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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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It's mum's job to worry, they'll do it no matter what. It's probably better that she has something tangible to worry about than a vague worrying about everything :)

Welcome to BL <3
 
<3 thanks.

I said "please please don't worry". She said "tell the sun not to shine". I think I got it through her sunshiny head that it's like booze but less bad. Obviously I didn't tell her about the blackouts.

Yes, she'll keep worrying, but I'll keep trying to be sensible. These days I want to esape more and more though...
 
You think GBL is 'less bad' than booze, I beg to differ.

I have never discussed my illegal drug use with my parents for two reasons, they have never asked and they are really very ignorant about such things.

Knocks right though parent will worry regardless it's in the job description, my parent have tended to look at things like kids and house and job as the markers of happiness and success, there are times I wish I felt the same.

I'd ease up on that G though, so many people have been caught out and ended up dosing every couple of hours 24/7 and digging your way out of such a situation is not pleasant.

ATB
 
Telling my parents about my problems with MDPV was fucked up bvut ultimately ended up being one the first steps on the road to sorting my shit out, and was a huge weight off my shoulders in the end...
 
Just had a phone call a little while ago from one of my sisters telling me that my mum had been round to see her earlier this evening and told her that she has got skin cancer in 3 places on her chest.
I'm sure she said the cancer is all on her chest but not breast cancer. She's only found out herself but I think the doctors are gonna try to remove it then see if my mum needs radiotherapy or something as a follow up treatment.
Am in shock at the moment so can't imagine how my mum feels. Will call her tmrw for a talk as she will be in bed now.
 
My mum had breast cancer (not the same I know) about 20 years ago, and it was caught in time; she is in the best of health now, aged 80. Not pleasant, but cancer can be beat; the stats are pretty good. I'm sure you've already looked.

It fucking freaked me out when I found out. I basically cut myself off, as I didn't know how to respond. I forgive myself now, as I was a stupid fucking teenager, but the guilt was pretty bad for a few years. Be around for her :) although you are likely more sensible than the 19 year old knock.
 
Thanks Knock, yeah I will certainly be around for her when she needs me.Just in shock at mo, she always eats healthy & has never smoked but I guess you can never tell who will get cancer or when.
Fingers crossed everything will be ok for her.
 
maxalfie said:
Just had a phone call a little while ago from one of my sisters telling me that my mum had been round to see her earlier this evening and told her that she has got skin cancer in 3 places on her chest.
I'm sure she said the cancer is all on her chest but not breast cancer. She's only found out herself but I think the doctors are gonna try to remove it then see if my mum needs radiotherapy or something as a follow up treatment.
Am in shock at the moment so can't imagine how my mum feels. Will call her tmrw for a talk as she will be in bed now.
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I'm so sorry maxalfie. My father's had stomach cancer for about a year now so I know how it feels and I'm always here if you'd like to talk. Don't give up hope though. My grandfather had skin cancer a few years ago and is now completely cured - the stats are pretty good for that one. Just be there for her and don't forget to be there for yourself, either. <3
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
I am sad today.

Made to feel pretty shit by someone who I thought respected me.

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Story of my life that one. Everyone's on your side til they screw you over though. My own sister stabbed me in the back with my last boyfriend years ago. No-ones exempt. Self preservation is absolutely necessary. HAving barriers up isn't always a bad thing. I'm sad too - chin up hun, at least we can trust ourselves ;-)
 
K88ABY said:
Story of my life that one. Everyone's on your side til they screw you over though. My own sister stabbed me in the back with my last boyfriend years ago. No-ones exempt. Self preservation is absolutely necessary. HAving barriers up isn't always a bad thing. I'm sad too - chin up hun, at least we can trust ourselves ;-)
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She's a bit fucked up and has obviously been hurt in the past and decided she's going to hurt other people before they get the chance to hurt her now. Apparently.

She wasn't even my girlfriend, it was just the way in which she did what she did that was really shitty. For fuck sake :(:(:(
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
She's a bit fucked up and has obviously been hurt in the past and decided she's going to hurt other people before they get the chance to hurt her now. Apparently.

She wasn't even my girlfriend, it was just the way in which she did what she did that was really shitty. For fuck sake :(:(:(
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Oh bless you. There are always reasons behind these 'things'. We've all been hurt at some point. But I for one, like to treat people how I expect to be treated myself. Sounds like a cliche I know, but there is a lot to be said for that one. The same as how we tend to judge people by our own standards. I think the fact that you are hurting just proves that you are a decent enough person to in turn, not inflict this kind of pain onto anyone else.
Sometimes we need a kick in the teeth, I really believe that. It keeps us in touch with reality. And with any luck - we learn from them. If I look back at how badly I have been treated by literally everybody in my past, I can now honestly, silently thank them for it. Because the emotional rollercoaster the people closest to me have sent me on over the years, has made me who I am today. Once your pain from this subsides, you'll be a better person because of it.
 
maxalfie said:
Just had a phone call a little while ago from one of my sisters telling me that my mum had been round to see her earlier this evening and told her that she has got skin cancer in 3 places on her chest.
I'm sure she said the cancer is all on her chest but not breast cancer. She's only found out herself but I think the doctors are gonna try to remove it then see if my mum needs radiotherapy or something as a follow up treatment.
Am in shock at the moment so can't imagine how my mum feels. Will call her tmrw for a talk as she will be in bed now.
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Just saw this. Terrible news, Max. But as others have said - there's good chances of good outcomes much of the time. All the best to you both <3

knock said:
It fucking freaked me out when I found out. I basically cut myself off, as I didn't know how to respond. I forgive myself now, as I was a stupid fucking teenager, but the guilt was pretty bad for a few years. Be around for her :) although you are likely more sensible than the 19 year old knock.
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This is very good advice. Something I've been guilty of too. Somebody close to me is pretty riddled with cancer. No chance of recovery. Is a question of when not if she goes. I did exactly what you said up there, Knock - cut myself off and not exactly avoided her but certainly not gone out of my way to visit. So easy to make excuses about how she's probably not up to seeing visitors and wants to spend her time with family anyway. Is really just cos it's so hard to watch somebody you really care for slowly dying before you.

However, I did see her just recently and she's doing great. Cancer seems to be moving less aggressively at the moment and she's looking good and perky and is full of life as it's been a while since last chemo session. Definitely need to make a point of visiting more. May be hard now but will surely regret it immensely when it's too late.

Cornishman said:
Fuck.
Just found out my nan died this morn.

It hasn't settled in yet.
Tis gonna hit me at some point.
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:(

This thread really is the Sad Thread of late.

<3
 
Sorry to hear that Cornish mate, it's hard to take in when someone passes on suddenly as it leaves you in a state of shock.
All the best mate.
 
Shambles said:
Just saw this. Terrible news, Max. But as
others have said - there's good chances of
good outcomes much of the time. All the
best to you both
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Thanks Shambles and everybody else for your advice and support.
I've spoken to my mum now and she is saying that she feels fine and doesn't want any of us to worry. She said they won't know how serious it is until they have taken a biopsy to have a look at.
In the mean time she is off to Scotland for a week with a friend for a break, so it's good to see she is just getting on with things.
Hopefully all will be as there are a lot worse cancers that she could have had.
I can't believe how many families have been affected by someone with cancer.
 
Found out an old pal who i used drugs with a few years back died of an overdose last week he was beyound help and didnt want it still makes me feel rotten his parents are nearly 70 im sad for them the most
Rip mate :-*
 
Sorry to hear that acieed_ed,never good when you lose someone unexpectedly.
Just try to make sure you don't use this as a reason to go on a drugs binge yourself.
 
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