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I doubt anything will happen, but someone called in a threat to shoot up schools, hospitals, and churches in my town and both of my nephews (who have lived with my mother and I since they were born - essentially making them like my brothers) are at school. The schools are all locked down.

My mom was trying not to cry when she heard about it on the phone from my sister. I thought maybe someone was in the hospital or dead when I saw her reaction to what she was hearing on the phone. My heart just dropped and I felt sick inside. I could feel it all through my body and briefly felt really disconnected from reality and like I had a brief partial out of body experience (this weird kind of mindstate is not new to me, it happens most of the time when I am caught completely off guard by something frightening. Maybe that is just normal, but other people I have told (except for my counselor and my psychiatrist) think it is really strange and some have thought I was making it up.

I hope this situation blows over without incident.

There was an automated call just now as I type this telling everyone to lock there doors. They now know what kind of vehicle he is driving and is said to be armed and dangerous - now it sounds more serious. Nothing like this has happened here before.

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The nursing home my niece is working in has locked down now. She has bad panic attacks and possibly PTSD - she may really be freaking out. The phone has been ringing every few minutes since the first call. I am starting to freak out. Every time the phone rings, I wonder what it is for. I started to cry a little for a few seconds, but got back in control. Now my mom's cell phone is going off.

Another update:
Some of the information seems to have been wrong - the police department is not telling people to lock there doors, just to be careful. Not all of the schools are completely locked down either and the news story is not saying anything about threats to hospitals, just schools and churches. I guess that does not change the situation a lot, just want to be accurate.
 
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Shaking, litteraly. Have to go do something about that, so much stuff on my mind I wish I could relax :(
 
excellent :D <3

I passed the placement exam I need to get into the program I'm transferring into at school come fall semester.

I also got hired for a summer job that starts ~May 17th and I need the money badly. I've worked there before so I'm familiar with the work. It is physically laborious and long hours but I need the money. This year they had a sign saying they are doing drug screens, so I need to quit smoking weed today. Yesterday is the last day I smoked. Hopefully my piss will be clean by then.

I've never known them to use drug tests in the past so it may just be a scare tactic, but I am quitting the pot anyway. I've been wanting to quit for years now and I finally have an excuse to get myself a little bit of clean time away from the trees.

I'm also finished with all my finals and finished this semester with just under a 4.0 - My cumulative GPA is above a 3.9 as well ;)

Basically, everything that could have gone wrong this past week didn't go wrong. It is like a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Quitting weed after 13 years isn't going to be pleasant but it is something I need to do, I know it in my heart. I'm almost 30 and at this point I can't afford weed nor does it give me anywhere close to all the the pleasures it used to. Honestly, weed has felt more harmful than beneficial for my mental health/well-being for a long time now.

I've failed quitting multiple times in the past but I honestly think this time is different. I have a lot going for me right now.
 
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Congratulations on your good work!

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Everything end up okay TD?

Sad.
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Yeah, the guy was caught. He apparently had taken guns, ammo, and body armor from a relatives house, so it could have ended up bad. The man who did it may have a head injury from blows to the head he received in some kind of fight prior to all this.

Hope you get to feeling better.
 
In so much Pain , broke my foot last night while texting and walking down my stairs. So I'm pretty pissed off that I will be missing a good amount of work for a few weeks.:(
 
Hey TDS

My word is sad. Im sad about myself and Im losing the grip I have on optimism of this life being worth it.

I just want some love from the family I know will always be here for me.
 
villian said:
excellent :D <3

I passed the placement exam I need to get into the program I'm transferring into at school come fall semester.

I also got hired for a summer job that starts ~May 17th and I need the money badly. I've worked there before so I'm familiar with the work. It is physically laborious and long hours but I need the money. This year they had a sign saying they are doing drug screens, so I need to quit smoking weed today. Yesterday is the last day I smoked. Hopefully my piss will be clean by then.

I've never known them to use drug tests in the past so it may just be a scare tactic, but I am quitting the pot anyway. I've been wanting to quit for years now and I finally have an excuse to get myself a little bit of clean time away from the trees.

I'm also finished with all my finals and finished this semester with just under a 4.0 - My cumulative GPA is above a 3.9 as well ;)

Basically, everything that could have gone wrong this past week didn't go wrong. It is like a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Quitting weed after 13 years isn't going to be pleasant but it is something I need to do, I know it in my heart. I'm almost 30 and at this point I can't afford weed nor does it give me anywhere close to all the the pleasures it used to. Honestly, weed has felt more harmful than beneficial for my mental health/well-being for a long time now.

I've failed quitting multiple times in the past but I honestly think this time is different. I have a lot going for me right now.
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Good luck quitting weed. Definitely underrated. Make sure you keep up with your vitamins and good eating habits during detox. Take melatonin to help sleep. Most of all, you have this, just stay confident <3
 
{Sick&Tired} of being discriminated against for my looks when applying for jobs.

Employer: "Are you willing to cut your hair and remove your piercings?"
Me: "Am I working where the customers can see me?"
Employer: "No, but that doesn't matter."
Me: "If my appearance has no effect on business then it's discrimination and I refuse to change it."
 
^Good on you for taking a stand for yourself! I know that's hard to do sometimes, but the fact that you stood up to your boss and refuse to be anyone other than yourself takes a lot. It says a lot about you and your strength. <3

Keep your head up, badfish. This world needs your optimism. If you want to talk, you know how to get a hold of me. <3

My word now is busy. One week left of classes and the finals week. Trying to wrap my head around everything going on over the next couple weeks. 8(
 
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{Sick&Tired} of being discriminated against for my looks when applying for jobs.

Employer: "Are you willing to cut your hair and remove your piercings?"
Me: "Am I working where the customers can see me?"
Employer: "No, but that doesn't matter."
Me: "If my appearance has no effect on business then it's discrimination and I refuse to change it."
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I hate to be "that guy", and I applaud your sense of self and individuality, but nearly every place I have ever worked has had a dress code. When I worked at a call center for Sprint I had to tuck in my shirt and wear a tie every day even though I would *never* see a customer since it was a call center.

Rules and regulations in a workplace don't always equate to discrimination. Let me make it clear that I am not arguing discrimination doesn't exist.

badfish45 said:
Hey TDS

My word is sad. Im sad about myself and Im losing the grip I have on optimism of this life being worth it.

I just want some love from the family I know will always be here for me.
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Thank you for your kind words, and I hope you and I both are able to stay optimistic <3
There is beauty everywhere sometimes we just have to struggle to see it.
 
villian said:
I hate to be "that guy", and I applaud your sense of self and individuality, but nearly every place I have ever worked has had a dress code. When I worked at a call center for Sprint I had to tuck in my shirt and wear a tie every day even though I would *never* see a customer since it was a call center.
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Don't feel bad about being 'that guy'. I hear it constantly. I'm happy to adhere to a dress code, but in my case I work in kitchens. Always out of the public eye and no dress code ever has anything written into it that allows them to discriminate against hair styles (colours are a different story) and ear piercings (I take out my lip ring anyway). Under our discrimination act (Aus), no employer can ask an employee to alter their appearance if it has no direct effect on the performance of the business.

To be honest, it'd look worse if I turned up to work bald with my tunnels out and my ear flesh just dangling. I've been in a hiring position before and have had to turn down people because of piercings/hair when they applied for Front of House work.
 
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