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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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maxalfie said:
Sorry to hear that acieed_ed,never good when you lose someone unexpectedly.
Just try to make sure you don't use this as a reason to go on a drugs binge yourself.
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cheers i appreciate it max. Naw me and my mates are pulling together looking out for each other i wudnt use it as a reason to go wild it has a sobering effect on me.
 
Just got told by Mum that me uncle got shipped off to hospital with chest pains and ended up getting a stent put in his heart. Still in at the moment. Obviously not too serious (I hope?) but goddamn scary because he's only 35 and has three kids with a fourth on the way :( Love him to bits and kills me to think of him stuck in a hospital bed with shit like that going on.

Much love to all you that have lost someone recently <3
 
snolly said:
Just got told by Mum that me uncle got shipped off to hospital with chest pains and ended up getting a stent put in his heart. Still in at the moment. Obviously not too serious (I hope?) but goddamn scary because he's only 35 and has three kids with a fourth on the way :( Love him to bits and kills me to think of him stuck in a hospital bed with shit like that going on.

Much love to all you that have lost someone recently <3
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I'm sorry to hear that snolly :( but for what it's worth, my grandfather had that happen to him a couple decades ago, he's now in his mid-80s and still going strong. It's not a death setnence by any means :)

gayorstraight said:
I have to go to a funeral on Friday.
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:( no one you were too close to I hope? :\
 
Fucked up. Lost my job, found out yesterday. I think I jumped in too quick , like I do with everything, thought I was ready, clearly wasn't. Didn't help that my shared care support worker pretty much abandoned me when she found out i'd got a job, and made it really really difficult for me to maintain my methadone script around working hours. I had no support at all for getting back into work. Only 17 per cent of people in shared care, actually have jobs in Bristol, i'd have thought she'd jump at the chance to say she had one of them on her books.

Going to use this time free now to do what I should have done last time, and volunteer, go to group therapy, sort my head. Find out why in 13 years, I've never been able to be clean of any substance, not just what is problematic at one particular time.

And the cycle starts again.
 
Ack. Just saw this. That's deeply shitty, Cherry :(<3

Sounds like you have made sensible plans to fill your days though. Definitely a good idea to try to get your head around the underlying causes of stuff rather than just focussing on the immediate issues. Drugs are great recreationally but pretty shithouse when it's almost entirely addictive use. I hope you find something that works for you <3
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
Going to use this time free now to do what I should have done last time, and volunteer, go to group therapy, sort my head. Find out why in 13 years, I've never been able to be clean of any substance, not just what is problematic at one particular time.

And the cycle starts again.
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It doesn't sound to me like you've fucked up or are in a cycle - you've learned what you need to do, which is figure out the underlying causes. Sounds like a step in the right direction to me. <3
 
Shambles said:
Ack. Just saw this. That's deeply shitty, Cherry :(<3

Sounds like you have made sensible plans to fill your days though. Definitely a good idea to try to get your head around the underlying causes of stuff rather than just focussing on the immediate issues. Drugs are great recreationally but pretty shithouse when it's almost entirely addictive use. I hope you find something that works for you <3
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Just noticed your reply, I've not been reading BL much. Yeah, i'm still getting there, i've not made any steps in the direction of sorting out volunteer work, or even got myself to the drop in meeting to start group work...but it'll happen.

swampdragon said:
It doesn't sound to me like you've fucked up or are in a cycle - you've learned what you need to do, which is figure out the underlying causes. Sounds like a step in the right direction to me. <3
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Yeah, maybe I have, but I also know that I've done this fuck up, and cycle and LEARNED what I need to do time and time again. Maybe this time will be the final time though!!!
 
Exactly: maybe it will be the final time, Cherry :)

How many times did I go round and round making the same mistakes, falling at the same (or broadly similar) hurdles? Setback after setback. Circumstance after shitty circumstance. Fuck up after fuck up. Then there was the final time (or at least the final time to date) and the cycle ended. I had no real way of knowing it had ended at the time but it had. Or has done thus far anyway and has been long enough for me to be cautiously optimistic it's staying that way.

If you want the cycle to end then it will. Sooner or later. Don't get too down about it cos relapses and setbacks are very much par for the course. Is utterly exhausting and horribly disheartening but you will get there in the end :)<3
 
I'm sorry CCF...but I think you're definitely right in using this 'opportunity' to really take care of yourself and address whatever needs addressing. It'll all pay off in the end no matter how difficult it may be now. Good luck <3

I've decided to stop trying to stay clear of opiates/heroin. Or maybe I haven't decided and my dug addict brain is convincing me I have, whatever really. But whatever lies heroin is telling me are definitely more worthwhile than the false belief there's actually something to get from this place. So fuck it.
 
Oh well look who's got me so clearly figured out! Good job, I can tell you've done your research. I just <3 being judged by people who know nothing about me!!

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Oh, looks like something was lost in translation there, Pagey, I think he was just trying to say that you have already passed the Point Of No Return. Fuxxed your brain chemistry for life.

:D <3

Opiate habits are pretty shit especially if you're young and still healthy and excitable (guess I'm sort of judging here), even the minor habits, so please don't fuk up. Uh i'm not very good at this.
 
lurching said:
Oh, looks like something was lost in translation there, Pagey, I think he was just trying to say that you have already passed the Point Of No Return. Fuxxed your brain chemistry for life.
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Well if that was the meaning that was also not exactly helpful or appropriate :\

Opiates don't "fuxxed your brain chemistry for life". They certainly do a helluva number on you for a while after quitting - extreme drops into hellish depression which feels all-consuming combined with occasional bursts of almost delirious happiness here and there (sadly rarely often enough to be useful). But that stage does end.

It's really not for other people to go passing judgement on anybody in such situations. Walk a mile and all that. Being snarky about peoples' choices only adds to bad feelings and Pagey is obviously not feeling so great at the moment so really not helpful at all. A month off opies is incredibly impressive for anybody who's had a heroin habit. Relapses are par for the course. And besides, sometimes people have quite valid reasons for using - at least at certain times of their lives. I know for myself that whenever I used to relapse I got a mixture of grief (from people who have no idea of quite how hard it is to stay away from opies), piss-taking (cos there are plenty addicts who really don't get why anybody would even try to quit cos they're still so wrapped up in opiworld) and encouragement to just get back to habitual use full-throttle (cos there are plenty addicts who love nothing more than seeing an attempt at quitting fail). None of this helped. At all.

For me, the best approach for addictions is to strongly support and encourage when somebody is trying to quit and to back off when they aren't. When they're ready to try again they will do so and that is time to get back to supporting and encouraging. When they're not the last thing anybody needs is shit from people - especially people who know not of what they speak.
 
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