirty motel floor, and nothing would have stopped me from feeling so amazing. we spent the night talking away for hours, and it definitely help us get to know each other a lot better.
we did mdma for the rest of the summer last year, a lot of the times we did it with his good friend. we'd always just talk or hang out outside while we were on m's. it turned out that his good friend and i have a lot in common in terms of things weve experienced in life and just our general outlook on things. mdma helped speed up the whole "getting to know each other" process between me and my bf, and between me and his friend. it's been a while since ive done mdma, esp with his friend, but since then we've always felt very connected and we always have lots of things to talk about with each other. im not able to talk with my bf the way i do with him. not to say that my boyfriend isnt a deep or intelligent person, but idk, whenever we hang out with him its as if my bf is the third wheel and i feel bad sometimes. i love my boyfriend a lot but lately ive just been turned off by his overall laziness. he's a heavy pot smoker and doesnt want to do anything but play WoW. i dont mind if he plays but thats all he does lately. hes also been laid off from work but doesnt want to find a job, and will instead settle for unemployment insurance.
ive been trying to focus more on myself and sometimes my mind drifts to what my life would be like if i were dating his friend. i truly believe that there would be something between us if i wasnt dating my bf :s and now it's just awkward when his friend is around. is it wrong for me to think about his friend like that? what should i do abt it?
side question... now that im trying to focus on my life (and possibly university) will my relationship with my bf will change? he hasn't done anything wrong to me, he treats me kind and well, but part of me wonders if it's possible to continue being with someone who isnt motivated to do much with his life. he says he wants to be an investor so he can be rich, but he's not putting much effort into studying. i dont know if he genuinely wants to be an investor since he's only lured in by the $.